So I am posting AGAIN ..... I guess there are other more horrible things I could be doing......I am just a Blogaholic these last few days........perhaps it has to do with the fact I don’t have anyone to talk to....so I guess writing me thoughts down is better than sitting here talking to myself...although I have had some of my best conversations with myself.....
So I guess I should blog about what I actually got accomplished today......read a butt load about politics, took my LAST exam in my HS class......'human sexuality'....which basically covered homosexuality,mastrubation,oral sex,and why women dislike the missionary position...seems that most women feel this position has only one true benefit....the intimacy benefit,(kissing) but according to a high % of women the benefits stop there......Most men are considerably heavier than women and therefore they are having to support the bulk of their weight, also in this position the woman feels 'pinned to the mat' giving a woman a feel of having little or no control, which seems to be why allot of American men do like this position as they have all of the control. There are other factors to why women are not as apt to like the missionary position, lack of 'fondling' and other 'pleasant" touching bennies. I was truly not aware of the % of women who disliked this........so I thought I would be cool about shit and share my newfound knowledge....and for those who want to know ........the position that is favored by a high % of women is..........female on-top.......a lil tidbit for the fellas out there .....as this is what my college textbook says......just passing on me new-found knowledge......
And that concludes today’s segment of Coleyz Sex-Ed Lesson 101.
Moving on...
I have been playing with my Desktop setting today (in between my studies) and I am just in awe of some of the shit I didn’t know I could do. I feel like an idiot. Or maybe I just never tried to add more than my background imagery, anyways.......I now have several pics on me desktop of Angelina and Darren......they actually look kinna cute together, but beautiful people usually do look good together. Beautiful people doing beautiful things.
I am also not very happy.......well I am actually quite happy, but this lil happening isn’t making me feel good. My Kitty Cat Domino is shedding in a big way. Which is normal this time of year....she also has a habit of rolling in the dirt outside in the road. She has carved a small enclave for herself where she can roll and scratch herself. This is all groovy, great, and grand until she comes trotting into the house and onto my bed.....dusty paws and dirty furs.......not a good combo.....so in she goes with me to get her ( lately, nightly bath).....in the bathroom. She comes a running out looking like a drowned rat......but about an hour later she looks so purty and smells so nice. This is where my unhappiness comes into play. I love my cat....like most cat lovers do...allot.......and I love to hold her and pet her.....and this is where the problem comes into play......since she started shedding, I have started getting some kind of an allergic reaction to her........my neck gets all itchy and red......from where she lies....at first I though it might be from her getting bathed, but no I have had to do this for the last 7 months. The only thing I can think of is there is something in her shedding.........I don’t know........but until she is finished she has to be booted out..*sniff*....
She can sleep with Mr.C.....least she wont be alone....
I guess I wont have to bathe her now........seeing how she wont be cuddling my pillow and trotting her dusty paws in here anymore.........that’s one Bennie...
OH MY GOD!......thats it! I am now officially LAME.
Talking about my cat in a BLOG........I need therapy...or a good night of drinking and flirting to get me back to meself again.....
That's the plan Man.............
School will be done on................
lemme see
The 29th......
Then I will be Whiskey Bound baby!!
Look out!!
'sigh'
cat-blogging....Jesus,Mary and Joseph...what next......start talkin 'bout my tulips or some such shit......Lord.......
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Why Not
I had someone email me about a Post I had written awhile back....Wanting to know where it was..I told him to LOOK IN MY ARCHIVES.....but alas......he couldn't figure it out.....or may I say....he was to LAZY to look for it...........so here you go buddie.......
I really don't know what the big deal is........
I thought it was rather insulting.....
:(::::::
ah well....
My invisible ass post
I really don't know what the big deal is........
I thought it was rather insulting.....
:(::::::
ah well....
My invisible ass post
Quick
This will be a quickie. I am in the process of waking up...yes I know its 2PM, but it takes me a sec. After this long and streeeeeennnnnuuuuuoussss process… I must shower and start on these assignments................I can hardly wait, the anticipation is killing me.
Maybe it will. Then I won’t have to worry 'bout it no more....
Just joshing...
I do have a quick bitch today...people who call me celly and don’t leave a message. Knowing about caller ID… thinking they can just call and you will call back to me is just plain lazy. I need to know what it is you are calling 4.... cos maybe I don’t wanna talk bout that certain subject...or maybe your just calling to tell me to be somewhere at a certain time...or MAYBE that’s what VM is for...to leave one a message ...message...get it?
I know
Tis a petty bitch...but its all I got today
I must admit I am in a good mood today...
Might be cos of that new Aussie shampoo I bought...or just cos its a beautiful day. Either way
Is a nice day
Now I get to spend it with me nose in a book..........
YAY!
Maybe it will. Then I won’t have to worry 'bout it no more....
Just joshing...
I do have a quick bitch today...people who call me celly and don’t leave a message. Knowing about caller ID… thinking they can just call and you will call back to me is just plain lazy. I need to know what it is you are calling 4.... cos maybe I don’t wanna talk bout that certain subject...or maybe your just calling to tell me to be somewhere at a certain time...or MAYBE that’s what VM is for...to leave one a message ...message...get it?
I know
Tis a petty bitch...but its all I got today
I must admit I am in a good mood today...
Might be cos of that new Aussie shampoo I bought...or just cos its a beautiful day. Either way
Is a nice day
Now I get to spend it with me nose in a book..........
YAY!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Cookies
I am getting ready to watch a DVD...BUT I had an overwhelming desire to blog just one more time tonight...I couldn’t tell you why.... whoever you might be....
Mr.C just baked me some chocolate chip cookies and now I am so full I could burst...seems to be the new norm for me...eat too much.... feel like death...then have a huge guilt trip and promise myself I wont eat again for a week...yea...that about sums up my consumage habit as of late.... see I haven’t been working out lately...with the rib injury ...which BTW has healed almost 97.3 %...and the stress from school and Mr.C's recent health issues...I just haven’t had the time nor the energy nor the drive to want to step myself into a sweaty frenzy. I do believe I need to begin anew tomorrow( working out) as I am not liking the lil pudgy in me mid-section ...no I am not liking it one bit.
So like I have always said...if ya don’t like it...CHANGE IT!!
Or CHARGE IT!.......really just depends on one's state of mind........
don’t cha think?
