song 2

Pretty much all I got..........

this is me

today.....



Candlebox

Far Behind

Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And not maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway
And now maybe
Your friends they stand beside they watch you crumble
As you falter to the ground
And now maybe
Your friends they stand beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high
But then some day people look at you for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home
But then some day we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us
But you left me far behind
Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
No, no, no
Couldn't share the pain they watch you suffer
Now maybe I could have made my own mistakes
But I live with what I've known
Yes maybe we might share in something great
But won't you look at where we've grown
Won't you look at where we've gone
But then someday comes tomorrow holds a sense of what I fear for you in my mind
As you trip the final line
And that cold day when you lost control
Shame you left my life
So soon you should have told me
But you left me far behind
Now maybe I didn't meant to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
No, no, no
Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
No maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
I said times have changed your friends
They come and watch you crumble to the ground
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hold you down
Hold you down
Maybe brother maybe love I didn't mean to treat you bad
But you left me far behind
Left me far behind
Left me far behind

Update

Ok here is the scoop.

Yesterday I finished the hardest fucking Biology final I have ever taken in mylfe (MY life)...I had to sit through 7 hrs of lecture on DVD as I wasn’t prepared...as usual...afterwhich....... I took the exam. I believe I may swing a B...that would make me happy...Today b4 work and after I am wrapping up my essays on the environment...and tomorrow typing them up and sending them in as well as a final evaluation for English 355...after that I am FINITO!!!!

sighhh

I only have myself to blame...........for my procrastinational ways.........next yr I will be better......

Well that’s what I tell myself...

Yuck

Apparently an 84 yr old Thai man in Bangkok had an ear itch…..the itch had become so intense he had used cotton buds to try and relieve it, but he scratched so hard his eardrums ruptured and started bleeding. When the doctors went to examine him they found the reason for the insane itching. Seems around 50 maggots were making a nice cozy home in the mans ears……I shit you not….The Dr’s used tweezers and a suction device to suck the things out……and are holding him in observation to make sure he doesn’t become the 1st human fly….


Moving on……..

I am now going to start Biology……

After reading this………I am not so sure I wanna.
Maggot Story

S&C

Sex& the City on TBS is a grrls best friend.......

It is FABULOUS!!!

I so love that show........I am going to buy every season on DVD as soon as I can afford it........nothing makes me smile and giggle like that show.......it truly is a Godsend on a bad day........

Something else that makes giggle and smile like a school grrl is my new found friend Miss Ageless........she is FABULOUS too!

I am off to buy some coffee Ice Cream from Haggen Daaz
The 3rd thing that makes me smile......a pint of lovely H&G...

Tis Great!

Feeling Korny

Music fits my mood.......
I have mentioned this.....just a few times...

Seeing how I had a blow out with my brother.......

A lil dose of Korn seemed to be the best way to vent my frustration......

I recommend them to anyone who needs a good dose of an exceptionally talented aggressive ROCK band........

This song here.....I can totally identify with today........there are several more, but I am feeling selfish....

BTW
Korn Greatest Hits is an excellent CD.........a great compilation of good tunage.


KORN

"Did My Time"

Realized I can never win
Sometimes I feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin
My mind is laughing at me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we suppose to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Sometimes I can never tell
If I've got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead
For this curse to leave me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we suppose to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Betrayed
I feel so enslaved
I really Tried
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Oh God, the anger's changing me

Grrrrrrr

So can things get any better in my life?

That would have to be a no.....Hell no!


I wake up this morning.....make my coffee and the 1st thing that happens is I have this HUGE argument with Mr.C.......over what else?

$$

He seems to think I owe him such and such...when I don’t.......

He then goes on to be a complete ass......tell me to change the situation seeing how I am so unhappy........yadda yadda.......I responded by telling him to change it.......

so needless to say we are not speaking........over $.

Such a joke........

Moving on......

I must now run and do the bank thang......pay some bills......and return here to finish me Biology assignments.......I will be so happy when I am finished with all of this.......as the weather here is beautiful.....and I sure wouldn’t mind being out in it today......would alleviate much of this stress......yes indeedy


In other news....

I got zilch!~

I get back to ya..

Knackered

I am finished with Political Science. I now know more about the Government than I did....well A lil bit more. I am glad I learned these new things.......but as with most of my classes, I will forget the bulk of the knowledge I have attained in the next 36 hours. Tomorrow is Biology day....as well as Wed-Friday......I am just glad I am finished........I have been going non-stop 'cept for dinner since 10AM..........I feel like a zombie and look like one as well........time to pass out so I can get up and start all over again in the morrow....................

