Sunday, May 28, 2006

Tony




A week ago yesterday I lost my life-friend to a drug overdose. So this last week I have been with family and friends..............paying respects and attending the funeral/viewing/wake.I finally came home yesterday, I am emotionally spent.Anyone who knows me...knows what Tony meant to me.We were lovers, friends, companions, partiers, freaks, and we even came out at the same time...We always said we would either end up married or..............well we both did the OR...

Tony will always be loved and remembered. Anyone who knew him loved him.

I have so much more to say about him, I really just cant right now.

I want my friend back......


I want I want

I wish

I love

Tony........I miss you

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Chase



this is my baby!!!!

More later

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Chasers..........

Well

I shall now give an update on mylfe (my Life) for those of you who have forgotten.

Mr.C was pulled over AGAIN for drunk driving...but they reduced it to a negligent driving. He then hit 3...yes count them 1,2,3...THREE cars.

His license has thus been suspended.........

His GF has a DUI as well............so she should be losing her license here soon 2.

I am STILL trying to get all my shit together here...............unpack and find room Etc....not much fun.........I hate moving.... seems like yesterday I was driving my 1/4 filled U-Haul from Portland...........and now here I am again, living out of boxes and not being able to find my stuff and going CRAZY!!!!!!!!!

Other than that...nothing really new...I still need to call about my Job, to see if I indeed still have a JOB!!!..........So that shall be Mondays adventure...

I do have to announce the arrival of my new blue-eyed baby boy


Chase

He weighs about 1lb
Is approx. 4 weeks old
and is the most adorable tiny baby boy I have ever had.

He was living inside my weight set at my brothers place..........we seen each other.......I ran...he ran........I then went back and got him........we have been inseparable ever since.........

He is a BALINESE with tipped ears .......I found some photos online that closely resemble him, but we took a few yesterday with his lil collar so when we get them I shall show ya!!!















BTW

The Professor freaks out when I blog which is why I dont update, so y'all can blame her!!!

;)

Friday, May 05, 2006

Holy Shit!!!!

Ok...its been I guess...like.........2 months since I last posted...and I shall try and explain the reason why it has taken me so bloody long to post....

I guess the last time I posted I was explaining that I was burnt out with school, my job, and life in particular..........and that pretty much sums up what I have been doing the past 8 weeks....

Ok

That is the cheap, easy way out of an update...but I really don’t know where to begin...

So lets begin here

In March I Blogged
my brother is back AGAIN with his crazy ex now not so ex GF.


So I shall start here.........

Seems this Angie Grrl.......whom now and forever shall be called......WhoreofManyColors..........is moving completely in with Mr.C

See its like this...........I have been living in Cougar Country since March, and well........The Professor and found our own pad and I am basically moved in up here, but I WAS going to keep a room at my brothers so if and when he needed me to help him, well all would be ready. Well this was the plan until last week. I went back to see Mr.C and he ( for the 4th time) explained to me that she

1. Cheated on him AGAIN with Mr. Porcelain.
2. Lied to him ( Goes with the cheating)
3. Stole from him. (Againnnnnnnnn)
4. Freaked out on him ( Againnnnnnnnnnnn)

Ok well I basically told him what I thought of her........and that was that.

So I leave that day to go and do some errands, I return back to pick up a few things when I am told by kuntjoy that my brother has left to go and pick this bitch up.....

uh hum

I then begin packing up my belongings and head out........when in walks Mr.C who then asks me what I am doing...........which ..obviously.....I am leaving....

I then explain to him that I don’t understand him anymore and how he can forgive her AGAIN is beyond me and that I don’t want any part of his relationship. I tell him that I cannot stand by and watch him get hurt and destroy himself over this woman.

See in the past 2 months my brother, as a result of his relationship with this woman, has

A) received a DUI
B) Been put into debt
C) lost respect from family and friends
and just yesterday
D) Been hospitalized

oh yes

I have explained several times on here that my brother is not the picture of health. He has renal failure, and as such is prone to getting infections. Well he has not been taking care of himself ( drinking and running himself ragged) and as a result got a sever UTI and went Septic. Now I know its difficult for anyone outside of the situation to understand how I can blame this on the WhoreofManyColors, but she is not helping Mr.C in terms of his health and other aspects of his life.


