Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Lucy

Ok last night was Just LAUGHS I tell ya....

I was @ work, and it was L Lady,M, Lucy and I.........

Now Lucy has been on harping me for a long while to tell him why I call him "Lucy"...and I never wanted to tell him as well...he would fucking kill me...but after a few months he wore me down and about 3 weeks ago I told him....


Ok

Now anyone who has seen the L Word ...Knows about the character Lisa. Well...........When I met Lucy he reminded me of that guy on the L Word, lol..............I mean he looks like him, acts like him, he is sensitive...the only thing is he isn’t into all that aurora shit...Ok so I tell Lucy this and he is just like

WHAT!!!

Well 1st of all he had never seen the show, so I then had to xplain to him who this Lisa was and who he was on the show.............OMG..........I thought I was gonna pee...cos he was just OMG!!!!

Anyhoo this was 3 weeks ago, and he has pretty much just let go the fact that I am always going to call him Lucy (I call him Lucy cos we have a Lisa @ work and she is well............Gblaaaaaahhhh...so I picked Lucy as to not completely shatter Lucy's feelings, or those he has left)

Ok moving on..........

So last night...we were talking about movies, and I have been giving Lucy a list every night of movies to watch as he has seen NOTHING of taste. Well the last flick I had him watch was Silence of the Lambs, and of course he loved it. He then went onto say that that’s the only movie he likes Jodi Foster in............I gave him this funky look and said "The only reason you don’t like her is cos she's gay" (I know, I know.... unconfirmed, but COME on!)
Ok so he goes........."I didn’t even know she was gay" " Me " well she is, you seem to not like many actresses/actors if they are gay" So then he goes.... "Let me get this straight. I am a Lesbian identfided male who is homophonic against other lesbians?"...........

I go " yea!... something like that!'.............

Then it got better cos we were talking about make-up later on in the evening, he was watching some show...and so he was a lil confused about what exactly mascara was for and the purpose of eye liner, so I go " Your not a very good lesbian!"...........And he goes " I must be butch!"


LMAO!

All night I was ROLLING!!!

Cos of course this went on ALL night.............

So at the end of the night he decides he is going to go and watch the L word and see this Lisa guy so he knows what the fuck I am laughing for............

He wrote me:

By the way, I watched the episode of the L word, and I guess I do kind of look like the guy, but I don’t know about the behavior. :) Anyway, after watching that I am going to take a cold shower, and hit the sack :)

I cannot believe he actually watched the show............

I woke up this morning just LAUHGING..........OMG it was so funny....

Poor Lucy

I do love him though

Although we must work on making him a more lipstick type of a male identified lesbian...........

It’s a must....


In other news..........
I am off to meet the Professor...............we got sidetracked yesterday..............so hope all goes well..........


Time to shower and leave...........

More later.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

boogie

Well tonight was in a word 'OUTRAGEOUS!'

I did my thang all day...........

Worked out.
Cleaned.
Shopped for groceries.

Ya know........

Stayed busy.


Then Antonio’s came over and pretty much told me I was going out with him and Deb (my Cousin) to get my mind off of the Professor.........

So I say

Sure.........yea...whatever...

Well...........I get ready...pretty basic stuff...a tank top, shorts, sandals...I go next door to get Deb and she is one of those women who dresses to the 9's every time she goes out.........well her daughter Shara was doing her make-up (Shara would be the ex-stripper, so you know she is the professional make-uper doer) anyhoo.........I say to Shara."Do my eyes".

Ok

Well she did and I don’t mean to brag, but OMG...I looked COOL tonight...

So off we go.........Antonio’s (my best gay guy friend) Deb, and myself.

We hit the club, well Antonio’s ditches Deb and I right off...so I am standing there and Deb who BTW is 51 but looks 30 ...is on the man hunt...not just for herself but for me..............and I am not there 3 minutes and she finds Nick...he is 5'10,dark hair, built, gorgeous and 22............OK

Well we dance all night...and by dancing I mean we danced like grind ur ass off dance.....uh huh....DANCE.....