So goodnight academic world…I shall return to defeat and conquer the Biology beast….

O boy.

Now I know I’ve lost it…



Oh and thank you for your comment Aussie……….

I am holding my own……….
Barely.

release

When I am stressed......as I am now with the tons of assignments I am struggling with ( I am 60.3% finished BTW) well........I throw on Motown......always have......it gives me release for some flippin reason, so for Coleyz song of the day I have chosen the following......


Enjoy.
and
Relax.



4 Tops
I need your lovin'

Baby I need your lovin'
Baby I need your lovin'
Although you're never near
Your voice I often hear
Another day, another night
I long to hold you tight
'Cause I'm so lonely
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Some say it's a sign of weakness
For a man to beg
Then weak I'd rather be
If it means havin' you to keep
'Cause lately I've been losin' sleep
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Empty nights
Echo your name
Sometimes I wonder
Will I ever be the same
Oh yeah, when you see me smile
You know
Things have gotten worse
Any smile you might see
Has all been rehearsed
Darlin', I can't go on without you
This emptiness won't let me live without you
This loneliness inside me darlin'
Makes me feel not alive, honey
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'

Busy

So busy.
I have done an entire Web Project, or should I say a multi-media project for English 355 and I am still in the process of typing out 5 assignments for P.S.

I then have a Biology final to take tomorrow...as well write 9 summaries on the environment.

O joy......
I wanna die...

So 4-give me I most likely wont be updating anything of interest 4 a few days...

Such is the life of a college grrl on the verge of an emotional breakdown.

Kidnapped

Last night I was trying to concentrate on my studies. For the most part I was pissed. Pissed @ my Printer. It wouldn’t print. I tried everything......I did. looked in the manual. did the software checks......all of it...........the paper was going through, but once it came through the other end......there was absolutely nothing printed on the paper.......I was not happy. Then the paper jammed.........ok........now what!? I look into the printer.......and there.......where you feed the paper.....was my black hair scrunchie.......O gosh!. How did you get in there?...I had found the printing jamming culprit! I nabbed the scrunchie....tucked it in my pocket.......(for later use, of course) and printed a test page. 'volia!!!

Printing malfunction fixed..

After I had brilliantly fixed my printing malfunction.... N2 called me......she bought a new car.....wanted to swing by and show me......sure......y not? So here she comes....shows me her new 2004 Mazda......very nice ride BTW.....then proceeds to tell me I should accompany her to her house for Poker night........they do poker night every Friday night........I start to say n...b4 I can finish she says...."oh just for a minute.......it will be fun" I say "I don’t know how to play poker!" ( I know how to play strip poker, and I have never lost!).......anywayz.........she wont take no for an answer and nabs me. We then arrive at her house......and Willard and Israel try to explain to me the rules of Texas Hold em'......I ask for a book.........like the scholastic genius I am...so as to get familiar with the rules and such......Israel makes me a cheat sheet....which only gets ink all over me......he used a permanent marker which was permanently all over my arm.....ok… there were a total of 6 of us.......Aim her BF Tantrum, Nice Guy.,N2, Willard and myself.......we all sit and play poker......I did rather well.........made it to the last round.............when N2 decides to leave and visit her mother who had just returned from Las Vegas........”this family is full of gamblers I'm thinking”........so she leaves me......*sniff*...But....I do OK........then the boys want beer. I call N2.........she comes home with beer and mother in tow......mommy is wasted from her trip back from sin city........we then decide to go to mums pub..(she owns a pub).......so N2, myself, and mum all arrive at the pub......I order a beverage ...N2 does as well.....now it doesn’t take N2 much to become intoxicated........2 drinks and she is rubbing her face and making faces in turn making me laugh so hard I am falling all over myself.........well in the process of laughing…. this man.....BI GUY ....comes over and starts chatting us up. Seems N2 knows him from playing poker at another establishment...well he is a balding, no wait, he is bald.......average looking effeminate man........my gadar is just off the charts with this guy.......he is staring at me and then asks if he can join us........N2 who is pleasantly buzzed at this point says "sure".....I give her that "I am going to kill u look"...she ignores me......Grrrrr.......ok here he comes......sits next to me and begins asking me if I am in love.....as he would like to take me out sometime...........I ignore him...I was then rubbing my neck as I had a kink and he begins to rub it for me..........Willard and the gang had arrived by this time and he is just a laughing at me as I have this look of fear and confusion on my face......who said he could touch me? OMG!!! So I then politely tell him I am fine......he says OK HONEY...o boy........I then excuse myself.........he asks N2 if I am involved... she lied for me......thank God.......as when I returned I told him that no I am not in love, but involved...with Israel!!! Israiel was all to happy to be nominated….big grin on his mug now……...... hey I lied....but can u blame me? BI GUY was a nice guy, but......not my cuppa tea...
So the night ended very soon afterward............all had fun.......and next weekend the gang and I are celebrating completing my first year at WSU.