I do have a big fat Thank YOU to say to me Boss Lavender........she told me I could leave early....6hrs early actually......if I wanted..and well of course I wanted to.......who the hell wouldn’t?......well those who need the $ of course........anyway........I just wanted to take the time to tell her again that she is absolutely F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S!!......although.....I did tell her that on me way out the door...well I was actually skipping out the door........but no one actually seen me skipping...how utterly embarrassing that woulda been!
O and again .......THANK YOU Lavender....as she also let me have this Friday off....which actually gives me.....lets see........Friday thru Thursday off....
O HELL YES!!
So I will have absolutely no excuses for not completing my assignments....
el'zilcho excuso......
O and just one more thing......
I want to wish Kuntjoy the best of luck ....he is leaving tomorrow for treatment..28 days 2 B exact.........so I hope he does well and opens himself up to the counselors......I do have me fingers crossed for him......plus he will be in my prayers.......as I really want him to get well......I truly do....regardless of what an ass he can be.....
SO....
Good LUCK CUZ!!!
and with that
I am off
Mr.C just baked me some chocolate chip cookies and now I am so full I could burst...seems to be the new norm for me...eat too much.... feel like death...then have a huge guilt trip and promise myself I wont eat again for a week...yea...that about sums up my consumage habit as of late.... see I haven’t been working out lately...with the rib injury ...which BTW has healed almost 97.3 %...and the stress from school and Mr.C's recent health issues...I just haven’t had the time nor the energy nor the drive to want to step myself into a sweaty frenzy. I do believe I need to begin anew tomorrow( working out) as I am not liking the lil pudgy in me mid-section ...no I am not liking it one bit.
So like I have always said...if ya don’t like it...CHANGE IT!!
Or CHARGE IT!.......really just depends on one's state of mind........
don’t cha think?
I do have a big fat Thank YOU to say to me Boss Lavender........she told me I could leave early....6hrs early actually......if I wanted..and well of course I wanted to.......who the hell wouldn’t?......well those who need the $ of course........anyway........I just wanted to take the time to tell her again that she is absolutely F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S!!......although.....I did tell her that on me way out the door...well I was actually skipping out the door........but no one actually seen me skipping...how utterly embarrassing that woulda been!
O and again .......THANK YOU Lavender....as she also let me have this Friday off....which actually gives me.....lets see........Friday thru Thursday off....
O HELL YES!!
So I will have absolutely no excuses for not completing my assignments....
el'zilcho excuso......
O and just one more thing......
I want to wish Kuntjoy the best of luck ....he is leaving tomorrow for treatment..28 days 2 B exact.........so I hope he does well and opens himself up to the counselors......I do have me fingers crossed for him......plus he will be in my prayers.......as I really want him to get well......I truly do....regardless of what an ass he can be.....
SO....
Good LUCK CUZ!!!
and with that
I am off
Sunset
Since I didnt have to work a full shift tonight...I thought I would take myself on a nice mental holiday.....and seeing how I am such a nice grrl.....I thought I would allow me readers to come along.....
Rush
Rush...that will be me for the next 10 days....Miss Rush........trying to get in all of those last minute assignments that I should have finished 3 weeks ago.........but alas...seeing how I am the queen of procrastination...it didn’t happen. It also didn’t help the Mr. C was hospitalized...no that didn’t help whatsoever...tends to distract one from her studies...........BUT I can and will do this...as I have played catch-up in one day in my past Portland college days............we used to wait.... my friends and I...until the day b4 all of our labs were due...we would all meet in the computer lab and work together.... about 5 of us.... on 13 Labs.........it would take us 12 hrs...and when we left we looked like we had been the victims of some crazy coercive interrogation tactics .......didn’t matter......the work was done and the mission accomplished...if I could do that I can certainly write 7 small essays on politics .........especially when it is a subject I find to be so interesting.
Although, the biggest bitch will be the biology exam I have to take.........as I hate biology.........I received a b+ on my last exam...so I must absorb some of the material...how I don’t know as I tend to catch myself watching the lint float in the air above me.........that’s how interesting I find the subject to be.
I don’t.
Mr. C has just informed me that I need to take him to his MRI on Thursday..........it is his last and final test to be put back on the LIST...he is pretty jacked, as am I. I hope all goes well...cos he really needs this to work out...we both do.
I must be off.............work beckons...........School beckons.............life.
Oh how I need a break...a holiday.... a NORMAL ONE!..... maybe I will take one after all of this insanity is over...........
I just might.
Coleyzzz CD pick for the day
robyn -robyn is here
Is an old release......but still a good one.........
Although, the biggest bitch will be the biology exam I have to take.........as I hate biology.........I received a b+ on my last exam...so I must absorb some of the material...how I don’t know as I tend to catch myself watching the lint float in the air above me.........that’s how interesting I find the subject to be.
I don’t.
Mr. C has just informed me that I need to take him to his MRI on Thursday..........it is his last and final test to be put back on the LIST...he is pretty jacked, as am I. I hope all goes well...cos he really needs this to work out...we both do.
I must be off.............work beckons...........School beckons.............life.
Oh how I need a break...a holiday.... a NORMAL ONE!..... maybe I will take one after all of this insanity is over...........
I just might.
Coleyzzz CD pick for the day
robyn -robyn is here
Is an old release......but still a good one.........
Monday, April 18, 2005
Human Sexuality
I just took one of my last exams in Human Sexuality.... and wouldnt't you know it...I actually learned something. I mentioned here the other day about how one needs to be happy in order to offer anything to another in regards to a stable relationship...and well that was the jest of my exam today...that exact topic.
Example
The first prerequisite for a loving relationship, therefore, is a positive self-concept (good self-esteem).
I just love it when I am right about something that I had yet to even study...but in theory it really is just common sense.... although not everyone buys that. Which goes back to what I was saying b4...some individuals feed off of love in order to make themselves feel good about themselves...its almost a type of an addiction. Wait...
It is an addiction.
I guess I am rambling on about this as I found this to be extremely ironic...as I am in a similar situation...or was. I decided to just maintain a friendship with Shocker...as I would hate to lose that.
Moving on...
Has anyone else watched the Gotti's? O...MY.... GOD!......I am not one for reality TV...and as a general rule I don't really watch it...but it came on today while I was studying so I was pretty much just listening to it.... why would anyone want to watch a bunch of spoilt rich Italian teenagers run around like they own the planet?.......I don't know........the worst is the friend or whatever he is Robert.....I swear he is gay and the dreadlocks.........Pulleeeeeaseeeeeeee.....I have never seen a gay, whiney, Italian-dego snob b4.....and I have to say ........its not something I wanna do again anytime to soon.......
