Persistence pays off......

Well......My life is never dull.......and as of late that definition of my life could never be more true...

My brother is really sick again....and we shall see if he needs to be in the hospital here in the next few days.......I went into work tonight and my staff sent me home....I love those grrrls....they are absolutely the finest individuals I have ever had the honor to work with....so a big THANK YOU to all the grrls @ CC.

My shocking adventure has once again taken on something more electric than I had ever imagined.....talking til 6AM led to us finally making decisions of commitment which made everything more solid and stable....so that has made me very happy....and I am no longer running from it....Shocker just wont let me go.....so now......Shocker is stuck..poor poor Shocker

:)

I am getting my last assignments finished this evening so I can have a weekend without stress......and that way I can get registered for my classes and get my Degree before I reach 40......which would be really really neat , nifty, and nice ......if you know what I mean..

On a lighter note

I am terribly sorry to Binks and Patti Anne for not being a better friend the past week....I have been shall we say ....pretty fucking busy and a little well ALOT frazzled.....but I am back on track and hopefully all will be ok with Mr. C and school.......and all that happy crappy.....so Binks PLS Know I love you and I will call you......I promise........and Patti Anne thank you once again for always coming through for me when I need you.......you are my ROCK...

Ok then....
I shall be back @ a later time.......so stay tuned

ciao

In My Hayes

Hero
Darren Hayes & Robert Conley


Outside confidence is king
I am all that you're projecting
Inside feel the rising tide
And the revolution's deafening
I was trying to hide my opposing side
Trying to reconcile my Jeckyl and Hyde

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please

I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself


Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

Sometimes you put all of your desires in an object of affection
But in time because you idolize there is only disappointment

I was flying so high in your perfect sky
But I needed to fall
Cannot have it all

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please

I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself

Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please
I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself
Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

I don't need to compromis
I don't need to occupy the floor
There's a danger in boxing in my sin
And all that I am
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again(No, I am not open parts of me are broken)
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again(Why'd you want to bother find yourself another)

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please
I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken

Do yourself a favor save yourself
Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?

Find yourself another
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again



A dedication.....

Love Always...

Holiday.......

I am leaving on the 1st for a weekend getaway....just booked my travel plans and room......I am in dire need o fa getaway. I am working New Years Eve.....so I wont be going out......nor do I have any desire to go out........just me, myslef, and I for a weekend..........I am looking forward to it....

I am still fighting with my advisor over getting registered for Spring Semester....so I may not be going next semester...which I guess would be ok and then again not............I will know more tom.

I havent anything else to report other than I fianlly found my brother and brought him home Sunday night.......he is ok....well........as okay as he can be.....

I shall update again here soon

ciao 4 now

Madness...

THE DAY AFTER…

Here I am ... just finished cleaning, vacuuming, dishes, dusting, laundry...all of the fun domestic shit....

soooooooo

I am finally sitting down and relaxing a bit...I cant really divulge what happened on my X-Mas...just know it was madness and I didn't celebrate as my Brother left x-Mas morning...so needless to say I still haven't opened any gifts and I wont until I hear from him, if he ever comes home again......when he left he told me he wouldn’t be……I am hoping he was just angry….I know he was hurt…..anyway…….It is not like my brother to do that……this whole things has made me very.......... sad
yea......

so .
it was by far the worst x-Mas of my entire life........and I just wish my family could settle disputes in a better way.....what I would really like is if the people in my family would not act on their thoughts/feelings without thinking of the repercussions....That's what I would really like ....That's my New Years wish......

Ok well I received a nice morning message from Binks and he sounded VERY MERRY.... so I wanted to take a moment and wish him a great X-Mas and a very ABFAB New Year.... also let him know that I am ok...nothing to worry about......I have worked it all out...........

Well I think I am going to finish watching this flick I started last night and finish my laundry...and wait for Mr. C to call me.... if he will....
:(

PeaceI’m outy

Merry Christmas

Christmas Eve...wow where did this year go? Seems like they go by faster and faster.....