Moving on........

I get up this AM....making coffee.......minding my own p's&q's....when I hear screaming from next door.........my aunts place..........I run to the back to hear Lyndy threatening KuntJoy with physical violence.......I am turning and heading next door to find out what’s what when in walks Mr.C.........he then tells me that Lyndy has hit Aunt L , knocking her down and giving her a shiner. I don’t care to hear anymore and immediately call the police. I am on the phone with them when I see KuntJoy out front on the phone with the police as well............after I make the report I walk out in time to see the sheriffs walking up with a machine gun "I am not kidding….a machine gun"....asking "Where's the Gun!!??"........what gun?............KuntJoy tells them he has it and not to worry but to arrest Lyndy.....WHAT GUN!!!??????.....Apparently after Lyndy hit aunt L she went and got her gun and was going after him........she wouldn’t give it to KuntJoy........it was Mr. C who convinced her to give him the gun....thank God.........as God knows what she would have done......turns out it wasn’t loaded, but still.......Ok......so let me sum this up........Lyndy is this 40ish yr old drunken loser guy that Aunt Glo has adopted as one of her projects. She seems to think she can fix him. Well he has been nothing but trouble since he came on the scene a yr ago......but Glo being Glo......she wont listen as we have all warned her he would one day physically hurt someone.........either KuntJoy or her............well..........I guess...unfortunately we were right.............as apparently he showed up at Glo's home this AM........intoxicated........and proceeded to start arguing with Aunt L.......she then proceeded to pack up her belongings as she was going to a motel.........when the altercation took place.........she said something to him........he hit her.......she is a 67 yr old women prone to heart attacks. (he’s a daisy huh?)...well this is when she grabs the gun and well.....i have divulged the rest...

The police hauled off Lyndy and all was well once again at my Dysfunctional families residence. I haven’t been back to see how everyone is doing. seeing how KuntJoy is back from treatment ( he made it a whole 36 hours this time........tis a record) I figure he can handle the situation.....

Wow.......

My life is never dull.........or should I say my extended family is never dull……this is why I am so as my fandamily says “anti-social”……..this sort of rubbish tends to make me want to stay on my side of the fence…indefinitely..


I do have something that is making me Grin like a shot fox.......its a under-down... type of a Prezzy.........meaning a nice happening as of late....

coleyzzz 

Song

Happy Earth Day!!
4/22/05
For those of you who don’t know what Earth Day is..........well it is a global holiday to celebrate the wonder of life on our planet, or something like that.....Earth Day Page

Moving on....

I am extremely eclectic with my music. Music is actually the best way to tell what kind of a mood I am in....well I have had roomies and friends tell me this on occasion.

So this is my state of mind today.....
I have always been a big fan of AL...more so as a solo artist than when she was in the Eurythmics .......her solo work is more......I don’t know........

genuine.


Annie Lennox

"Money Can't Buy It"

Money can't buy it... baby
Sex can't buy it... baby
Drugs can't buy it... baby
You can't buy it... baby

I believe that love alone might do these things for you
I believe in love alone yeah yeah

Take the power to set you free
Kick down the door and throw away the key
Give up your needs...
Your poisoned seeds
Find yourself elected to a different kind of creed

I believe that love alone might do these things for you
I believe that love alone might do these things for you
I believe in the power of creation
I believe in the good vibration
I believe in love alone yeah yeah

Won't somebody tell me what we're coming to
It might take forever till we watch those dreams come true
All the money in the world won't buy you peace of minde
You can have it all but you still won't be satisfied

Money can't buy it... baby
Sex can't buy it... baby
Drugs can't buy it... baby
You can't buy it... baby

Now...
Hear this
Pay attention to me
'cause I'm a rich white girl and it's plain to see
I got every kind of thing that the money can buy
Let me tell you all about it
Let me amplify
I got DIAMONDS...
You heard about those
I got so many that I can't close my safe at night in the dark
Lying awake in a sick dream

