uh....no comment....

So I have tried and tried to edit the comments that were posted on me Blog....to no avail....so that being said I am no longer allowing comments......as seems all ppl wanna do is leave negative nasty shitty comments anywayz....so.....i be done.


Moving on.....

I am now in Phoenix AND truly going to start over.....and will b posting bout me new adventures regularly.......

I was going to do a yr. re-cap.....but have since thought better on that thought.....?

Meaning....I would rather just live and let live and chalk the past yr. up as lessonsssssssss  learned and not to b repeated......

that's all i got right now....

More lata'

back

i am back.........................will write more lata

comments

ok

I'm a bad blogger

i fully admit it

i don't check in as often as i once did............

trust me i will b....

lots 2 say....


but if ur gonna leave a comment then have the balls to leave ur name or shut the fuck up.....


period.

life..............

CRYSTAL BALL


PINK

PERFECT



Drinking wine and thinking bliss, is on the other side of this
I just need a compass and a willing accomplice
All my doubts that fill my head are skidding up and down again
Up and down and round again, down and up and round again.

Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all.
Just to end up right back here on the floor.
To end up right back here in on the floor.

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell.
But I'm not scared at all... hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm

The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring
Love just needs a witness and a little forgivness
And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace and
I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes.

Oh I've felt that fire and I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned.

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell.
But I'm not scared at all... hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm

Of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

Irony, irony, this hate and love, hate and love
What it does to me, what it's done to me.
What is done... done

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Broken mirrors and a black cats cold stare,
Walk under ladders on my way to hell, I'll meet you there.

But I'm not scared at all, hmm... I'm not scared at all.

Bout the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

didnt happen

K!

so I go looking for boxxes.......tinnnyyy lil boxxess ( tis an inside joke)..............and wouldn't u know.............."If I come back 2morrow they will have all I need as they have already compacted them" so....................me wardrobe.........or the bulk of it is still crawling up a wall.................


Speaking of crawling up a wall............

My cat Charo.............Charlie has been in a cage 4 about 3 weeks..I am going to get him on the 25th..........I have a feeling I might get bit..............HARD.....as poor lil-big guy has never been left alone ..let alone in a bloody cage.................... EVER!!!

MEOW!!!


I am very anxious about picking him up...........will be nice to have some familiarity again as me charo loves to snuggle...I miss him....

:(


Man....

I have so much to write.......so much so say.............

DIVULGE!

I don't know where to begin..............

I know deep inside I need to be alone............

for awhile.....

and just.....

FOCUS!


I will post a few pics though...

of Charlie....

and recent ones of me.....

I bought a notebook....................

due to my Desktop flying out the 2nd story window!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!


anyhoo


ciao 4 now

moving on

I want this to b done............I am not this monster I have been created out to be..............cant we b adults.........and move on...........................gosh....really?

Still kicking

Well here I am ....thought I would once again try and give me Blog a go......I don't have much time to post today as I overslept and I must get ready 4 work.....but I thought I would let anyone who gives a hoot a heads up that I am once again going to be blogging again.



I have an awful lot to Blog about....seeing how its been a billion days since I last blogged. I do hope I don't offend anyone, however, if I do.....I apologize beforehand as I will once again reiterate that this is a venue for me to vent and I will say or type whatever I feel.........and I will allow comments and I wont be slamming the door on individuals who leave their opinions.....well unless of course it gets downright nasty, but then again, so can I.

:)

With that being said.....



More to come

The Golden Set

Here is a set of Goldens I TRY to live by...........thought I would share.........

Enjoy.

1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
2. Be with a man/woman you love to talk to.
   
3. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
4. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
5. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.
6. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.
7. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
8. Believe in love at first sight.
9. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
10. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
11. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
12. Don't judge people by their relatives.
13. Talk slowly but think quickly.
14. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'
15. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
16. Say 'God bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.
17. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
18. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.
19. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
20. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
21. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
22. Spend some time alone ( I TOTALLY RECOMMEND THIS ONE!!)
23. And always remember, a true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

A Re-Post

I posted this about 2 yrs ago...........and well...........I just feel like posting it again................tis the mood I'm in.

Pet Peeves

Ok so I am driving around today and I was rather irritated so I decided when I returned home I would make a list of things that really BUG me....so here goes.......


(This list isn't in order of irritability......the irritability is all equal)



1. Writing emails to friends and getting no reply. I mean the whole point of writing an email is to basically ask "hey....how the hell are ya?" right? So if one sends someone an email...the polite thing 2 do would be to answer it.......well that's Coley's law of ethical email behavior.