I must be off to the 'ol J.....I work tonight and then I will have X-Mas day with my lil Bro and the rest of the fandamily.....

So I hope you all have a fabulous Holiday and Santa brings ya's whatcha wished 4!

Happy Holidays...

always right

I wrote yesterday that I felt something was amiss......that the electricity in my shocking adventure had been reduced to a voltage that that was hard to detect.......and if I must be honest here...I liked the electricity......ALOT.....well seems that I wasn't wrong and that things have changed and pretty much I guess that's where its at.....I left it like that.......I knew eventually this would happen, I would open myself up and WHAMO!! I would end up getting hurt or told......"well....you know its like this"......yea I know what its like.....all to well...I was hoping I wouldn't have to revisit the land of You-Know-What-Its -Like....I really was hoping this might be the one. Guess now I will never know and I will forever wonder......so that being said I am going to get ready for work and get my mind off of things.......best thing to do now is stay busy and keep my mind occupied.....yea should be easy.....sure thing

right.


I shall end this now and call it a Blog

Side Note

My heart and prayers go out to the soldiers who were wounded and killed in Iraq a few days ago......I wish I had the words

I don't.

ciao

All that's left is the rip-n-tear

Ok so I finally did it! I shopped and shopped and all but dropped......all is done including the wrapping...well all 'cept the baby outfit I bought....but other than that I am FINITO!!

YES!!

Another season done....all that's left is the opening and the ooohhhhhiiiiiiing and aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhing.....which of course...is the best part. I did it all in one place too! Well I hit the mall and only needed to go to 3 stores... The Bon, Penny's....and some other place...of course the name eludes me @ the moment...anywayz.....I am quite pleased with my purchases and very pleased that I didn't go over the 400$ mark...veddy nice ...plus...its way nice for me wallet.....another bennie issss I bought my self a gift as well...what the hell.....my B-day is in a few weeks.....so figured I might as well.....

I am in love with Burberry...tis a perfume I wear and ONLY Burberry......I was in Vegas a few years back and happened on a fragrance that Burberry makes and FELL IN LOVE.......only I could never remember the name of it until tonight.....while I was @ The Bon I was checking out the smelly section and 'voila.....there was my Burberry.....and 'voila again.....there was the fragrance that has been evading me for the last few years......I found out that it is called "Brit" which is rather fitting as it is made in London......so I tested some.... but being the ass I am I decided to buy my stand by the original Burberry....but.....always a but..... I had sprayed the Brit on me wrist so while I continued on my shopping spree I kept on smelling meself....until finally...... I couldn't take it no more( that is meant in a good way....) and went back and bugged the sweet and patient Sales lady for an exchange...(and of course... by this time I had already lost the receipt for the purchase that I had made..lets see....not 20 minutes b4....uh huh...so typical...ok back to the tale at hand)...so after I made my FINAL DECISION...me and Brit walked out together ......very happy :)

ok then...


.....I have been feeling strange today.......I don't feel like things are as shocking as they once were for some reason.....cant put my finger on it......just that something feels amiss......maybe last nights chat carried its strange remnants over til today....hard to say........but time will tell.....

Ok....so Now I must clean up the bits and pieces from the wrapping party I just had......and as a side note I wrap presents like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum......I am HORRIBLE!! I have no artistic wrapping qualities whatsoever....I shoulda had the wrappers @ the mall do it but I was in no mood to stand in line .....which now that I think of it......the lines tonight weren't all that bad....and everyone was very nice and polite.......yea......was a good experience, perhaps its the small town mall I went to...made for a rather nice x-mas shopathon, but that doesn't mean I want to go back and do some more.......oh no no no

Alrighty then.....I shall kick it for now and catch ya lata'

Ciao

dunno

I dunno what to write about today.......I really haven't done anything worth writing about....I am now more aware of Sausage arms than I needed to be but its all a good thing....lemme see.....Abstinence can be a good thing...and what else...working out for 30 minutes on a step master will make you swear ALOT.....ummmmmmm and I now know that I will most likely be lat 4 work and that's ok.....oh and my extended family ......I will keep one of them nameless....well HE can kiss my ass and like it.....

yup

Pretty much that's it for today......all my rants and rage for the day.......