I believe that love alone might do these things for you
I believe that love alone might do these things for you
I believe in the power of creation
I believe in the good vibration

Sour

Recently I have found a new candy that I am having a love/hate relationship with. Altoids Curiously Strong Raspberry and Orange Sours. Now I love sour candy...ALOT.... I always have.... and these lil tinies are right up my alley...plus the lil tin they come in is rather nifty as you can save it for tacks or Advil...or whatever...anyway...I have been nibbling on.... or should I say sucking on... these sour A's for the past week as they are great at taking my mind off of smoking which BTW I am doing really well.... and MR. C has quit completely...the problem with my sour tinies is they make me grimace and squirm like I am about to start labor...and not only that...if you eat too many...which I do....they tend to make the top layer of skin on your tongue peel and patch...eventually falling off....which in all honesty is...... NASTY...first I thought it was only me ......but I seen N2 making my infamous face and asked her if she was eating a sour A......"Yea........I hate em!!" "OK...y r u eating them?"... "Cos I love the sour rush I get!!" .... YES!!!.......so its not just me......she also has the shedding tongue trouble.....so we both decided to quit cold turkey or seek help...."YES. My name is Coley and I am an Altoidaholic"...
Or forever keep our mouths shut for fear of someone seeing our handicapped tongues and running in disgust and fear......"THEY HAVE ALTOIDIDIS!!!!"

Moving on.....


Work was LAUGHS tonight.....at one point I had N2 laughing so hard she couldn’t breathe and I couldn’t see for the tears running down my face....we really do have a great time together.......maybe cos we HATE everyone...well not everyone...hates a strong word.....we just see things and people in the same light............also .....L Lady was present as well as the MDQ. We all had a great time......it was nice.....I left feeling like I accomplished something as well as the big grin I had on me face.....friends can do that to a gal.

I have the next week off......Lavender was nice enough to make sure that I did..... for my finals and such.....so that’s what I will be doing......time to put my nose to the bookstone and get er done.

I do have something to say.......well for me more than anything...I was reading my past Posts...and some of them I am proud of...but..... most of them I am not.........I wasn’t aware I had such potty fingers AKA mouth.....so I am in the future going to refrain with the profanity.....and try and write how I conduct myself day to day.........with a lil style and bit of class.........I wont stop with my nicknames and "lil's" or my other 'cute' methods of writing......cos I do act that way in my daily life......with my closest friends only.........but......this here Blog is just a reflection of me....not the whole me.........its a therapeutic way for me to vent and discover things about myself that I might not otherwise see..........

That’s all.

Ok.......

Oh and again........N2....thank you for the invite.......I will be going out with you and the gang next weekend......after my term is over..........although....... I wont be accompanying u camping.... and not becos you think I am a "Prima-Donna".......

I just don’t like cold.........bugs....cold.....bugs........

that’s all.....

nothing really....

;)

just keep our holidays indoors..........

room service and cable TV.

Works 4 me.

DeskTop

So I am posting AGAIN ..... I guess there are other more horrible things I could be doing......I am just a Blogaholic these last few days........perhaps it has to do with the fact I don’t have anyone to talk to....so I guess writing me thoughts down is better than sitting here talking to myself...although I have had some of my best conversations with myself.....

So I guess I should blog about what I actually got accomplished today......read a butt load about politics, took my LAST exam in my HS class......'human sexuality'....which basically covered homosexuality,mastrubation,oral sex,and why women dislike the missionary position...seems that most women feel this position has only one true benefit....the intimacy benefit,(kissing) but according to a high % of women the benefits stop there......Most men are considerably heavier than women and therefore they are having to support the bulk of their weight, also in this position the woman feels 'pinned to the mat' giving a woman a feel of having little or no control, which seems to be why allot of American men do like this position as they have all of the control. There are other factors to why women are not as apt to like the missionary position, lack of 'fondling' and other 'pleasant" touching bennies. I was truly not aware of the % of women who disliked this........so I thought I would be cool about shit and share my newfound knowledge....and for those who want to know ........the position that is favored by a high % of women is..........female on-top.......a lil tidbit for the fellas out there .....as this is what my college textbook says......just passing on me new-found knowledge......
And that concludes today’s segment of Coleyz Sex-Ed Lesson 101.

Moving on...