I am not prejudice against Italians by any means.......B4.......I used to only date Italian guys.......and only Italians.........I loved them...dark and handsome..yum.......but after a few yrs........I learned that I cannot take the famous Italian temper nor the famous Italian infidelity........
Mama Mia......nata fo me.........
I must be off as I have to finish another exam and start my web pages...........
OH
I did take some time to learn about track backs today and I am now officially a Tracky....meaning I am capable of pinging and being pinged...although I doubt very much that I say anything really worthy of the great and powerful PING.
But
U never know..........
Stranger things have happened.
Example
The first prerequisite for a loving relationship, therefore, is a positive self-concept (good self-esteem).
I just love it when I am right about something that I had yet to even study...but in theory it really is just common sense.... although not everyone buys that. Which goes back to what I was saying b4...some individuals feed off of love in order to make themselves feel good about themselves...its almost a type of an addiction. Wait...
It is an addiction.
I guess I am rambling on about this as I found this to be extremely ironic...as I am in a similar situation...or was. I decided to just maintain a friendship with Shocker...as I would hate to lose that.
Moving on...
Has anyone else watched the Gotti's? O...MY.... GOD!......I am not one for reality TV...and as a general rule I don't really watch it...but it came on today while I was studying so I was pretty much just listening to it.... why would anyone want to watch a bunch of spoilt rich Italian teenagers run around like they own the planet?.......I don't know........the worst is the friend or whatever he is Robert.....I swear he is gay and the dreadlocks.........Pulleeeeeaseeeeeeee.....I have never seen a gay, whiney, Italian-dego snob b4.....and I have to say ........its not something I wanna do again anytime to soon.......
I am not prejudice against Italians by any means.......B4.......I used to only date Italian guys.......and only Italians.........I loved them...dark and handsome..yum.......but after a few yrs........I learned that I cannot take the famous Italian temper nor the famous Italian infidelity........
Mama Mia......nata fo me.........
I must be off as I have to finish another exam and start my web pages...........
OH
I did take some time to learn about track backs today and I am now officially a Tracky....meaning I am capable of pinging and being pinged...although I doubt very much that I say anything really worthy of the great and powerful PING.
But
U never know..........
Stranger things have happened.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Calazone
Tonight we had Calzone from Pappa Jon’s take-n-Bake and let me tell you son... that is one helluva pizza pie. I am so bloody full right now I don’t know whether to throw up and pass out or pass out and throw up........either or.....I am too full for color TV. Speaking of TV...I just finished watching Smokey and The Bandit.....now I have seen this movie a zillion times.....but every time its on I find myself watching it like it was the first time.......I think its becos of the car.....the Trans Am muscle car....as a kid it was my dream car.......I swore to high heaven that I would have one when I grew up...and well I did .....sorta........I bought a 83 Camaro with 350 V8,dual exhaust, T-Tops with aluminum wheels when I was 21. It was ..as they say.....a bitchin Camaro......I remember getting 3 speeding tickets the first week of owning that crazy -cool- fast car......o how I had fun in me Camaro.........but as all things......it came to a screaming stop when it was stolen and literally blown up.......all I got back was the shell......all black and charred........even my wheels were melted and gooey.......was a sad end to a beautiful ride.
Lets see....what else do I have to Blog about today.......nadda really..........spent some quality time with the little brother........he went out last night and was sporting a hellashish hangover....too many shots of Crown and other alcoholic concoctions of different sorts... I pretty much made sure he drank plenty of fluids and ate..........and listened to those famous words of " I am never doing this again"
Sure
uh huh
Moving on....
I have been sleeping rather well lately which is all good.....it feels nice to wake up after a nice night of sleeping.....although my dreams have been a bit crazy and weird. I dreamt about me mom and Shocker last night......not a good combiantion..me mother didn’t like Shocker....so the dream was basically me trying to stop a feud which, as in life........wouldn’t have been an easy task to achieve......I don’t know what the dream signifies, I don’t believe in dreams having any real meaning anyway.........but I am open to debate as I try and have an open mind about everything. Until someone can prove to me that dreams have any meaning sides that of ones brain spewing out random images and emotions, I will just chalk them up to ........well......being what I said.....A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.....
So there you go.....
I must be off and finish a part of an assignment I have been avoiding. This next 11 days will be a bitch as I am going to be playing major catch-up.
story of my semester.
Lets see....what else do I have to Blog about today.......nadda really..........spent some quality time with the little brother........he went out last night and was sporting a hellashish hangover....too many shots of Crown and other alcoholic concoctions of different sorts... I pretty much made sure he drank plenty of fluids and ate..........and listened to those famous words of " I am never doing this again"
Sure
uh huh
Moving on....
I have been sleeping rather well lately which is all good.....it feels nice to wake up after a nice night of sleeping.....although my dreams have been a bit crazy and weird. I dreamt about me mom and Shocker last night......not a good combiantion..me mother didn’t like Shocker....so the dream was basically me trying to stop a feud which, as in life........wouldn’t have been an easy task to achieve......I don’t know what the dream signifies, I don’t believe in dreams having any real meaning anyway.........but I am open to debate as I try and have an open mind about everything. Until someone can prove to me that dreams have any meaning sides that of ones brain spewing out random images and emotions, I will just chalk them up to ........well......being what I said.....A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.....
So there you go.....
I must be off and finish a part of an assignment I have been avoiding. This next 11 days will be a bitch as I am going to be playing major catch-up.
story of my semester.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Happy
I am using this today as a way to get out what I am currently feeling...well I use this venue everyday as a way to get out what I am currently feeling...
I actually borrowed this from someone's Blog today as it totally reflects my current mood...
Here it is...
The way I currently perceive me....
How I C ME
How I FEEL ME.....
Here I am......
In all MY splendor...
have you ever taken a step or two back and came to the most absurd realization that the person you think you are, is in fact a lie?
have you ever taken the blanket that covers your lies, your insecurities, your fucked up realities away and saw… nothing?
have you ever just wanted so badly to just be who everyone else can be. Live how everyone else can live. Breathe a breath at a time.
have you ever had someone tell you you look well, happy. And want to slap them for lying to your face.
have you ever said out loud that you just need to be alone. When in reality you are lonely.
have you ever wanted to just stop.
just, fucking stop.
Moving on........