Ok

Well I do believe I have always spoken very highly of my brother and have been very proud of our relationship. Well we are now estranged, he really wants nothing to do with me as I won’t kiss her ass.........and well..........being the stubborn german/irsih sort........well we are barely talking .........and when we do ...its civil at best.

So I know this is a bit jumbled, but it’s really the best I can come up with........I mean I could try and elaborate with more detail, but what’s the point?

2 Sum it up.

Mr.C is living with a lying/cheating/white-trash whore that I do not approve of.

No one in my family does.

Aunt Glo is trying her best to "keep the peace" with everyone, but not everyone is willing to pitch in with her effort.

Now........to top it off.......I did mention that this whore is a thief did I not?

ok then......

I go back down last night as I get the message my brother is in the hospital.......and well............I figure since I am there I will pick up a few things.......I go into what was my room...........and grab my jewelry box.........and what do you know?

My 18k ring is missing as well as my 18k bracelet...

One guess as to where it went?

I am sure she will deny it as well my brother will believe her ( he is obviously whipped to the nth degree) so my only conclusion is that they must of trotted off on their 18k legs to the gold seminar or some such place.....

Uh huh


FUCK!!!!!!

Ok moving on............


School is almost finished...............I have to finish my Political Science stuff and then I am done for the semester...........A's and B's thus far.

I took a month leave from work............I still have to call my boss 2day to find out when I am supposed to be returning, but I haven’t gotten up the nerve. I truly don’t want to return there..........I would like to just start OVER...........but we need the $$$

The Professor and I are doing well..........she just left to go and do the grocery shopping...........we love our new place, and are still planning on an August wedding.

What else.........


I have to return to Small Ville tomorrow to retrieve the rest of my stuff.......which ought to be fun with that bitch there.................and it might work out for the better seeing how Mr.C is in the hospital.........I mean that in the way that he and I wont have an altercation, which I am trying to avoid if at all possible.


I love my brother, more than anything........and this tears me up.........how he can be so blind and at the same time punish me for not kissing her ass and accepting her with open arms. But hey..........I am looking out for him, but he sees it as me not standing by him as he says " if it were you........I would support whatever decision you made".

Well this may be true.........but then again if I was with someone who had lied, cheated/ stole from me on more than ONE occasion I feel I would want him to tell me to wake up!!!! I would want him to be supportive, but also discourage me as I feel he would hate to see me hurt, and if I were to continue in some ridiculous dream-relationship.........he would know that it was going to end badly....

But then again.......he isn’t me and vise-versa.

Oh how fun is this trip we call life?

I want him to be happy........with someone who really loves him. When you love someone you don’t do the things she does.......and wow..........has she some crazy twisted shit.......and she somehow talks her way out of any culpability every single time


Ok I know ....I know

ENUFF ALREADY!!!

I just had to vent...........


I had best eat something and then finish these damn assignments

I shall be a good Blogger and update on a daily basis...........I shall I shall


Oh I thought I would post something from my past that is hilariourous...........


It should take the foul taste out or your mouth after reading what I just wrote...


The Captain wrote this April 2001 about the night him and I met.........the brunette is my buddie Stace.........

Oh these were good times.

Good times.

More lata'