I have been playing with my Desktop setting today (in between my studies) and I am just in awe of some of the shit I didn’t know I could do. I feel like an idiot. Or maybe I just never tried to add more than my background imagery, anyways.......I now have several pics on me desktop of Angelina and Darren......they actually look kinna cute together, but beautiful people usually do look good together. Beautiful people doing beautiful things.

I am also not very happy.......well I am actually quite happy, but this lil happening isn’t making me feel good. My Kitty Cat Domino is shedding in a big way. Which is normal this time of year....she also has a habit of rolling in the dirt outside in the road. She has carved a small enclave for herself where she can roll and scratch herself. This is all groovy, great, and grand until she comes trotting into the house and onto my bed.....dusty paws and dirty furs.......not a good combo.....so in she goes with me to get her ( lately, nightly bath).....in the bathroom. She comes a running out looking like a drowned rat......but about an hour later she looks so purty and smells so nice. This is where my unhappiness comes into play. I love my cat....like most cat lovers do...allot.......and I love to hold her and pet her.....and this is where the problem comes into play......since she started shedding, I have started getting some kind of an allergic reaction to her........my neck gets all itchy and red......from where she lies....at first I though it might be from her getting bathed, but no I have had to do this for the last 7 months. The only thing I can think of is there is something in her shedding.........I don’t know........but until she is finished she has to be booted out..*sniff*....

She can sleep with Mr.C.....least she wont be alone....

I guess I wont have to bathe her now........seeing how she wont be cuddling my pillow and trotting her dusty paws in here anymore.........that’s one Bennie...

OH MY GOD!......thats it! I am now officially LAME.

Talking about my cat in a BLOG........I need therapy...or a good night of drinking and flirting to get me back to meself again.....

That's the plan Man.............

School will be done on................

lemme see

The 29th......

Then I will be Whiskey Bound baby!!

Look out!!


'sigh'
cat-blogging....Jesus,Mary and Joseph...what next......start talkin 'bout my tulips or some such shit......Lord.......

Why Not

I had someone email me about a Post I had written awhile back....Wanting to know where it was..I told him to LOOK IN MY ARCHIVES.....but alas......he couldn't figure it out.....or may I say....he was to LAZY to look for it...........so here you go buddie.......

I really don't know what the big deal is........
I thought it was rather insulting.....

:(::::::

ah well....
My invisible ass post

Quick

This will be a quickie. I am in the process of waking up...yes I know its 2PM, but it takes me a sec. After this long and streeeeeennnnnuuuuuoussss process… I must shower and start on these assignments................I can hardly wait, the anticipation is killing me.

Maybe it will. Then I won’t have to worry 'bout it no more....

Just joshing...

I do have a quick bitch today...people who call me celly and don’t leave a message. Knowing about caller ID… thinking they can just call and you will call back to me is just plain lazy. I need to know what it is you are calling 4.... cos maybe I don’t wanna talk bout that certain subject...or maybe your just calling to tell me to be somewhere at a certain time...or MAYBE that’s what VM is for...to leave one a message ...message...get it?

I know
Tis a petty bitch...but its all I got today

I must admit I am in a good mood today...

Might be cos of that new Aussie shampoo I bought...or just cos its a beautiful day. Either way

Is a nice day

Now I get to spend it with me nose in a book..........

YAY!

Cookies

I am getting ready to watch a DVD...BUT I had an overwhelming desire to blog just one more time tonight...I couldn’t tell you why.... whoever you might be....

Mr.C just baked me some chocolate chip cookies and now I am so full I could burst...seems to be the new norm for me...eat too much.... feel like death...then have a huge guilt trip and promise myself I wont eat again for a week...yea...that about sums up my consumage habit as of late.... see I haven’t been working out lately...with the rib injury ...which BTW has healed almost 97.3 %...and the stress from school and Mr.C's recent health issues...I just haven’t had the time nor the energy nor the drive to want to step myself into a sweaty frenzy. I do believe I need to begin anew tomorrow( working out) as I am not liking the lil pudgy in me mid-section ...no I am not liking it one bit.

So like I have always said...if ya don’t like it...CHANGE IT!!
Or CHARGE IT!.......really just depends on one's state of mind........

don’t cha think?

I do have a big fat Thank YOU to say to me Boss Lavender........she told me I could leave early....6hrs early actually......if I wanted..and well of course I wanted to.......who the hell wouldn’t?......well those who need the $ of course........anyway........I just wanted to take the time to tell her again that she is absolutely F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S!!......although.....I did tell her that on me way out the door...well I was actually skipping out the door........but no one actually seen me skipping...how utterly embarrassing that woulda been!