To make a long story short... Deb was with his 22 yr old best friend all night and I with my 22 yr ol Nicky.............


Antonio’s finally came and got us...........and we ditched the boyz.........who were more than happy to accompany us home...at 2AM. ( we left em standing there........lost boyz that they were.......but cute and sexy as hell!)

Deb just now left to go home..............well...........to her room...as we sat up and talked all night and laughed our asses off............and lemme tell ya the conversation we had tonight was quite odd.............to sum it up I had to tell her that she isn’t gay......uh huh.......cos for some reason she was wondering if she was.........so in the process I had to tell her I would know...which led to more questions and me questioning myself after the Nicky incident tonight (plus the fact I now have a hickey from Nicky ( reminds me of that line in Grease).......all I can say is that it must be Karma.

Anyway...we came home...ALONE...and all is well and good.

I had a great time, as I haven’t danced like that in ages...

Saturday, August 27, 2005

anew

Today is a bran new day..........and I intend to make the most of it.

I am hitting the gym 1st............then I am off to cook my skin cos lets face it I am fading fast......

Then its back home to finish up the home............and maybe MAYBE I might go to the Temptations tonight.......as they are playing at Hot August Nights as well. I guess 'ol Mr. Gramm Sucked ass last night, so I didn’t miss much........

I am going to stay busy.............and then even busier......

O

Congrats to Stace who has started her new job at the Hospital in Hillsboro today. I just talked to her and she is dong well, and she made me feel better too............so congrats to her..........

AND!!!!!

OH OH!!

BINKS!!!

Gave me some GREAT news last night, he is going to MED SCHOOL.........so I am very happy and sooooo proud of him. Cos now in about 10 yrs I will get free medical attention.

;)


Speaking of medical attention Mr.C might be coming down with a bug, he was getting sick all night.......so I am hoping it was just a 24 hr dealy................cos he is now on the LIST and could get a new kidney @ any moment...........

makes my eyes water every time I say that...........cos he has been through hell the past 4 years....and then some......

I must end this.........I have the Patch back on.....cos I AM GOING TO QUIT THIS TIME..........I am sick of spitting up pieces of me lungs............I don’t think they really like it either, plus Lucy is really concerned about me as he REALLY REALLY KNOWS ABOUT MEDICAL SCIENCE STUFF......so trust me on this he does knows what every single drag is doing to my body...... ( apparently my dried up nostrils and the fact I am getting nose bleeds stems from the fact I smoke) Isnt that grand?




So there’s that...........

Ok then boyz and grrlz

I am off to do the she's a manic thang.

More later.

Didnt

I stayed in tonight.............my family and I had drinks and told tall tales and laughed all night.........

Was a good night................


so I am relaxed..................

tom. I am finishing up my bathroom (painting, cleaning) and hooking up odds and ends..............

Sunday I am doing WSU stuff..........get caught up..............

Life goes on..........

as always....

Friday, August 26, 2005

SUPERvisor





Went in 2 wrk today............I punched in and Lavender ( my boss) was standing there. She looked @ me and asked "what’s wrong?" I say " I have had 6 hrs of sleep in the last 2 days" So she being the fabulous wonderful woman she is........sent me home.

:)


So I am going to REST!

Although................Lou Gramm of Foreigner is playing tonight @ Hot August Nights and Lucy wants me to go............I told him I would think about it....as well Mr. C and Angel Grrl might B going. ( Yes they R back 2gether once again........seems she is in counseling 2 figure out Y she likes dating abusive men, NOT CLINTON, her EX........JUST want to make that CLEAR!! and apparently asked Mr.C if she could talk 2 me about her issues, not that I have experience with this as I don’t, my mother on the other hand, well that's a totally diff. story) Ok where was I? O yess..................rambling on about my day...........So I am not sure if I am going to go or not.........seems like I wanna chill at home.........but then I love concerts cos its a great way to vent out frustrations and I can flirt with 10,000 people..........and trust me I do.......tis always fun.........