I had another not so nice convo today with Shocker......so I asked NB for some advice regarding my current shocking situation......she told me I should walk away as there are more things about Shocker that bug me than good.......which I guess in a sense is true. I mean.......there are things that just simply BUG me so much that I literally want to throw the phone across the room 68% of the time we are chatting up my minutes. But the remaining 32% of the time things are pretty copasetic. Is 32% enough? I don’t know........I just don’t know anything at the moment. All I do know is that I am not happy. ......and when one is with someone or sort of with someone that should be one's state of grace shouldn’t it?
Happy.
Happy?
Do we really get happy from the relationship we are in? Isn’t happiness a state of mind? Doesn’t happiness reflect what we really feel about ourselves? I have always thought so.........I have never been one to rate my current happiness by the relationship I am in at any given moment. I have never looked to another to make me happy nor have I ever allowed myself to be someone's happy whore...I believe that in order to be truly happy one needs to like oneself ...then and only then...can one offer themselves 100% to another and be HAPPY in a relationship..........
So I guess I have answered my own question now haven’t I?
I am currently not HAPPY with mlyfe (MY LIFE)…..and until I am ……I am not capable of giving someone else anything positive. or anything that resembles a happy relationship.
I truly believe this is so blatantly obvious when Shocker talks to me….My UNHAPPINESS....I have even pointed it out…….have even said “Hey Shocker…..Why would u wanna be with someone who makes u feel like this…or.....more importantly.....one who DOESN'T make you feel like that….?”
Shocker doesn’t know…….well…not totally true...……..
Shocker plays the luv card……..but I have seen enough card tricks in my time to know when one should fold their hand…
And ask for a new dealer.
I actually borrowed this from someone's Blog today as it totally reflects my current mood...
Here it is...
The way I currently perceive me....
How I C ME
How I FEEL ME.....
Here I am......
In all MY splendor...
have you ever taken a step or two back and came to the most absurd realization that the person you think you are, is in fact a lie?
have you ever taken the blanket that covers your lies, your insecurities, your fucked up realities away and saw… nothing?
have you ever just wanted so badly to just be who everyone else can be. Live how everyone else can live. Breathe a breath at a time.
have you ever had someone tell you you look well, happy. And want to slap them for lying to your face.
have you ever said out loud that you just need to be alone. When in reality you are lonely.
have you ever wanted to just stop.
just, fucking stop.
Moving on........
I had another not so nice convo today with Shocker......so I asked NB for some advice regarding my current shocking situation......she told me I should walk away as there are more things about Shocker that bug me than good.......which I guess in a sense is true. I mean.......there are things that just simply BUG me so much that I literally want to throw the phone across the room 68% of the time we are chatting up my minutes. But the remaining 32% of the time things are pretty copasetic. Is 32% enough? I don’t know........I just don’t know anything at the moment. All I do know is that I am not happy. ......and when one is with someone or sort of with someone that should be one's state of grace shouldn’t it?
Happy.
Happy?
Do we really get happy from the relationship we are in? Isn’t happiness a state of mind? Doesn’t happiness reflect what we really feel about ourselves? I have always thought so.........I have never been one to rate my current happiness by the relationship I am in at any given moment. I have never looked to another to make me happy nor have I ever allowed myself to be someone's happy whore...I believe that in order to be truly happy one needs to like oneself ...then and only then...can one offer themselves 100% to another and be HAPPY in a relationship..........
So I guess I have answered my own question now haven’t I?
I am currently not HAPPY with mlyfe (MY LIFE)…..and until I am ……I am not capable of giving someone else anything positive. or anything that resembles a happy relationship.
I truly believe this is so blatantly obvious when Shocker talks to me….My UNHAPPINESS....I have even pointed it out…….have even said “Hey Shocker…..Why would u wanna be with someone who makes u feel like this…or.....more importantly.....one who DOESN'T make you feel like that….?”
Shocker doesn’t know…….well…not totally true...……..
Shocker plays the luv card……..but I have seen enough card tricks in my time to know when one should fold their hand…
And ask for a new dealer.
Friday, April 15, 2005
HeartBurn
Well I have heartburn and heartache.........not a nice combo......too many Chimichanga Burrito’s/Shockeroo ordeals….......
I feel a bit overdosed/overwhelmed ...a bit well-done/redundant..full-up/empty... all of which... are not good combo's.......
Obviously..
So work went as well as work can go. I worked with the Mormon Dancing Queen and Tissue...although Tissue left 4 hrs early leaving me and the MDQ to our own devices. We managed quite well as we kick ass together....but the poor MDQ was in a rather foul mood as he really dislikes Tissue.....she has a tendency of asking his opinion on topics that do not apply to our working environment.
For instance: One day she was working with him and out of the blue asked him if he thought it was odd or inappropriate that her husband masturbated if she hadn’t had sex with him in 3 days.....the MDQ was a bit shocked and taken aback as this came out of left field.....he calmly told her that he didn’t think this was an appropriate topic for him to comment on and he felt very uncomfortable discussing anything that had to do with her husband and his self pleasing fetishes.(I, myself had a few scenario answers for her question/dilemma, but as luck would have it she didn’t ask me.....I cant imagine why?)
I remember while he was re-living this horrid experience how his demeanor changed…. the MDQ is usually a very mellow, laid- back guy…with a very sweet disposition…. but when he talks about Tissue or if she comes within 3 FT. of him…he looks like a man possessed….it would be almost comical if you didn’t feel for him…..Tissue seems to have this affect on about 99.9% of our staff…
So ...ever since then the MDQ cannot stand her.... and I cannot blame him...Tissue is one of those people that just doesn’t get it...and I doubt very much if she ever will.........I mean who would just walk up to someone u barely know and ask them something so utterly personal? Who asks a guy co-worker this? Well… TISSUE does!...
Tissue needs to clean up her act...
If that’s possible…
Moving on........
I had a very odd convo today with Shocker.........I was sort of asked a question.......and I lied. I lied becos I don’t feel comfy with this whole situation......and I don’t like not being in control.........at all..........so I lied.......and I hate lying........but at the time it was all I could think of to do.......
OK......my PC is bugging me in a big way........it is way LAG.........time to clean it up a bit I think....
Time to clean up many things.......
Spring Cleaning has taken on a totally different meaning for me this yr.
Funny how that is......
then again........
I feel a bit overdosed/overwhelmed ...a bit well-done/redundant..full-up/empty... all of which... are not good combo's.......
Obviously..