* If I receive an email from someone and I don't reply.......then that basically means I don't want to have any type of communication with that individual...so for those who keep sending me email....and I don't write back...well......now you know why....

hmmmmmm now that I think about it.......perhaps Coleys law applies to those to whom I am not getting responses from......well....

F**K U2!!
;)


2. People who cannot drive......nor adhere to the laws concerning pedestrians.....or for that matter...... pedestrians who don't adhere to the law. Example- Today I was driving downtown and this older guy walks directly out in front of me and another vehicle with out even looking.....the crosswalk was about 30 feet behind him....he could have easily used it.....as that's what its there for......but oh no.......he just trots on out in the middle of the street........irritability level on that lil happening would be in the RED ZONE

3. Backstabbers- Individuals who don't have the balls to say what they want to say to your face and so resort to saying things behind your back........hey.... we are all guilty of this .....but I, myself...am one of the people that will tell you to your face what I feel.........I am finding this behavior is especially high in the nursing profession...as for the most part....... the % of female employees is especially high.......so of course the gossip level goes up with the % of female employees....

Just the facts Ma'am


4. POP UPS!- I have to say the RED ZONE isn't red enough for these annoying fuckers! I have tried just about every little software package known to Geek Dom......with no real relief..........they are extremely annoying........

5. SPAM- see above

6. Liars/Thieves- I don't think I need to elaborate on these types. They speak volumes with their despicable actions......

7. People who smack their food while eating- Ummmmmmmm.......tis gross and rude.....CLOSE YOUR MOUTH......I know a few individuals to whom I am directing this at.....he/she will sit and SLOP AND SMACK their food.....all the while........talking to you.......and your just sitting there with this look of disgust and disbelief on ur face......and he is oblivious to why.......
nice.....well...........no its not....

8. Slowness in people- I am naturally a very impatient person.......comes with being a Capricorn I suppose.....but if I am in line and the checker is standing around picking their ass or just slow.........I am about ready to climb the walls...........Pick up the pace people!

9. Clingy people- Ok I am not a very tactile person unless I am involved with you.....I don't hang on people and don't like being hung on......u know that one person in your life who just HAS to hang on you while talking to you or touch you or be in your face while talking to you. Like the Seinfield CloseTalker guy? I always want to say "hey...this is my space......and this is your space......don't invade my space and I wont be inclined to destroy your space". Thank you

10. Last but not least....Reality TV.....I mean come on!! They have a show for...... literally everything in life. I think it is a bit much........people need to spend a little more time working on their own "reality" and not so much time obsessed with people they don't even know ...nor ever will ......

So that's my lil list.......I know I am not perfect nor do I want to be......I enjoy having faults...well.....I mean I am glad to know I have them as it makes me human and therefore......I can work to become a better person......so in knowing this I will try and work on what Peeves me.......if people wont be so damn BUG!


I must work out and get some Homework done.....


catch ya later


Toodles...

RYS Can KMY

I just visited the Blog that is entitled RATE YOUR STUDENT.......now I am aware that there are many a student out there that most likely deserve the the horrible remarks that these teachers are spewing at them.......but my problem with this site is simply this......if you dont like your fucking job........quit!! As students ( I am a university student currently dealing with a bitch of a instructor) we don't have the choice to just pick up and quit.......tuition, books, time off work........u name it.......education is bloody spendy.......and as a student I feel I should get a fair shake in a course.......not have to be worried ( in the 3rd damn week of the semester) about a grade from a teachers aid who doesn't posses the ability to think critically her own self.................so for all you instructors out there.......try and remember how hard it was when you were poor, broke, exhausted and had no life just praying for the day to make that long awaited "walk". If you cant seem to find it in your heart to have some compassion or to act human........use that brain your so damn proud of and find a diff line of work!

Hot Pocket

Return of Coley

Well hello out there!!! I've decided to start writing again.........hopefully after this long absence the individuals who were reading my Blog will have left permanently ...........as well.........those folks were the reason I shut her down to begin with.


Now..........seeing how I'm back there will now be some ground rules....they have not changed from my former ground rules..........


1. THIS BLOG IS FOR ME.....ME ............ME..........WHAT I WRITE IS HOW I FEEL AND IS NOT INTENDED TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY BY ANYONE OTHER THAN ME.