Last night got out of hand...
It started out innocently enough. I went home from work and had something to eat and was feeling a bit tired so I decided to take a nap for a bit. A couple hours later I woke up and decided to head down to Old C's to see if anyone was around to play pool. I took the long way there so I could drive like a maniac a bit more in the ol' Celica GT. Very fun.
I arrived and ran into Electron MicroJeff and we were soon joined by Paul from Dublin, Bill and his amazingly beautiful and very nice wife from Venezuala. (Bill gives me hope because though Bill is a really nice guy, he's not the pinacle of manly good looks and his wife is all around good.) Anyway, they were going out for dinner and I declined dinner with them. A few minutes later Sportwriter showed up and we began to play a little pool. We won a few and lost a few but decided to quit playing when Alabama Girl showed up. Sportwriter and Alabama Girl have a bit of a fling going.) Anyway, a couple hours of drinking goes by and MicroJeff and the boys show up again, Johnny Vegas comes in and Forest comes in for a couple drinks and things are starting to get riled up a bit.
By the end of the night, MicroJeff and Paul are arguing about rules in pool with the two guys they were playing, one of which is a bar tender at Old C's. They also start arguing about who is the bigger asshole. (That was pretty funny.) Johnny Vegas is schmoozing a couple gals as he always is, one of them he is doing really well with. The girl's friend keeps telling me I look like Marky Mark but she has a peculiar way about that I just can't put my finger on. I also disregard any chance of getting anywhere with her because she is 5' 11" blonde hair, blue eyes and a spectacular body, and let's face it, I'm not. Sportswriter has left and Alabama Girl is a little tipsy now and keeps hugging me and calling me her favorite Canadian Guy and trying to ward me away from the tall blonde girl saying her, 'Female Radar' is going off and that girl is bad news.
So Forest gives Alabama Girl a lift home which is good because she is pretty sauced. MicroJeff's other buddies take off for the night and Steve says he wants to go out with the girls for another drink somewhere. It's already 2:30am but what the hell, I've never had anyone over to my place before down here so I invite MicroJeff and Johnny Vegas and the two ladies over for a couple drinks.
(Side Note: Saw Italy and her boyfriend at the bar. They went downtown and he parked somewhere he shouldn't have and got his car towed away.)
Back to the tale at hand. We ge to my place and I crack a bottle of wine and pass out a couple Smirnov Ice. MicroJeff is getting into a heated discussion with the blonde girl about being a lesbian. Yes, that is exactly what I said. A 5'11", beautiful, blonde hair, blue eyed, 36-D sportin', size-6-ass lesbian is in my apartment. Her friend, who Johny Vegas is on like stink on shit starts to not feel well and has to give homage to the porcelin altar. MicroJeff heads home because he has to work in 3 hours, leaving me with Miss Sexy Lesbian. (I think that is a fitting description.) So the night moves on a little further and finally I boot everyone out because it is now 4:30am and I have to work at 8am. Vegas's little girl flashes us her breasts a couple times because she is fuckin WASTED. Miss Sexy Lesbian shakes my hadn and says it was nice to meet me when they are getting ready to go and then she doesn't let go of my hand. She pulls me in and gives me hug, which I'm all for, because hey, she's a sexy 5'11" lesbian with huge breasts. Most men never see a girl like this unless they are renting a movie from Joe's Corner Movie Mart in the little back closet section. She lets go, looks at me, hugs me again, lets go, sits down. Then she gets up, hugs me again. Now I'm getting a little confused as to what she is trying to do here. She's a bit drunk and so am I so I ask her if she would like some water before they go. She nods, I bring her a glass of water and she stands up, sets the water down, hugs me again and then she starts kissing me.
I was kissed by a tall beautiful lesbian.
No, I was not dreaming, I am not making this shit up. Johnny Vegas was there and he can vouch for the truth of the matter. So Miss Sexy Lesbian sits down on my lap in my big coushy chair and kisses me a few more times. Her friend is now saying, "What the hell are you doing kissing a guy!" (I personally thought she was jealous, which is weird for a straight girl to be jealous of her lesbian friend kissing a guy.) Anyway, she kissed me a few more times, left me her number and asked me to call her sometime soon. Johnny Vegas is pretty close to sober so he drives the drunk brunette (who flashed us her breasts again) and Miss Sexy Lesbian home for the night. I make some quick dinner, throw backa couple glasses of water and head to bed.
Morning comes and I am in no shape to even get out of bed. I call into work, blame my alergies, drink some more water, and head back to bed. I awaken at 12:30, go down to CDI and grab my paycheque, hit the bank and then come into work. What a weird night I had.
All I did was go home from work to take a nap.
One thing I have to add. Johnny Vegas went for couple more drinks with the ladies and I guess the brunette was trying to get Miss Sexy Lesbian in on some three-way action. Much to Johnny Vegas' dismay, she declined and he was stuck with only one girl. Poor, poor Johnny

Thursday, March 09, 2006

5 weeks!?

I cannot believe it has been over 5 weeks since I have Blogged...

WHAT THE HELL!!??


So to bring those who still dare to visit this here ghost of a Blog...here you go.