Oh on a lighter note....Does anyone remember the Electric Company ? I LOVED THAT SHOW...it was kinna like the sesame Street for the cooler kids........Morgan Freeman was on it....how cool is that?....he was the Easy Reader...and then there were The Adventures Of Letter Man.....that was the shit man!!!....OMG.... fun!!!

Ok....my retardo stage is @ an end .......I shall now take my groovin self to the J........

yea man

ciao

Yet to Start........

To shop or not to shop? Tis the question of my week.......as I have yet to begin shopping.....I told you all I am the biggest procrastinator of all time. I truly hate shopping....I am not big on crowds, screaming kids, grumpy sales clerks and packed parking lots and my favorite is waitin in those forever lines......oh how I dislike it so. I mean I really cannot take it......I have never been big on X-mas shopping......but I have to do it.....as with most things its a "have to". So I do believe I will do it all on Wednesday......just 2 days b4 X-mas eve. .....yup that's the plan now....

Well my good friend Jackies just came by and we had a good chat....she always makes me feel good about everything.....she has her Bachelors in some type of Social Services......she works with drug abusers and emotionally challenged individuals.....and she is excellent at what she does....so I can talk to her just about anything......as she can relate to what I'm going through with regards to school and mife( my Life)....anyway she came by and we made plans for X-mas Eve....so I am looking forward to seeing her and having some spiced nog....yea....shall be a good time..

Ok then....I am having some superficial dilemmas at the moment..seems that I cant get passed a physical attribute regarding someoneI am seeing.....I don't know why, but I really just wish I could get passed this ..its not one of my better attributes..Truly it isn't...I know why I am having this little prob as I was........ at one time ...with someone I wasn't physically attracted to.....I loved this person, but when it came to being physical..... I always had to take myself somewhere else emotionally....like take myself somewhere other than where I was.... and I HATED it....I don't want to do that again........it isn't fair to me nor the person I am with......so here I am again in a similar situation....but this time I can be honest about what I am feeling and thinking, which I wasnt able to be in my past relationship.....so I am hoping.. that since I am being honest and sincere that perhaps I/we can work through it and make it work....cos I really want to make this work....

well I shall move on now......and recommend my song for the day..well 2 songs for the day....Coleys choice(s) R.....Kenny Chesneys - You had me @ hello and Kenny Loggins -Whenever I call you friend.....one old and one sorta new.......

I am off now to shower and run to the store and come back here and put the finishing touches on the 3 papers I have written about history........

oh and the Tree turned out very bright and shiny with a STAR that reminds of something from Rainbow Brights Pony show......yea.....really COULRFULLLLLL

Ok well I shall end this and update soon.......sooner than later.....

Stay tuned........

Ciao 4 now

Truths

I just now rolled out of bed…I was up until around 4:30Am last night…had myself a small dose of that serious talk…I usually am not one to partake in the “serious talk” but I have to admit it went rather well……….came to the conclusion that I am capable of being committed but…………I need to take things SLOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYY…

So yea…I am glad to know that a certain individual will be ok with that…….. I would also like to wish Shocker a very Happy Birthday today…don’t do anything I wouldn’t do…..and if you do......just don’t get caught.


Today is the day of the Tree…I have to go out and dig the bugger out of the storage shed…. I would have preferred to have gotten a real tree but ………..seeing how I am getting to it so late and all…….might as well use the artificial tree…plus I have a habit of picking out the lone “Charlie Brown Tree”…..and then of course my family gets all nuts (or is that peanuts?) on me and makes fun of my lil Charlie tree…..so better to use my moms ol’ fake tree then submit some poor innocent lil tree to the glares and mocks of my scroogy fandamily.

Moving on….