2. IF YOU DO NOT LIKE WHAT IS WRITTEN HERE.......CLICK ON BUD!

3. I DO PROTECT MY PEEPS ANONYMITY ....NO NAMES WILL BE USED UNLESS I REALLY DISLIKE YOU!

4. THIS IS FOR ME........ME...........MINE............

5. COMMENTS ARE WELCOME........HOWEVER IF THEY ARE UGLY......I CAN GET UGLY TOO....U HAVE BEEN WARNED!

6. I HIGHLY DOUBT THIS IS EVEN GOING TO BE READ......... ME BLOG, BUT I HAD TO SET THE RULES REGARDLESS.


ok.........I am all better.........

So I am sure one has to wonder why I have taken such a long hiatus, well as it happens I really just lost the ability to write here ........I mean mylfe was in complete and utter chaos.......and in some ways.......still is. Who's isn't?


Wow......they sure have tweaked some tools here........spelling mistakes are underlined like in WORD.........so WORD to the blog spot peeps!!


Moving on..........


I honestly don't even know where to begin..........First of all I deleted an entire year of writing the last time I was on as I didn't really like what I had written....it was dark, dreary, and truly depressing...........and as I have stated in the archives of me Blog.......I use this as a tool to get shit out........writing is therapeutic.......and all I was doing that year was bitching and fussing and doing nothing to change mylfe........when the purpose of my writing is so i can get the stuff out and then move on.....not just complain and not change........


Ok.........so anyhoo.......I deleted a whole year of stuff and left it off where I lost Tony............


Still miss him......still love him.........always


Ok

Well..........I guess I should start with a list like I used to.........its easier for me to list events and then summarize them.........( See what a good student I am now!!)


1. I am now back in Smallville WA. Moved back here August 07' to help Mr. C again.

2. Mr. C is in Jail and has been sentenced to prison.( This one will need allot of elaboration)

3. I am in the last year of school.

4. I am currently unemployed.

5. My car is broken.

6. I am working out again........( as if I would ever truly quit)

7. I am still hitched........happily.

8. I have lost and gained a few friends.

9. I am no longer addicted.

10. I am getting ever so closer to becoming the person I have always striven to be.


So here is the summary of my lil list.

1) I am now back in Smallville WA. Moved back here August 07' to help Mr. C again.

See When I last posted I had just moved back here from CollegeTown......Mr. C ( my brother for those newbies) had once again gotten himself into all kinds of trouble.......seems his EX Angel grrl ( why I use this as a nickname is beyond me as she is far from being anything remotely angelic) well anywayz....Mr. C got busted selling Mary Jane and was arrested on his B-day........also he was charged with having Meth and the 3 DUI's he had received the year prior..........he was then released on a furlough to be able to have surgery.........he then chose not to follow up on his charges and 2 Felony warrants were issued...........also we had another arrest when they issued the warrants and he was charged again with possession and intent to deliver and was sentenced for all above charges to 12 months.
Ok.........Well then...........In December 07' he was once again released on a furlough into my so-called-aunts custody ( I shall call her from now on....... The Unstable Enabler) K......well Mr. C was supposed to go to Spookaloo for another appointment........he then was admitted to the the hospital and then he had Angel Grrll stay with him at a hotel after he was discharged.......all along knowing he was supposed to turn himself back in to the Asotin jail...........he decided he was above the law and the rules........and turned himself in when he felt fit to do so....well.....in actuality he turned himself in after the posse showed up here looking for him and Kuntjoy called The Unstable Enabler to tell her to get her saggy ass home!...That's a diff story...........anyhoo..........he then turned himself in 6 days late and then he couldn't figure out why they were charging him with Escape and Bond Jumping , both felonies........it perplexes the mind why they would do such a thing to an honest, upstanding individual of the community............just mind boggling!!!

O Boy!


Ok so now he was charged with 2 new felonies and he decided not to take the deal they were offering ( another 12 months to be serverd concurrently with the 12 months he was already serving) so he was willing to roll the dice and try and beat the charges and if he were to lose he would then receive 24 months instead of the 12 they were offering...........all the while I am telling him to take the deal, but does he listen to me? O HELL NO!!! He listens to the Unstable Enabler.........whom is so damn senile and crazy she forgets her name 12 seconds after giving it to you..........well she is telling him to fight it.........go to trial and she will get the Doctor, The Commissioner and the Pope to testify on his behalf............well after 2 weeks of him playing the yo-yo game of to plead-or-not-to-plead.......he finally pled guilty and as far as I know he is now serving a total of 24 months. He will now be shipped to Monroe Prison over by Seattle to serve the remainder of his sentence..................he has already served 5 months in Asotin County Jail......the equivalent of lock-down in a prison. He will serve his sentence in infirmary as he needs to dialize 3x weekly....................