I am getting married.

August 4th.

I am terrified.

My Ex and I are actually really close now.

I am on the verge of quitting school.

Burnt out!!

My brother is back AGAIN with his crazy ex now not so ex GF.

I almost had a heart attack when I seen that SD has stopped all abortions from being legal....

I mean.........I could really go on about this issue, but seeing how this is my 1st post in as many weeks...I shall refrain...

For now!

Binks is in Penn. still.............he was a bit harsh with me when I called him to invite him to my weeding...

Moving on...


Well I must finish this bloody assignment...

And off to the job,

Yes I am still working...

Still breathing
Still bonking

Most importantly

Still SHOPPING!!!


Ciao

Sunday, February 05, 2006

SuperHawks

Well it’s Super Bowl Sunday and our Seahawks have finally made it to the BIG game!!

I along with the rest of the country shall be watching this national past time with the excitement and glee of a small child at x-mas time. I only hope that the Hawks will walk away with that big ''ol ring and come back to this wet and forgotten state champions!!

In other news...

I caught Jo's cold........o joy.

I haven’t spoken with ANY of my friends in ages...........seems Binks is heading off to Pennsylvania for some god awful reason........I don’t know why

Patti Anne is working 900 hours a week so I rarely hear from her.

Stace hasn’t been calling so I can only imagine she is mad @ me again for some bloody reason.

Lets see......I am still at the same job, and will remain as Jo and I have decided that a job is better than NO job regardless of how horrible it might be.

Mr.C is still with that grrl.....I took her out the other evening only to have her X Mr. Porcelain come into the bar and verbally attack me ( cunt, dyke,whore,lesbo,crazy bitch....Etc.) and scream insults and profanities at her. Only thing is she is used to it...........and she claims that she NEVER told him she thought I was ANY of those things..........UH HUH!

So Mr.C is completely enamored with this grrl..........and so we shall see how long this shall last.

I am off to shower, send the fiancée' to the store for beer and goodies for the game.........then either get a happy buzz, or a.... "O WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!!?? " buzz..

More lata'

O.........

My buddy in Portland wrote this about Shrubs lil speech the other day......

I thought it fitting..........as well.....I completely agree with him ( the captain that is).



Captain's Log Stardate Tuesday January 31, 2006

State of the Union is... Most Republicans are still suckers!

Bush telling you about how you need to get off your dependence on foreign oil is like Coors, Budweiser and Molson telling you to stop drinking because it's bad. What a fuckin moron. And the only people even more stupid then Bush is the ones who believe anything he says.

Maybe next he'll be telling you his daughter's don't drink, he's a war hero, brown people hate our freedom and that Exxon needs big profits to do research and development and they weren't war profiteering... oh wait, sorry, he's already done all that. Well, except maybe the one about his daughters.

Next election, if you vote for any Republican candidate who is currently in power, don't cry to me or anyone else when terrorists are still blowing up shit, gas is out of control expensive, you have no health care, you're in debt up to your eyeballs, can't declare bankruptcy and, oh yeah, the government knows when your period is, where you go for beers and reads your mail.

Why, that's what America is all about!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

untitled

Well again I have been a bad bad Blogger.

Life is moving along...

Clint is Back with Angle Grrl and again her daughter is here, with her...

I took her out last night to get a feel for her...and while we were talking her X showed up and showed his wonderful colors. Cops were called...whole bit.

I thought to myself if you can be with someone like that.........your not right.

As well the shit he screamed at me that she supposedly didn’t say about me...

UH HUH

Moving on

School is school

Jo and I are moving in with each other.........

That’s that.

I made the National Deans List...

Only 1/2 of 1% of students in the nation makes it...


I am outy

Friday, January 20, 2006

life or what ever its called

Well I have to make this really quick. As usual. I am off to the gym and then to work... thankfully I still have the Job.

Seems Jo's parents are making her move as they want her to pay double what she was paying for rent...so now we have to figure out what WE are doing ASAP....

I want to live with her.........but I also want to be with my brother.........

So...........you know?

Things are a lil whacked.

School is trudging along.

Life is what you make of it...and right now I seem to be making quarts of sour lemonade...not the refreshing crisp fresh kind... (I sound like a damn country time commercial!)