O and again .......THANK YOU Lavender....as she also let me have this Friday off....which actually gives me.....lets see........Friday thru Thursday off....

O HELL YES!!

So I will have absolutely no excuses for not completing my assignments....

el'zilcho excuso......


O and just one more thing......

I want to wish Kuntjoy the best of luck ....he is leaving tomorrow for treatment..28 days 2 B exact.........so I hope he does well and opens himself up to the counselors......I do have me fingers crossed for him......plus he will be in my prayers.......as I really want him to get well......I truly do....regardless of what an ass he can be.....

SO....
Good LUCK CUZ!!!

and with that

I am off

Sunset

Since I didnt have to work a full shift tonight...I thought I would take myself on a nice mental holiday.....and seeing how I am such a nice grrl.....I thought I would allow me readers to come along.....

Rush

Rush...that will be me for the next 10 days....Miss Rush........trying to get in all of those last minute assignments that I should have finished 3 weeks ago.........but alas...seeing how I am the queen of procrastination...it didn’t happen. It also didn’t help the Mr. C was hospitalized...no that didn’t help whatsoever...tends to distract one from her studies...........BUT I can and will do this...as I have played catch-up in one day in my past Portland college days............we used to wait.... my friends and I...until the day b4 all of our labs were due...we would all meet in the computer lab and work together.... about 5 of us.... on 13 Labs.........it would take us 12 hrs...and when we left we looked like we had been the victims of some crazy coercive interrogation tactics .......didn’t matter......the work was done and the mission accomplished...if I could do that I can certainly write 7 small essays on politics .........especially when it is a subject I find to be so interesting.

Although, the biggest bitch will be the biology exam I have to take.........as I hate biology.........I received a b+ on my last exam...so I must absorb some of the material...how I don’t know as I tend to catch myself watching the lint float in the air above me.........that’s how interesting I find the subject to be.

I don’t.


Mr. C has just informed me that I need to take him to his MRI on Thursday..........it is his last and final test to be put back on the LIST...he is pretty jacked, as am I. I hope all goes well...cos he really needs this to work out...we both do.


I must be off.............work beckons...........School beckons.............life.

Oh how I need a break...a holiday.... a NORMAL ONE!..... maybe I will take one after all of this insanity is over...........

I just might.


Coleyzzz CD pick for the day

robyn -robyn is here
Is an old release......but still a good one.........

Human Sexuality

I just took one of my last exams in Human Sexuality.... and wouldnt't you know it...I actually learned something. I mentioned here the other day about how one needs to be happy in order to offer anything to another in regards to a stable relationship...and well that was the jest of my exam today...that exact topic.


Example
The first prerequisite for a loving relationship, therefore, is a positive self-concept (good self-esteem).

I just love it when I am right about something that I had yet to even study...but in theory it really is just common sense.... although not everyone buys that. Which goes back to what I was saying b4...some individuals feed off of love in order to make themselves feel good about themselves...its almost a type of an addiction. Wait...

It is an addiction.

I guess I am rambling on about this as I found this to be extremely ironic...as I am in a similar situation...or was. I decided to just maintain a friendship with Shocker...as I would hate to lose that.

Moving on...

Has anyone else watched the Gotti's? O...MY.... GOD!......I am not one for reality TV...and as a general rule I don't really watch it...but it came on today while I was studying so I was pretty much just listening to it.... why would anyone want to watch a bunch of spoilt rich Italian teenagers run around like they own the planet?.......I don't know........the worst is the friend or whatever he is Robert.....I swear he is gay and the dreadlocks.........Pulleeeeeaseeeeeeee.....I have never seen a gay, whiney, Italian-dego snob b4.....and I have to say ........its not something I wanna do again anytime to soon.......

I am not prejudice against Italians by any means.......B4.......I used to only date Italian guys.......and only Italians.........I loved them...dark and handsome..yum.......but after a few yrs........I learned that I cannot take the famous Italian temper nor the famous Italian infidelity........

Mama Mia......nata fo me.........

I must be off as I have to finish another exam and start my web pages...........

OH
I did take some time to learn about track backs today and I am now officially a Tracky....meaning I am capable of pinging and being pinged...although I doubt very much that I say anything really worthy of the great and powerful PING.

But

U never know..........

Stranger things have happened.