So I don’t know if the I AM GOING 2 REST statement is exactly true.......BUT I really should......but I really don’t want to be alone tonight either..........so I shall have to decide.........

Moving on.....

I found some great pics of my lil brother and OUR kitty Domino on me phone 2day and thought I would share.........so I am gonna cos I have mentioned on here how MUCH I really love my kitty....she be me babyz............

and......



Cos I am so sweet.............

I am.

Reallly.....

Dont buy into everything you hear people.....

;)


Mr. C....in all his Splendor.......

life

First of all on days like this, I am o so happy I have this Blog as it truly is my personal ventilation tool...regardless of the fact that total strangers read it, I am happy to have it as today...I am going to use it for all its worth.

So lets begin.........

The last week has been HELL!

Totally.
Utter.

HELL

Landman- My Landman told me he was needlessly and hopelessly in love with me..........wrote me a letter telling me this...........sent me some weird pics of himself (The family and I have come to the conclusion he is a cross-dresser) so you get the idea. He has RUINED my tiling in my bathroom as he a drunkard that was only over here so he could stare at me...........which lately I haven’t any idea as to why anyone would want to cos I know I have aged 10000 yrs....but that’s a diff story for another time...so anyyywaayyy George Landman finally left for Alaska (hopefully he meets a nice Eskimo and igloos up for eternity) and he is now out of my hair.

Carpet- Carpet is done and looks BEAUTIFUL!!! I am very happy with the results. Mr. C and I busted our asses off yesterday getting this house in order...I mean we basically moved everything out of the house and back in yesterday. Lucy came over at 7AM to help us as Georges daughter was supposed to be here as she and her BF were paid to move all of our things out....I HAD to call the twit to wake her up, and then last night left 2 messages on her Cell telling her it was now time to return to move the stuff back in. She calls me @ 9ish and GOES OFF on me........and ummmm..........well I am not someone to talk to like this.................and I must say I handled it rather well...............but I was extremely busy, so I will admit the next time I run into her.......well she wont like it................

Brother- this whole nonsense and experience with Landman has brought my brother and I closer together than I ever thought possible. He really is very, very, verrrrryyyyyy protective over me................and I couldn’t be more proud to call him my best friend and brother...........

Thank You Clinton

Mother- 7 yrs ago on the 23rd of August I lost my mother. My Rock. I miss her..........terribly..........and since I have been so damn busy with this house and Etc.I didn’t get a chance to pay my respects. I went today, just returned actually, cos to be honest ( this will sound really corny) I missed my mommy...............so I went and CRIED for a long time.................and cleaned her 'spot' and talked to her..............and I felt so much better afterwards......

School- Couldn’t tell ya............Haven’t even opened a fucking book..........aint that great? Although I did read my Algebra book...............everyone keeps telling me I am smart and will be OK.

Uh huh


Work- Don’t know................been off for the last few days.............I work 2night, and have the weekend off.............but to be honest I am looking forward to going to get away from home and my thoughts and feelings.

Stace- What can I say?..........she knows me so well.........and always say's the right things.........wish we could a worked it out..............but I am glad we are friends cos she is the only one who can make me laugh while I am crying.

Lucy- We have been spending allot of time together...........he is going through a horrendous divorce...........and well..........we have become really close friends, BUT.....now here is the infamous BUT........he told me last night

"I woke up today......just happy......." I say " That’s great, cos you need to have good days!" He replies " Ya know why don’t cha?"...me " Uhhhhhhhhh No" He says " Well I woke up with someone on my mind and it made me so happy"... I say " your boys?" ( He has 3) He says "No......YOU......your smile, I thought about you all day and I was so happy!".....

Me "SILENT'

It takes allot to make me speechless. and I mean allot...........but he did.......cos I did not see this coming AT ALL..............

So now..........I dunno . He is my friend................and I don’t want any more than that from him.





Anyhoo......
...................The Professor is in the middle of ALOT and so I just did the noble and right thing and said that she needed to focus on that............... and left it.

Trust me I didn’t want to......

It was not easy to be good and wise and all that, but sometimes one must do what one must do.