Ok................well the story doesn't end here...........not by a loooooooooong shot..............see the reason he was charged with his 3rd possession charge ( I left a few things out......my pingers will fall off if I try to write everything)

See when The Professor and I moved down here to help him we had a few rules.......namely No DRUG DEALING.....NO SMOKING IN THE HOUSE AND NO ANGELL GRRLL! PERIOD! ........Well...............do ya think he abided by these rules.........do u think he even tried? O hells no!!!! He was dealing again within a week of being released......had that nut-bitch gf of his over here for the loud -in -your- face -fuckathon..........and was smoking everything but the textbooks..........................so needless to say The Professor made The Call and he was then scooped up by the Sheriff...........However when they showed up they were holding 2 old felony warrants as I stated above.......although without the infamous Call ......they couldn't have gotten a search warrant........which led them to his stash of drugs in his shoe closet.


So.......................Needless to say the past few months have been a lovely....stress-filled... happy-go-lucky environment of finger pointing and hateful accusations from the neighbors ( see thats where The Unstable Enabler and her loser son Kuntjoy live.......whom are close to my brother as the Unstable Enabler calls herself my brothers aunt.....of course there is no blood relation.....again another Blog Post..........hell thats a book people..............)

Although Kuntjoy and I have been close ourselves, but its been a roller coaster of a friendship as he truly is a lost-soul. He is 51, unemployed...... has been for 5yrs, lives with his mommy and doesn't or cant even buy his own smokes........sits and watches the days goings on from his perch in her living room, judging and complaining about everyone as this is his only outlet for how he truly feels for himself.......that self -hatred for being who he is all the while knowing he is the only who can change .....yet its easier to sit and watch the world go by and complain and blame. Yet he has one of those personalities that is contagious........as he is truly funny and down deep has a heart of gold.....yet from personal experience he can and will turn on you like a rabid dog......again his way of directing his self-hatred onto others..........to sum it up..........a very, very, unhealthy individual who has been in mylfe...........and as of today is no longer in mylfe.


Moving on.............


Where was I?

O yes.........See The Professor is now the NARK as Mr.C would never be in jail had it not been for The call......... my brother didn't do anything wrong!! He shouldnt be held responsible for his actions........he had no other shoice but 2 deal drugs!!! He is sick dammit!!!

FUCK!!


I love my brother........I love him more than anything in the world..........at one time he was my world...............after he met Angel Grrl he changed..........he changed into someone I didn't even know...nor want to......he was selfish,uncaring,irresponsible and rude.......................and this in itself doesn't warrant him to be serving time cos hell I know lots of folks that are assholes, but Mr. C has never ever been made to be held accountable for his actions and now.......he has to.


After all this happened Mr. c and I didn't speak for a few months.......as he now hates The Professor........and well The Unstable Enabler hates her too as well now Kuntjoy does too ( see he was on my side throughout this whole ordeal until last night when he showed his true colors and informed me that any sister that wouldn't walk away from the spouse that turned her brother in should be hung-drawn,-and quartered......well thats an exaggeration...........well............no.........thats how he feels he just doesn't have the balls to come out and say that directly to my face. I have to hear it from the other losers in this shit-town)


Ok.........so anyway..........as I was trying to say......man I have allot to say..........we live in a duplex and the nutfry neighbors are directly next door........I mean I can hear them talking about me through the walls..........and yes I know......... I need to move.............thats a give in.


So I think that pretty much sums up # 1 and 2 on me list.............

sigh


3.) I am in the last year of school. will graduate from WSU this Spring with 2 BA degrees. One in Crim J ( ironic I know) and one for Gen. Ed as I have a million credits. Although I must add that my instructor for one of my Crim J courses this semester is a full-fledged BITCH. She is a Grad Student, a teachers aide in all actuality who accused me of plagiarism last night. She is the type of instructor that would tell you as your standing in front of her holding your severed arm that you just lost in a freak accident on you way to class that " NO YOU CANNOT HAVE AN EXTENSION......DIDN'T YOU READ THE SYLLABUS? YOU HAVE TO CLEAR IT WITH ME PRIOR TO THE ASSIGNED DUE DATE TO GET AN EXTENSION..........GRADE.........F!!" no that isn't an exaggeration........she is truly a bitch.


ok..

:0

I feel better now...i hates her.....i does.

4.) I resigned my position last summer to move here for Mr.C.....haven't worked since as there are really no jobs in this shit town.....but i am looking.......but I am truly jsut focusing on school and hating my Crim J bitch instructor.....i hates her i does.

5.) My brakes on me baby Camry are broken. She sick..........gots herself an owy. Mikkee is fixing her Tuesday..........her lil caliper is leaking.......she gots herself a cut..........poor Camry.....I fix it........wheres a band-aide?