So work went as well as work can go. I worked with the Mormon Dancing Queen and Tissue...although Tissue left 4 hrs early leaving me and the MDQ to our own devices. We managed quite well as we kick ass together....but the poor MDQ was in a rather foul mood as he really dislikes Tissue.....she has a tendency of asking his opinion on topics that do not apply to our working environment.
For instance: One day she was working with him and out of the blue asked him if he thought it was odd or inappropriate that her husband masturbated if she hadn’t had sex with him in 3 days.....the MDQ was a bit shocked and taken aback as this came out of left field.....he calmly told her that he didn’t think this was an appropriate topic for him to comment on and he felt very uncomfortable discussing anything that had to do with her husband and his self pleasing fetishes.(I, myself had a few scenario answers for her question/dilemma, but as luck would have it she didn’t ask me.....I cant imagine why?)
I remember while he was re-living this horrid experience how his demeanor changed…. the MDQ is usually a very mellow, laid- back guy…with a very sweet disposition…. but when he talks about Tissue or if she comes within 3 FT. of him…he looks like a man possessed….it would be almost comical if you didn’t feel for him…..Tissue seems to have this affect on about 99.9% of our staff…
So ...ever since then the MDQ cannot stand her.... and I cannot blame him...Tissue is one of those people that just doesn’t get it...and I doubt very much if she ever will.........I mean who would just walk up to someone u barely know and ask them something so utterly personal? Who asks a guy co-worker this? Well… TISSUE does!...
Tissue needs to clean up her act...
If that’s possible…
Moving on........
I had a very odd convo today with Shocker.........I was sort of asked a question.......and I lied. I lied becos I don’t feel comfy with this whole situation......and I don’t like not being in control.........at all..........so I lied.......and I hate lying........but at the time it was all I could think of to do.......
OK......my PC is bugging me in a big way........it is way LAG.........time to clean it up a bit I think....
Time to clean up many things.......
Spring Cleaning has taken on a totally different meaning for me this yr.
Funny how that is......
then again........
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Lasts
Stolen from The JagSpot
Last Cigarette: 12 hours ago (dammit)
Last Alcoholic Drink: Samuel Adams ( Tuesday Night)
Last Car Ride: Commute to work today
Last Movie Seen in Theaters: King Arthur
Last Movie Rented: The Incredible's
Last Cuss Word Uttered: She's a useless piece of shit (in reference to a useless piece of shit I am currently working with....... YOU WORTHELESS PIECE OF SHIT!!)
Last Beverage Drank: 7UP
Last Food Consumed:Chimichanga Burrito from COSTCO .....YUM!!!
Last Time Showered: This AM (I shower everyday...sometimes twice)
Last Phone Call: SHOCKER
Last Text Message: SHOCKER (but I don’t think Shocker has text) ;(
Last TV Show Watched: CSI Miami
Last Shoes Worn: White Reeboks...so comfy
Last CD Played: Queensryche Promised Land
Last CD Bought: See above.... also Operation Mindcrime and Hear In The Now Frontier by Queensryche
Last Annoyance: working with The Useless Piece of shit at work...YOU USELESS PIECE OF SHIT!!!
Last Disappointment: Zilla and Clogs... Portland
Last Thing Written: this
Last Word Spoken: Why didn’t he tell you!!?? (Conversation with me Aunt regarding why she was waiting for me @ work when I told Kuntjoy N2 was taking me home and didn’t need a lift) I guess that is more than one word..but o well....
Last IM: 5/8
Last Weird Encounter: hmmm...I have one about every other minute...when I look in the mirror...
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Baskins & Robins Pink Peppermint .... YUUMMM!
Last Time In Love:I still am........
Last Time Hugged: Miss Secretary @ work when she seen me...after I had been gone in Spokane with Mr. C...she luvs me...but hey...what’s not to love!?
Last Shirt Worn: My Tommy Hill* white tee w/ fluorescent green and pink PREP writing on it.....way fab!
Last Web page Visited: Hit the JAG Spot
Last Thing Lost: Keys ,Celly, Wallet and my Fucking MIND!!!...(Still have yet to claim that at the Lost & Found)
Last Regret: Being so dumb as to not know who my real friends are......or let me re-phrase that....... knowing that said people pretending to be my friends were never my friends...and are not capable of being anyone's friend for that matter......so basically.......wasting my time......on the phony bitches of P.O
Do I sound somewhat bitter?
NaH!!
Last Cigarette: 12 hours ago (dammit)
Last Alcoholic Drink: Samuel Adams ( Tuesday Night)
Last Car Ride: Commute to work today
Last Movie Seen in Theaters: King Arthur
Last Movie Rented: The Incredible's
Last Cuss Word Uttered: She's a useless piece of shit (in reference to a useless piece of shit I am currently working with....... YOU WORTHELESS PIECE OF SHIT!!)
Last Beverage Drank: 7UP
Last Food Consumed:Chimichanga Burrito from COSTCO .....YUM!!!
Last Time Showered: This AM (I shower everyday...sometimes twice)
Last Phone Call: SHOCKER
Last Text Message: SHOCKER (but I don’t think Shocker has text) ;(
Last TV Show Watched: CSI Miami
Last Shoes Worn: White Reeboks...so comfy
Last CD Played: Queensryche Promised Land
Last CD Bought: See above.... also Operation Mindcrime and Hear In The Now Frontier by Queensryche
Last Annoyance: working with The Useless Piece of shit at work...YOU USELESS PIECE OF SHIT!!!
Last Disappointment: Zilla and Clogs... Portland
Last Thing Written: this
Last Word Spoken: Why didn’t he tell you!!?? (Conversation with me Aunt regarding why she was waiting for me @ work when I told Kuntjoy N2 was taking me home and didn’t need a lift) I guess that is more than one word..but o well....
Last IM: 5/8
Last Weird Encounter: hmmm...I have one about every other minute...when I look in the mirror...
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Baskins & Robins Pink Peppermint .... YUUMMM!
Last Time In Love:
Last Time Hugged: Miss Secretary @ work when she seen me...after I had been gone in Spokane with Mr. C...she luvs me...but hey...what’s not to love!?
Last Shirt Worn: My Tommy Hill* white tee w/ fluorescent green and pink PREP writing on it.....way fab!