Okay

I am off to sweat and run and forget for minute how messy things are right now.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Manual 101

I stole this.......but Holy fuck if it anit right on the money...










When you meet a lesbian (Hints for the straight women)

Do not run away screaming from the room. This is rude!!! If you must back away, do slowly and with discretion.

Do not assume she is attracted to you.

Do not assume that she is not attracted to you.

Don't assume that you are not attracted to her.

Do not expect her to be as excited about meeting an heterosexual as you may be about meeting a lesbian, she was probably raised by them.

Do not immediately start talking about your boyfriend or husband in order to make it clear that you are straight. She probably already knows.

Do not ask her how she got that way. Instead ask yourself how YOU got that way.

Do not assume that she is dying to talk about being a lesbian.

Do not expect her to refrain from talking about being a lesbian.

Do not assume that because she is a lesbian she wants to be treated like a man.

Do not trivialise her experience by assuming it is a bedroom issue only.

She is a lesbian 24 hours a day.

Quickie

This will B a Quick update....

I know I have been out a commission for ages, but I have been so insanely busy its not even funny.

Lets See......

Mr.C and Angel Grrl are now separated.
I spent the holidays alone.
I went to Missouri on New Yrs Eve to meet my future in Laws...
(This is a story I shall have to get back 2...just know it was a BIG 'OL CLUSTER FUCK!)

Side note

I've decided to elaborate on the meeting with the in -laws. It was a horrible experience. See the whole reason I went to meet the Clever's ( I use this as a way to describe them as they truly are the Clever's incarnate) was to inform them that Jo and I were to be married. Of course the parents were shocked and thought we were rushing and yadda yadda. Well in order for us to tell them the news.....we needed a bit of liquid courage. Well Tequila was the poison we chose...............needless to say Jo ended up praying to the porcelain God and I was stuck with the Clever's.......namely the mother..........well...........needless to say many many things were discussed and many things were said by the mother.....about her own daughter......and of course I divulged the discussion and the things that were said to Jo.......as the things that the mother said were absolutely horrible and mean. If my mother had said the things she said I would have never spoken to her again. Well...............I had a few drinks.......and I was drunk.........but not blackout drunk or sloppy drunk.........and I remember every damn word of that conversation............and to put things in a better perspective.....immediately after the conversation I woke Jo up to tell her what her mother had said..........so as to not forget. Well..........of course when mother was confronted she denied everything....Convenient isn't it?....Made me out to be the monster and went on to tell individuals that I have a drinking problem and am a nasty individual. To this day she still blames me.......denies ever saying the things that were said. I will say that the In-laws are in all actuality good people..........very generous ..........although the mother will be more than happy to generous , but then tell you how much it set her back or that it was so hard to do so...........which .......I have never understood individuals who do this as if it is so hard......then why do it? Other than to make the recipients feel guilty. So that being said........thank you both for everything you have done for Jo and I...........but I will not forget that conversation and I will not forgive being called a liar and a drunk and a nasty individual.......I also do not enjoy nor understand individuals who don't have the balls to say what they really feel to a persons face.......go behind their backs and talk shit to their daughters ex's...........really insightful into ones character.......................I have not forgotten nor will I forgive this ..............as I know what was said and out of courtesy to my spouse I will not repeat it here...........I mean just know if thats how they feel about thier only daughter...........wow.



Moving on......................








I am now back in school...

I still hate my job.

Lucy is back @ work now.

Hmmmmm

O the Professor and I are doing fabulous...

Just yesterday she bought and had installed a 6 CD changer/stereo system in my car!!

(My belated B-day and X-mas gift)

She also bought me a beautiful dresser...actually 2. One for here and one for there.

We are seriously committed to one another. Marriage is the topic of the day ALL the time...and I shall have to divulge more about my feelings and so forth on this lil topic soon............

( Her X is being a freak as of late.......Miss Horse.......so I am going to have to deal with the lesbian of the Mountain here soon)

O boy...

So I must be off 2 the 'ol jobola!!!

O JOY!!!

But I will B back tonight!!

Thanx for all your patience my Blogger Buddies and real-time friends

You know who you are!!

O and ‘M’...good to hear from ya!!!!!!

Ciao