:(::::::::


6.) I gots me a new Schwinn Mountain- kick -ass- in -your- face -bike for X-mas. I ride her against the wind even in the cold ..............I feel great........plus I am using free weights again and the stepper.........I look good.......but no where near where I was 2 yrs ago.......I WILL though!


7.) Still with The Professor.........happy............we have our moments...........who doesn't? We really get along for the most part........and have a great repor. She still has that great eyebrow.


8.) I have lost touch with Binks..........we played phone tag for awhile.......but the last time I called him.........he didn't return me call...........Stace from Portland writes about every 6 months...........Patti Anne and I stay in touch............Been accused of stealing from an individual I thought was a friend............I am now in touch with Stracey...........she is me bud and I love her......she is married to my late Tony's brother...........TDT..........love him too..............Life and friends...........the good ones stay and the bad ones.....well.......u know.


9.) I had a prob with prescription pain killers for a bit........Hell it was...........and I didnt divulge it here as there a few individuals whom I am sure will find this Blog is open again that just love to judge........you know who you are...........and some readers who like to distort the truth........you know who you are 2.........but guess what..........I truly could give a rat fuck what you think........take a look in the mirror and find peace within.........stop judging others.......no one is perfect........like I have always said......I WOULDN'T want to be perfect......how can one ever learn if they have no flaws from which to learn from?

10.) Everyday is a new day..............everyday i learn something new..be it history......art.............algebra............or something about me............I love learning and love learning about me..........the day I stop learning and liking or disliking something about myself.......well I hope thats the day i ain't here no more.


Ok then..............well thats it for now..............i still have allot to say about the current presidential nominees....the war........the current idiot president...........the loss of Heath ..............and lots more.........but I have been writing for about an hour now and need to do my daily workout........

Pls excuse the spelling errors.......or the grammatical errors.........I do see them, but I get bored trying to go back and correct each and every damn mistake.......I mean really whats the point? I have a 3.5 GPA, I am smart, intelligent, well read......and its my damn Blog....if I choose to write like a 5th grader......I WILL!!!!!


I guess I really do care about the spelling and grammatical errors otherwise why would I have just said I didn't care.........see..........i just a did a lil self-reflection................but still doesn't mean I am gonna go back and fix em.



Its good to be back.........I missed me Blog..........


More lata'

its been awhile

First I need to clarify a few things. I deleted the last yr of my blog becos it was my choice to do so, it had nothing to do with who may or may not be reading it. I found my previous posts to be depressing and dark.....so there you go.

2ndly........I dont lie in my emails...........if I send someone something......that is what is happening at the present time...........


Life right now is extremely insane and I will try and elaborate more in the next few days.........

ciao 4 now.

Hot

Right at this moment I am so bloody HOT i cannot stand it.


Work is well

I am well


Will write soon

Tony

A week ago yesterday I lost my life-friend to a drug overdose. So this last week I have been with family and friends..............paying respects and attending the funeral/viewing/wake.I finally came home yesterday, I am emotionally spent.Anyone who knows me...knows what Tony meant to me.We were lovers, friends, companions, partiers, freaks, and we even came out at the same time...We always said we would either end up married or..............well we both did the OR...

Tony will always be loved and remembered. Anyone who knew him loved him.

I have so much more to say about him, I really just cant right now.

I want my friend back......


I want I want

I wish

I love

Tony........I miss you

Chase

this is my baby!!!!

More later

Chasers..........

Well

I shall now give an update on mylfe (my Life) for those of you who have forgotten.

Mr.C was pulled over AGAIN for drunk driving...but they reduced it to a negligent driving. He then hit 3...yes count them 1,2,3...THREE cars.

His license has thus been suspended.........

His GF has a DUI as well............so she should be losing her license here soon 2.

I am STILL trying to get all my shit together here...............unpack and find room Etc....not much fun.........I hate moving.... seems like yesterday I was driving my 1/4 filled U-Haul from Portland...........and now here I am again, living out of boxes and not being able to find my stuff and going CRAZY!!!!!!!!!

Other than that...nothing really new...I still need to call about my Job, to see if I indeed still have a JOB!!!..........So that shall be Mondays adventure...

I do have to announce the arrival of my new blue-eyed baby boy


Chase

He weighs about 1lb
Is approx. 4 weeks old
and is the most adorable tiny baby boy I have ever had.

He was living inside my weight set at my brothers place..........we seen each other.......I ran...he ran........I then went back and got him........we have been inseparable ever since.........

He is a BALINESE with tipped ears .......I found some photos online that closely resemble him, but we took a few yesterday with his lil collar so when we get them I shall show ya!!!