Last Web page Visited: Hit the JAG Spot
Last Thing Lost: Keys ,Celly, Wallet and my Fucking MIND!!!...(Still have yet to claim that at the Lost & Found)
Last Regret: Being so dumb as to not know who my real friends are......or let me re-phrase that....... knowing that said people pretending to be my friends were never my friends...and are not capable of being anyone's friend for that matter......so basically.......wasting my time......on the phony bitches of P.O
Do I sound somewhat bitter?
NaH!!
Hot
In a word.....to explain last night.
HOT
yea.....and that’s all I am going to divulge .....
So Mr.C has no luck.......my mother would say that if it weren’t for bad luck he would have no luck at all............and that is as fitting as it gets with regards to him. Seems yesterday he was in another fender bender.........I mean this kid cannot DRIVE.......but according to him he can.......he is the best driver this side of Indianapolis.....BUT if u were 2 ask my family...well they would have a diff tale 2 tell. So my insurance company has already called me......so we shall see if they will even cover his stupid ass as I didn’t add him to the policy as his driving record is well.............tarnished just a tad??? a wee tad bit...........
that’s an understatement..........in a big way
I must be off to the 'ol jobola...........wish I would have slept better........I tossed and turned all night again..........but I was dreaming about someone..........so it wasn’t all-bad...........
HOT
yea.....and that’s all I am going to divulge .....
So Mr.C has no luck.......my mother would say that if it weren’t for bad luck he would have no luck at all............and that is as fitting as it gets with regards to him. Seems yesterday he was in another fender bender.........I mean this kid cannot DRIVE.......but according to him he can.......he is the best driver this side of Indianapolis.....BUT if u were 2 ask my family...well they would have a diff tale 2 tell. So my insurance company has already called me......so we shall see if they will even cover his stupid ass as I didn’t add him to the policy as his driving record is well.............tarnished just a tad??? a wee tad bit...........
that’s an understatement..........in a big way
I must be off to the 'ol jobola...........wish I would have slept better........I tossed and turned all night again..........but I was dreaming about someone..........so it wasn’t all-bad...........
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Sleep
I slept
13 hours.....
Thank You GOD!!!
I think it may have been working with a hangover.....or the not sleeping in 10 days......hard to say.......but it may have been the exhausting discussion I had with Shocker.........I truly think that may have been what took me over the Zzzzzzzzz edge....
That conversation prior to me falling asleep....well that needs to be addressed here.....
We were getting along very well.........well.......in a good way.....so to speak.....
Then for some reason .......it all went to shit.....its as if we are not on the same page.....at all...........I don’t know what it is...........I do actually......there is a reason I am holding back.....one in particular and perhaps maybe I will share that with Shocker someday.....but not right now.......
I will say this.......
I do have feelings for you Shocker....very strong ones......they are just numb right now.....and I will explain that to you one day.......I care about you.....and I think of you .......all the time......you have shown me that I can love again......cos I really didn’t think I could......but pls understand that I am not in a place right now where i can share mylfe......with you or anyone........
If I were in that place.......it would be you.......and only you..
Darren Hayes
Light
The light, it flickers
Your light, travelling down so deep
Illumination
I have been cold, I have been blind
You have come to change my mind
I can put my faith in you
The light, it blisters
Your light, coming down so bright
Transformation
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me that sense to know
I have been cold, I have been blind
You were sent to change my mind
I can put my faith in you
For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you
The light, it glitters
Your light, when I stand this close
It's almost blinding
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me the sense to know
I have been changed, I have become
I have flamed under the sun
I'm the reflection of you
For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you
In you, you, you
For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I just, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, you, you
It flickers
It blisters
It glitters
In you, in you
In you, you, you
You are
13 hours.....
Thank You GOD!!!
I think it may have been working with a hangover.....or the not sleeping in 10 days......hard to say.......but it may have been the exhausting discussion I had with Shocker.........I truly think that may have been what took me over the Zzzzzzzzz edge....
That conversation prior to me falling asleep....well that needs to be addressed here.....
We were getting along very well.........well.......in a good way.....so to speak.....
Then for some reason .......it all went to shit.....its as if we are not on the same page.....at all...........I don’t know what it is...........I do actually......there is a reason I am holding back.....one in particular and perhaps maybe I will share that with Shocker someday.....but not right now.......
I will say this.......
I do have feelings for you Shocker....very strong ones......they are just numb right now.....and I will explain that to you one day.......I care about you.....and I think of you .......all the time......you have shown me that I can love again......cos I really didn’t think I could......but pls understand that I am not in a place right now where i can share mylfe......with you or anyone........
If I were in that place.......it would be you.......and only you..
Darren Hayes
Light
The light, it flickers
Your light, travelling down so deep
Illumination
I have been cold, I have been blind
You have come to change my mind
I can put my faith in you
The light, it blisters
Your light, coming down so bright
Transformation
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me that sense to know
I have been cold, I have been blind
You were sent to change my mind
I can put my faith in you
For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you
The light, it glitters
Your light, when I stand this close
It's almost blinding
Turn it up, give me some room to grow
Turn it up, give me the sense to know
I have been changed, I have become
I have flamed under the sun
I'm the reflection of you
For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I trust, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, in you
In you, you, you
For something ordinary
It's so extraordinary
I just, I put my faith in you
In you
In you, in you
In you, you, you
It flickers
It blisters
It glitters
In you, in you
In you, you, you
You are
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Yuck
So last night I decided to drink.......not to get drunk.......to sleep........and 5 beers later I fell asleep and only woke up once......so I did sleep, but now I feel like death and being the idiot I am.....I have to work feeling like this......so I am sure that my already impatient attitude will be in full force tonight. Speaking of my impatience.......it is getting worse.......and WORSE. I have never been all that patient.....I am rather high strung for the most part.......going a thousand miles a minute.....so when it comes to waiting patiently for someone to get out what they need or walk across a room like a snail I am about ready to implode.....I really wish I did have more patience......but.......I just don’t. This is one of the many reasons I am getting out of the medical profession.........and going into the Business field........The Business world needs more high- strung-stressed out-insomnia -stricken-perfectionists......
Yes indeedy.
Moving on.......
I had a very strange conversation last night with Horsey.......trying to get across why I feel the way I do ....and do the things I do.......... I don’t think it went very well.......nope.
I really don’t think it did.....I woke up feeling like an ass......but that’s what I get for trying to make someone see what I am saying with a Sammy buzz on.........everything tends to get tweaked out and pushed completely out of perspective ....leaving one with a bad taste in their mouth..... which is not a result of the brews and fags......