So there you go.............

I feel .................


That’s the problem

I feel.


Why me?


Ok then..............that’s about all for now

O!!!

I got me chain back 2day!!!!!!

YAYYYYYYEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS!!


I am happy bout that, cept it made me think the way it was broken ........I mean I sometimes think like this.........as the chain symbolizes a time in mylfe...........that it was broken by another that maybe the breaking of the chain was a sign or something.............

Hmmmmmmmmmmm?


I know

I am crzzyyy

But hell I’m allot of fun.

Just ask Lucy, Stace, Patti, Binks,.......

;)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

baaaaaad

Ever wanted someone......so bad........but......knew it was not meant 2 b

?


that's when u got it bad.....

and if this feeling transpires after only a few meetings........

Well then you really have it baaaaaadddddddd


Its my chain man.......

I need it back

NOW

Monday, August 22, 2005

$

Ok so I am paying OFF all of my DEBTS...........I only have credit card left and then I am debt free save for the car payment. I paid for 6 month of car insurance so I am good there as well..........My RIBS which cost me 255$ are now paid off as well...I owe a few bucks to OREFUCKINGON so I am paying those MF's off as well...

Lemme see.........that will leave me Macy's card and ummmmmmm one credit card...

Tis all

I am in the clear...and still have $ to play with...which anyone who knows me knows I wont...

Ok then

I am off to la la land cos lemme tell ya Bloggers, the drama in mylfe has been UNBELIVEABLE...and I am not even gonna go there tonight.

Time for the much needed

ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzs

Sunday, August 21, 2005

car

I now have my own car
I bought a 2000 Toyota Camry

its cherry

Im happy

TOYOTA!!!!!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Ponder

If Jimmy crapped corn and nobody cared......................
Then why in the fuck did they write a song about it?


In mylfe

I am doing a meet-n-greet tom. So I am hoping it goes well.........speaking of meet-n-greets, 'ol Stace has enough material about her recent adventures to write a small book ...I mean we are talking laugh out loud material............I can hardly breath when she gets through telling me about her latest date.com
Needless 2 say after today’s lil hoorah she has CLOSED her profile...........so for all those poor sappy souls out there in search of love and laughs I hate to tell ya, Stace is off the datedot.com scene..........

I have never been one to do the dot.com dating thing, but I had to sign up to read Stacey's profile and so after much prodding and pushing I am going to meet someone tom. @ The WSU campus.... I need to buy me books and I feel what the hell, I can kill 2 birds with one stone, nothing to lose and much to gain, I meself may just get enuff material to write a paragraph...

Maybe 2

;)

I Joke

I have respect for this person and would NEVER say or do anything at another’s expense for a laugh...............

NEVER

cum

OMG!
this is just

well

cumlarious


cum

Professor

I met the Professor .............

I am smitten


And its not good cos....well I usually get fucked over when I am smitten...........

We had a great night..........and morning……. and I guess when I go to school in the morrow we are meeting for lunch to discuss 'stuff'


I can hardly wait…

O

And the Professor broke my Chinese Gold chain.............my lucky chain....

Bad luck man

It’s getting fixed in the MORNING!!!


I have to admit the way it was broken was quite fun...

*eg*

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

no-call

Ok I have a beef...........don’t cha just loooooooove it when someone says their gonna call and then don’t? Why even say your gonna call if your not? I mean really? Stace and I just had this same conversation and we feel that if you aren’t going to or don’t have the flippin intention to make the call, then...

DONT SAY YOU WILL!!!!

I mean.............honestly...........

Ok moving on..........

Somehow Mr. C has lost or had his damn house keys stolen from his key ring. I mean the person(s) took both keys completely off of his key ring and so now I have to have the locks changed ASAP as in mi nada !!
DAMN!!!

If it isn’t one thing its another.............

Lemme see what else...........work went well...I am updating my resume' and looking for a new J in the field I am actually going to school for...life is to short to hate waking up in the AM dreading the day cos of the work one is doing. Sure the $ is tight, but my frustration aint tight......aint tight.......at all!