BTW

The Professor freaks out when I blog which is why I dont update, so y'all can blame her!!!

;)

Holy Shit!!!!

Ok...its been I guess...like.........2 months since I last posted...and I shall try and explain the reason why it has taken me so bloody long to post....

I guess the last time I posted I was explaining that I was burnt out with school, my job, and life in particular..........and that pretty much sums up what I have been doing the past 8 weeks....

Ok

That is the cheap, easy way out of an update...but I really don’t know where to begin...

So lets begin here

In March I Blogged
my brother is back AGAIN with his crazy ex now not so ex GF.


So I shall start here.........

Seems this Angie Grrl.......whom now and forever shall be called......WhoreofManyColors..........is moving completely in with Mr.C

See its like this...........I have been living in Cougar Country since March, and well........The Professor and found our own pad and I am basically moved in up here, but I WAS going to keep a room at my brothers so if and when he needed me to help him, well all would be ready. Well this was the plan until last week. I went back to see Mr.C and he ( for the 4th time) explained to me that she

1. Cheated on him AGAIN with Mr. Porcelain.
2. Lied to him ( Goes with the cheating)
3. Stole from him. (Againnnnnnnnn)
4. Freaked out on him ( Againnnnnnnnnnnn)

Ok well I basically told him what I thought of her........and that was that.

So I leave that day to go and do some errands, I return back to pick up a few things when I am told by kuntjoy that my brother has left to go and pick this bitch up.....

uh hum

I then begin packing up my belongings and head out........when in walks Mr.C who then asks me what I am doing...........which ..obviously.....I am leaving....

I then explain to him that I don’t understand him anymore and how he can forgive her AGAIN is beyond me and that I don’t want any part of his relationship. I tell him that I cannot stand by and watch him get hurt and destroy himself over this woman.

See in the past 2 months my brother, as a result of his relationship with this woman, has

A) received a DUI
B) Been put into debt
C) lost respect from family and friends
and just yesterday
D) Been hospitalized

oh yes

I have explained several times on here that my brother is not the picture of health. He has renal failure, and as such is prone to getting infections. Well he has not been taking care of himself ( drinking and running himself ragged) and as a result got a sever UTI and went Septic. Now I know its difficult for anyone outside of the situation to understand how I can blame this on the WhoreofManyColors, but she is not helping Mr.C in terms of his health and other aspects of his life.


Ok

Well I do believe I have always spoken very highly of my brother and have been very proud of our relationship. Well we are now estranged, he really wants nothing to do with me as I won’t kiss her ass.........and well..........being the stubborn german/irsih sort........well we are barely talking .........and when we do ...its civil at best.

So I know this is a bit jumbled, but it’s really the best I can come up with........I mean I could try and elaborate with more detail, but what’s the point?

2 Sum it up.

Mr.C is living with a lying/cheating/white-trash whore that I do not approve of.

No one in my family does.

Aunt Glo is trying her best to "keep the peace" with everyone, but not everyone is willing to pitch in with her effort.

Now........to top it off.......I did mention that this whore is a thief did I not?

ok then......

I go back down last night as I get the message my brother is in the hospital.......and well............I figure since I am there I will pick up a few things.......I go into what was my room...........and grab my jewelry box.........and what do you know?

My 18k ring is missing as well as my 18k bracelet...

One guess as to where it went?

I am sure she will deny it as well my brother will believe her ( he is obviously whipped to the nth degree) so my only conclusion is that they must of trotted off on their 18k legs to the gold seminar or some such place.....

Uh huh


FUCK!!!!!!

Ok moving on............


School is almost finished...............I have to finish my Political Science stuff and then I am done for the semester...........A's and B's thus far.

I took a month leave from work............I still have to call my boss 2day to find out when I am supposed to be returning, but I haven’t gotten up the nerve. I truly don’t want to return there..........I would like to just start OVER...........but we need the $$$

The Professor and I are doing well..........she just left to go and do the grocery shopping...........we love our new place, and are still planning on an August wedding.

What else.........


I have to return to Small Ville tomorrow to retrieve the rest of my stuff.......which ought to be fun with that bitch there.................and it might work out for the better seeing how Mr.C is in the hospital.........I mean that in the way that he and I wont have an altercation, which I am trying to avoid if at all possible.


I love my brother, more than anything........and this tears me up.........how he can be so blind and at the same time punish me for not kissing her ass and accepting her with open arms. But hey..........I am looking out for him, but he sees it as me not standing by him as he says " if it were you........I would support whatever decision you made".