Next agenda on the 'ol blog...well that would be.....
College
Oh that beautiful and glorious establishment of advanced education .oh how I love it so.....fuck me runnin........if it aint so........well......once again I am the queen of procrastination......I have to finish 7 assignments in Political Science by the 29th ......13 assignments in Biology.......create a website ........and lemme see.......take 3 finals.....
Fucking fabulous........
But!
It is doable as…..
I will have the house to meself tomorrow as Mr.C is heading up to Spokane to get his transplant testing done.......he will be poked and prodded and evaluated for 2 days......nothing to horrible, just a lot of interviews and such. I wish I could go with him.....but I just can’t take the time off from school..........dammit.
I hope he knows that I am always with him......regardless if it’s physical...I know it sounds corny but that’s just how I look at it....
I always will
Yes indeedy.
Moving on.......
I had a very strange conversation last night with Horsey.......trying to get across why I feel the way I do ....and do the things I do.......... I don’t think it went very well.......nope.
I really don’t think it did.....I woke up feeling like an ass......but that’s what I get for trying to make someone see what I am saying with a Sammy buzz on.........everything tends to get tweaked out and pushed completely out of perspective ....leaving one with a bad taste in their mouth..... which is not a result of the brews and fags......
Next agenda on the 'ol blog...well that would be.....
College
Oh that beautiful and glorious establishment of advanced education .oh how I love it so.....fuck me runnin........if it aint so........well......once again I am the queen of procrastination......I have to finish 7 assignments in Political Science by the 29th ......13 assignments in Biology.......create a website ........and lemme see.......take 3 finals.....
Fucking fabulous........
But!
It is doable as…..
I will have the house to meself tomorrow as Mr.C is heading up to Spokane to get his transplant testing done.......he will be poked and prodded and evaluated for 2 days......nothing to horrible, just a lot of interviews and such. I wish I could go with him.....but I just can’t take the time off from school..........dammit.
I hope he knows that I am always with him......regardless if it’s physical...I know it sounds corny but that’s just how I look at it....
I always will
Monday, April 11, 2005
Evil
I was visiting a buddies Blog today and it seems he has a rather evil Blog..........so me being me...... I decided to see how evil I rated
and well........
Here ya go.......
Tonight was an interesting night.......Worked with N2 and pretty much just chilled out.......Although I did find out that Israel......N2's BF's best friend thinks I am quote ..unquote........"hot"......and would like to take me out.......I was a bit flattered as he is extremely cute and sweet......I mean a really nice guy......but...I don't think so......I am not into getting involved with my friends friends if ya know what I mean.....Its a recipe for disaster on so many levels......and BEEN THERE DONE THAT!!!!......I have learned me lesson.........
Although, I am glad I have someone to flirt with and drive crazy......
I am such an evil bitch...
and well........
Here ya go.......
Tonight was an interesting night.......Worked with N2 and pretty much just chilled out.......Although I did find out that Israel......N2's BF's best friend thinks I am quote ..unquote........"hot"......and would like to take me out.......I was a bit flattered as he is extremely cute and sweet......I mean a really nice guy......but...I don't think so......I am not into getting involved with my friends friends if ya know what I mean.....Its a recipe for disaster on so many levels......and BEEN THERE DONE THAT!!!!......I have learned me lesson.........
Although, I am glad I have someone to flirt with and drive crazy......
I am such an evil bitch...
Damaged
This sums up my state of my mind.... and life as of late for that matter.........
QUEENSRYCHE
Damaged
Waiting for the feeling to subside,
Paranoid, I melt into myself.
They say I'm to reach inside and find
the broken part of my machinery.
Psychoanalyze the chapters
on the path to my darkest day.
Searching for the answers,
all I see is damage through the haze.
Picking up the pieces of my life
with no direction for re-assembly.
The one that lays beside me
is sharing scars of my broken yesterdays.
Will tomorrow find me hypnotized? Crying?
Mother Mary in control,
domineering stranglehold
sowing destructive seeds
for the scavengers to feed.
Driving the nail into my head,
memory flows like a river.
With the one that lays beside me
I'm healing scars from my childhood memories.
Tomorrow finally found me.
I'm hypnotized. I'm trying...
to understand the chapters
of the path from my darkest day.
Searching for the answers
but there's DAMAGE!
QUEENSRYCHE
Damaged
Waiting for the feeling to subside,
Paranoid, I melt into myself.
They say I'm to reach inside and find
the broken part of my machinery.
Psychoanalyze the chapters
on the path to my darkest day.
Searching for the answers,
all I see is damage through the haze.
Picking up the pieces of my life
with no direction for re-assembly.
The one that lays beside me
is sharing scars of my broken yesterdays.
Will tomorrow find me hypnotized? Crying?
Mother Mary in control,
domineering stranglehold
sowing destructive seeds
for the scavengers to feed.
Driving the nail into my head,
memory flows like a river.
With the one that lays beside me
I'm healing scars from my childhood memories.
Tomorrow finally found me.
I'm hypnotized. I'm trying...
to understand the chapters
of the path from my darkest day.
Searching for the answers
but there's DAMAGE!
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Will
My Buddie the The Cap'n sent me a nice version of a Living Will.......I thought it was o so appropriate ....as .......it is word for word what I myself, want in the event I succumb to a Terry S. situation.....
LIVING WILL
I, _________________________ (fill in the blank), being of sound mind
and body, do not wish to be kept alive indefinitely by artificial
means.
Under no circumstances should my fate be put in the hands of
peckerwood ethically challenged politicians who couldnt pass
ninth-grade biology if their lives depended on it.
If a reasonable amount of time passes and I fail to sit up and ask for
a cold beer, it should be presumed that I wont ever get better. When
such a determination is reached, I hereby instruct my spouse, children
and attending physicians to pull the plug, reel in the tubes and call
it a day.
Under no circumstances shall the hypocritical members of the
Legislature (State or Federal) enact a special law to keep me on
life-support machinery. It is my wish that these boneheads mind their
own damn business, and pay attention instead to the health, education
and future of the millions of Americans who arent in a permanent
coma.
Under no circumstances shall any politicians butt into this case.
I don't care how many fundamentalist votes they're trying to scrounge
for their run for the presidency, it is my wish that they play
politics with someone elses life and leave me alone to die in peace.
I couldnt't care less if a hundred religious zealots send e-mails to
legislators in which they pretend to care about me. I don't know these
people, and I certainly haven't authorized them to preach and crusade
on my behalf.They should mind their own business, too.