In other news....

I am buying a new sectional couch to go with the new decor of my house (If the fuckers who stole my brothers keys don’t rob us and kill us 1st) after the new carpet gets laid..........

Oh the irony

More later

Monday, August 08, 2005

after

Well We all survived Mr.C's 30th Hoorah..............and let me say...personally...I am so happy this only happens ONCE in a lifetime as we did her up good..............Tequila shots for everyone ALL night..........everyone had a great time...I didn’t lose my famous temper, I actually think Mr. C and I became a bit closer (that and he kept tackling me with his over-bearing hugs). The only thing that did happen is Mr.C's gf Angel Grrl WENT OFF on lil Bethy...whom is just a great friend of Mr. C's (he has a TON of women friends...and I mean a TON...if you did get them all together on huge weigh thingy, well then you would see)
anyhoo..........Angel Grrl seen them both huggin after Bethy bought Mr.C a shot for his Big THREE -O...and well she flipped the fuck Out!!!

Bouncer had to intervene, I had to intervene...and pretty much after that they ( Angel and Mr.C) were fighting and well.............she was escorted out and he was unhappy the remainder of the night........this happedned at 1ish I think... so not all was lost.

I had fun...I didn’t however enjoy the after effects ...ummmm...I felt like a BIGGER train hit me and well.........just kept hitting me repeatedly for 12 hours.........

So needless 2 say I am good on the consuming end of mylfe............its ALL good. and Its ALL over!

Moving on.....


Today I must clean me room.... as............well I tend to let it just clutter up with books and water bottles..............so that’s me plan, as well as find my Algebra book to try and remember the x+y/y-x= BS!!

I must give a BIG thank you to Stacey who CRACKS me up whenever I fell like death.... I am o so happy she is back.............but on another sad note Patti Anne is still MIA..........phone is dead...I am really worried as she wasn’t doing all that well when we last talked..........my not coming didn’t help...although she would never admit that...

Well then............I shall end this............work out.........I am now on the 2nd day of no SMOKING...........patch is going on.........and there you go...........


More later

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Almost

I am a bit sluggish 2day...........

Check this....

I go out after working 11 and some odd hours and have 4 beers........FOUR!!! Wake up @ 9:30 for my workout and feel like I was hit by a train...Y is it on some nights I can drink Yager and wake up fine.........and when I am casual I wake up like death?

Time for some much needed research on the hangover..............and b4 anyone suggests the next day pill.........don’t...........doesn’t do dick...

How ironic?

Moving on...


After I get done at the gym...(I am hoping sweating out the alcohol toxins will give me the much needed energy bust I so desire) I must get Mr. C's cake ordered ...Lisa...the baker...whom I used to partaayy with back in the day (told you this flippin town was small) well she will be responsible for making his 30th sugar high...then I am off to buy him his gift...I am thinking a DVD player or a new Receiver/amplifier for his surround sound stereo and the 99 speakers we have.............either or he will be happy.........then I must make arrangements with his GF ( whom isn’t returning my flippin calls .......wa fu?) 2 C if my idea of dinner on the river @ Roosters is coo......


SideNote

We are celebrating Mr.C's 30th today..........he will actually be 30 tomorrow.....the 7th, but seeing how that is a Sunday and a religious day we thought it better to do our sinning the day prior......

Again.....

Moving on.........


Sometime in there I must call Patti Anne...her phone is on the fritz, and ever since I broke the news of not making my trip to the wet city, well she has been MIA....


Ok then...

I am off

HAPPY B- DAY LITTLE OLD BROTHER!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU!!!!!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

update

I havent had time to blog about anything.

Mr. C had surgery AGAIN!!!

I am fulfilling my requirements for my JN yr at WSU.

I still have a job.

I dont know if I am going to Portland.

Mr. C will be 30 Sunday. :)

Its going to be 105 or hotter here for the next 6 days. FUCK!!

My mom will have been gone for 7 yrs on the 23rd. ( i miss her)

My back hurts. ( cunches)

More later..........