Well this may be true.........but then again if I was with someone who had lied, cheated/ stole from me on more than ONE occasion I feel I would want him to tell me to wake up!!!! I would want him to be supportive, but also discourage me as I feel he would hate to see me hurt, and if I were to continue in some ridiculous dream-relationship.........he would know that it was going to end badly....

But then again.......he isn’t me and vise-versa.

Oh how fun is this trip we call life?

I want him to be happy........with someone who really loves him. When you love someone you don’t do the things she does.......and wow..........has she some crazy twisted shit.......and she somehow talks her way out of any culpability every single time


Ok I know ....I know

ENUFF ALREADY!!!

I just had to vent...........


I had best eat something and then finish these damn assignments

I shall be a good Blogger and update on a daily basis...........I shall I shall


Oh I thought I would post something from my past that is hilariourous...........


It should take the foul taste out or your mouth after reading what I just wrote...


The Captain wrote this April 2001 about the night him and I met.........the brunette is my buddie Stace.........

Oh these were good times.

Good times.

More lata'


Last night got out of hand...
It started out innocently enough. I went home from work and had something to eat and was feeling a bit tired so I decided to take a nap for a bit. A couple hours later I woke up and decided to head down to Old C's to see if anyone was around to play pool. I took the long way there so I could drive like a maniac a bit more in the ol' Celica GT. Very fun.
I arrived and ran into Electron MicroJeff and we were soon joined by Paul from Dublin, Bill and his amazingly beautiful and very nice wife from Venezuala. (Bill gives me hope because though Bill is a really nice guy, he's not the pinacle of manly good looks and his wife is all around good.) Anyway, they were going out for dinner and I declined dinner with them. A few minutes later Sportwriter showed up and we began to play a little pool. We won a few and lost a few but decided to quit playing when Alabama Girl showed up. Sportwriter and Alabama Girl have a bit of a fling going.) Anyway, a couple hours of drinking goes by and MicroJeff and the boys show up again, Johnny Vegas comes in and Forest comes in for a couple drinks and things are starting to get riled up a bit.
By the end of the night, MicroJeff and Paul are arguing about rules in pool with the two guys they were playing, one of which is a bar tender at Old C's. They also start arguing about who is the bigger asshole. (That was pretty funny.) Johnny Vegas is schmoozing a couple gals as he always is, one of them he is doing really well with. The girl's friend keeps telling me I look like Marky Mark but she has a peculiar way about that I just can't put my finger on. I also disregard any chance of getting anywhere with her because she is 5' 11" blonde hair, blue eyes and a spectacular body, and let's face it, I'm not. Sportswriter has left and Alabama Girl is a little tipsy now and keeps hugging me and calling me her favorite Canadian Guy and trying to ward me away from the tall blonde girl saying her, 'Female Radar' is going off and that girl is bad news.
So Forest gives Alabama Girl a lift home which is good because she is pretty sauced. MicroJeff's other buddies take off for the night and Steve says he wants to go out with the girls for another drink somewhere. It's already 2:30am but what the hell, I've never had anyone over to my place before down here so I invite MicroJeff and Johnny Vegas and the two ladies over for a couple drinks.
(Side Note: Saw Italy and her boyfriend at the bar. They went downtown and he parked somewhere he shouldn't have and got his car towed away.)
Back to the tale at hand. We ge to my place and I crack a bottle of wine and pass out a couple Smirnov Ice. MicroJeff is getting into a heated discussion with the blonde girl about being a lesbian. Yes, that is exactly what I said. A 5'11", beautiful, blonde hair, blue eyed, 36-D sportin', size-6-ass lesbian is in my apartment. Her friend, who Johny Vegas is on like stink on shit starts to not feel well and has to give homage to the porcelin altar. MicroJeff heads home because he has to work in 3 hours, leaving me with Miss Sexy Lesbian. (I think that is a fitting description.) So the night moves on a little further and finally I boot everyone out because it is now 4:30am and I have to work at 8am. Vegas's little girl flashes us her breasts a couple times because she is fuckin WASTED. Miss Sexy Lesbian shakes my hadn and says it was nice to meet me when they are getting ready to go and then she doesn't let go of my hand. She pulls me in and gives me hug, which I'm all for, because hey, she's a sexy 5'11" lesbian with huge breasts. Most men never see a girl like this unless they are renting a movie from Joe's Corner Movie Mart in the little back closet section. She lets go, looks at me, hugs me again, lets go, sits down. Then she gets up, hugs me again. Now I'm getting a little confused as to what she is trying to do here. She's a bit drunk and so am I so I ask her if she would like some water before they go. She nods, I bring her a glass of water and she stands up, sets the water down, hugs me again and then she starts kissing me.
I was kissed by a tall beautiful lesbian.
No, I was not dreaming, I am not making this shit up. Johnny Vegas was there and he can vouch for the truth of the matter. So Miss Sexy Lesbian sits down on my lap in my big coushy chair and kisses me a few more times. Her friend is now saying, "What the hell are you doing kissing a guy!" (I personally thought she was jealous, which is weird for a straight girl to be jealous of her lesbian friend kissing a guy.) Anyway, she kissed me a few more times, left me her number and asked me to call her sometime soon. Johnny Vegas is pretty close to sober so he drives the drunk brunette (who flashed us her breasts again) and Miss Sexy Lesbian home for the night. I make some quick dinner, throw backa couple glasses of water and head to bed.
Morning comes and I am in no shape to even get out of bed. I call into work, blame my alergies, drink some more water, and head back to bed. I awaken at 12:30, go down to CDI and grab my paycheque, hit the bank and then come into work. What a weird night I had.
All I did was go home from work to take a nap.
One thing I have to add. Johnny Vegas went for couple more drinks with the ladies and I guess the brunette was trying to get Miss Sexy Lesbian in on some three-way action. Much to Johnny Vegas' dismay, she declined and he was stuck with only one girl. Poor, poor Johnny