If any of my family goes against my wishes and turns my case into a
political cause, I hereby promise to come back from the grave and make
his or her existence a living hell.
___________________________ Dated ______________________
Signature
__________________________________
Witness
__________________________________
Witness
In other news.....
My insomnia is back AGAIN!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!
This my sleeping schedule for the past 2 nights.
Fall asleep @ 12:30AM
wake up @ 4AM
Watch TV and surf until 8AM.....Fall into a fitful sleep.
Wake up @ Noon....
so I am getting about 4 hours of sleep in 2 different cycles throughout the night......and I feel like a flippin zombie.....I am hoping this will run its course in the next few days as I need to be alert and aware for my finals coming up at the end of the month........
Me ribs are mucho better......I can actually do daily activities without limping and wincing...so I am happy in that aspect.....
I am right now trying to decide whether or not I want to vacuum or clean out the fridge......Either or.........Neither is something I am privy to doing on me day off.......but as all things in mlyfe.......it has to be done.......
such is life........
LIVING WILL
I, _________________________ (fill in the blank), being of sound mind
and body, do not wish to be kept alive indefinitely by artificial
means.
Under no circumstances should my fate be put in the hands of
peckerwood ethically challenged politicians who couldnt pass
ninth-grade biology if their lives depended on it.
If a reasonable amount of time passes and I fail to sit up and ask for
a cold beer, it should be presumed that I wont ever get better. When
such a determination is reached, I hereby instruct my spouse, children
and attending physicians to pull the plug, reel in the tubes and call
it a day.
Under no circumstances shall the hypocritical members of the
Legislature (State or Federal) enact a special law to keep me on
life-support machinery. It is my wish that these boneheads mind their
own damn business, and pay attention instead to the health, education
and future of the millions of Americans who arent in a permanent
coma.
Under no circumstances shall any politicians butt into this case.
I don't care how many fundamentalist votes they're trying to scrounge
for their run for the presidency, it is my wish that they play
politics with someone elses life and leave me alone to die in peace.
I couldnt't care less if a hundred religious zealots send e-mails to
legislators in which they pretend to care about me. I don't know these
people, and I certainly haven't authorized them to preach and crusade
on my behalf.They should mind their own business, too.
If any of my family goes against my wishes and turns my case into a
political cause, I hereby promise to come back from the grave and make
his or her existence a living hell.
___________________________ Dated ______________________
Signature
__________________________________
Witness
__________________________________
Witness
In other news.....
My insomnia is back AGAIN!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!
This my sleeping schedule for the past 2 nights.
Fall asleep @ 12:30AM
wake up @ 4AM
Watch TV and surf until 8AM.....Fall into a fitful sleep.
Wake up @ Noon....
so I am getting about 4 hours of sleep in 2 different cycles throughout the night......and I feel like a flippin zombie.....I am hoping this will run its course in the next few days as I need to be alert and aware for my finals coming up at the end of the month........
Me ribs are mucho better......I can actually do daily activities without limping and wincing...so I am happy in that aspect.....
I am right now trying to decide whether or not I want to vacuum or clean out the fridge......Either or.........Neither is something I am privy to doing on me day off.......but as all things in mlyfe.......it has to be done.......
such is life........
Friday, April 08, 2005
Personalities
Went to work last night...........well I wouldn’t call what I did last night working.......I pretty much just walked around and followed N2 all night while she did my work.......as I was in severe fucking pain..this is getting so old.....da pain is..........anyhoo........she didn’t seem to mind...she was all to happy to have me back as she now has someone to talk too........the only problem was she kept cracking me up as this grrl is LAUGHS.......the more I laugh the more pain I am in..it was a vicious night..........and it didn’t end after work........she offered to give me a ride home and I said sure as Mr. C needs to rest.....we head to her house as she needs a pack of cigs.........(my house is about 4 blocks away, but I guess she cant make it that far with out a hit of nic) so we sit down.....she offers me a beer.......calls her BF and proceeds to tell me we are going out.........OK...what the hell............although I am in pain ...holding my side and wincing......but… I am a trooper so I head out............we hit The Litter Box and in walks N2's BF Willard and his buddy Israel ..........conversation ensues..........all are having fun.....N2 is getting wasted.......I am casually sipping on my beer as I have eaten enough painkillers to kill a small cow and don’t feel the need to meet the ER Doc ........as I was saying ......... we are casually making small talk…..BUT Willard is getting on my nerves in a big way…..we all remember that little boy on the playground that teases and chases the girl cos he likes her so much? The one who says he doesn’t like her , but we all know he secretly is crazy about her? Well that’s what I felt like last night……..I am not saying Willard is crazy about me……….but he likes me……cos he wouldn’t let up with the snide remarks and sexual innuendos……….making remarks about everything from my sexuality to my looks to fucking everything……….well I kept up with him for a bit…….I am not a baby……I can give as good as I get………but after about 2 hours of this I am like…….”whoa here big fella………I am not into this lil game”….so say something to him about his age……….”what are you 26?” …”Ummmmm no”…….. he replies….”I’m 24”…. “Obviously”…I say………… he just gives me this look……..Israel gets exactly where I’m going with this………Willard replies about how old I am.……trying to get across I am TOO OLD....and I simply state that I am no longer accustomed to individuals who make it a habit of using insults as a platform for a conversation……… “Blank look from Willard”………seems he likes making N2’s GF’s cry or some such shit……….I then again reply “Are they that stupid?”……….this time Willard understood and apologized……and wouldn’t stop apologizing…….of course now I feel bad…as he is just a kid…..but I mean………I am not used to this and haven’t been in ages……….. The guys that usually talk to me are nothing but civil and nice…anyway…the night ended shortly after as N2 is extremely wasted and extremely pleased with how I handled her BF as she loses all her friend due to his demeanor and actions…we leave…. they drop me off…….and I go to bed……..
Just a big clash of the mature woman and the little boy…….trying to be a man..
Fun stuff
Speaking of fun stuff….I now get to return to work………Mamma B is working with me tonight…..she offered to take my load……….I feel a bit better today…….but I am sure that will change after I arrive at the ‘ol J.
Just a big clash of the mature woman and the little boy…….trying to be a man..
Fun stuff
Speaking of fun stuff….I now get to return to work………Mamma B is working with me tonight…..she offered to take my load……….I feel a bit better today…….but I am sure that will change after I arrive at the ‘ol J.
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