5 weeks!?

I cannot believe it has been over 5 weeks since I have Blogged...

WHAT THE HELL!!??


So to bring those who still dare to visit this here ghost of a Blog...here you go.



I am getting married.

August 4th.

I am terrified.

My Ex and I are actually really close now.

I am on the verge of quitting school.

Burnt out!!

My brother is back AGAIN with his crazy ex now not so ex GF.

I almost had a heart attack when I seen that SD has stopped all abortions from being legal....

I mean.........I could really go on about this issue, but seeing how this is my 1st post in as many weeks...I shall refrain...

For now!

Binks is in Penn. still.............he was a bit harsh with me when I called him to invite him to my weeding...

Moving on...


Well I must finish this bloody assignment...

And off to the job,

Yes I am still working...

Still breathing
Still bonking

Most importantly

Still SHOPPING!!!


Ciao

SuperHawks

Well it’s Super Bowl Sunday and our Seahawks have finally made it to the BIG game!!

I along with the rest of the country shall be watching this national past time with the excitement and glee of a small child at x-mas time. I only hope that the Hawks will walk away with that big ''ol ring and come back to this wet and forgotten state champions!!

In other news...

I caught Jo's cold........o joy.

I haven’t spoken with ANY of my friends in ages...........seems Binks is heading off to Pennsylvania for some god awful reason........I don’t know why

Patti Anne is working 900 hours a week so I rarely hear from her.

Stace hasn’t been calling so I can only imagine she is mad @ me again for some bloody reason.

Lets see......I am still at the same job, and will remain as Jo and I have decided that a job is better than NO job regardless of how horrible it might be.

Mr.C is still with that grrl.....I took her out the other evening only to have her X Mr. Porcelain come into the bar and verbally attack me ( cunt, dyke,whore,lesbo,crazy bitch....Etc.) and scream insults and profanities at her. Only thing is she is used to it...........and she claims that she NEVER told him she thought I was ANY of those things..........UH HUH!

So Mr.C is completely enamored with this grrl..........and so we shall see how long this shall last.

I am off to shower, send the fiancée' to the store for beer and goodies for the game.........then either get a happy buzz, or a.... "O WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!!?? " buzz..

More lata'

O.........

My buddy in Portland wrote this about Shrubs lil speech the other day......

I thought it fitting..........as well.....I completely agree with him ( the captain that is).



Captain's Log Stardate Tuesday January 31, 2006

State of the Union is... Most Republicans are still suckers!

Bush telling you about how you need to get off your dependence on foreign oil is like Coors, Budweiser and Molson telling you to stop drinking because it's bad. What a fuckin moron. And the only people even more stupid then Bush is the ones who believe anything he says.

Maybe next he'll be telling you his daughter's don't drink, he's a war hero, brown people hate our freedom and that Exxon needs big profits to do research and development and they weren't war profiteering... oh wait, sorry, he's already done all that. Well, except maybe the one about his daughters.

Next election, if you vote for any Republican candidate who is currently in power, don't cry to me or anyone else when terrorists are still blowing up shit, gas is out of control expensive, you have no health care, you're in debt up to your eyeballs, can't declare bankruptcy and, oh yeah, the government knows when your period is, where you go for beers and reads your mail.

Why, that's what America is all about!