I really have nothing to report …I haven’t been watching the news at all…I am completely oblivious to what is going on in the world…which I guess……. in some aspects... is a good thing…keeps me from shouting @ the TV and throwing the paper in the trash …..or perhaps I just have an anger management problem? Better take something for that…..speaking of….. Taking that “magic pill” for everything …I DID notice on the news An independent research team found that the Pfizer drug Celebrex ….more than tripled the risk of heart attacks and strokes in some regular users..... this is what I overheard on some news broadcast last night while I was working….this is .......I think the 3rd or 4th drug that has been found to have serious side affects. Is it not?
Why is it that these complications weren’t found prior to the drugs release? I have heard that the FDA keeps drugs in clinical trials and research labs for up to 10 years? Wouldn’t one think that in that time the scientists could have established that these medications were indeed unsafe or perhaps could have offered the information to the patients so that they could have made a better well informed decision regarding the drugs they are taking?

Or.

Could it be that the pharmaceutical companies are Greedy,Power- mad, evil motherfuckers who could care less about the American people and their health? So they forgo any and all safety measures to reach their goal of that all mighty Dollar?



I think I will go with the latter


Stay tuned for the next exciting episode….

Ciao 4 now

My List

Dear Santa.

Its been a long long time since I have written to you......but to be honest.... I haven't always been a very good girl ....well I was NEVER a good girl during a few of those years......but you know the old saying "Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere."....well that's about as fitting a description of me than anything....although, I must admit this year I have been extra special and extra good and was hopping that you might consider at least ACCEPTING my letter this year...a couple of those years they were returned and I personally thought ..that was rather rude.......

ok then......I shall begin..... but..... Just as a tiny bribe...... if you would be so kind and deliver on a few of these requests I will forgo the milk and cookies....and leave you a nice bottle of Macallan Scotch whiskey and a nice Cuban..
;)

1(A) Kidney for Mr. C
1. M3 BMW Coupe'
2. Personal Trainer
3. Beach house in Malibu
4. Summer House in France
5. New DELL system...top of the line....
6. Darren Hayes in a Bow under my tree
7.New Black Oakleys to replace the ones that were knicked
8. Well really....... I would enjoy a stress free lifestyle, a good healthy relationship and happiness and peace on earth.......ummmmm.....I feel like some dumb ass model on a ridiculous pageant.


Thank you

Merry Newness and Happy XXX-MAS


Ciao

Obsessive Intoxication

Here I be once again getting ready to divulge a little bit more of myself for the whole world to read...but its all good.....Work went well tonight..we all had some laughs ....until poor Fairy Girl had her thumb broken by one of our not- so- well -mannered clients....I felt really bad for her...she was in ALOT of pain.....so we sent her to the ER and she returned about 4 hours later with a nice pretty blue cast on her thumb/wrist and a script for some mild pain killers ....so with time and a bit of pain.... she should be okey dokey.....
after she was put on the sidelines the remainder of our crew..L Lady N2 and myself made the best of the night and got 'er done.....afterwards....Mr.C came and picked me up and was sweet enough to buy me a cold Sammy Sprew to top the evening off........it just makes everything neato grand to be home... relaxing....especially after a good night like tonight...really feels like I accomplished something and made a difference....

Speaking of having a good night......seems Shocker is feeling NO PAIN this evening......I just now got off of the phone with the buzzen Shocker who was in the process of heading home and begging me to answer my phone.... as apparently I HAVE to talk and listen to more of the enthusiastic love chat induced by alcohol......oh scratch that.. I just received another call .....seems Shocker and the Double J's are in the midst of a game of pool.....That's great... cos hopefully I can finish my paper and fall asleep before the next call....I don't know about anyone else but listening to someone who is snockered and pining for you is not in my book a barrel of laughs nor easy to tolerate...unless ....of course..... you are snockered as well.. or being the sole drunk love whore your own damn self.........anyway I do hope Shocker and Company have a good night and stay safe....

I have to do an 80's flash back tonight.....I have been on a Judas Priest trip as of late and I downloaded a few of their tunes and happened upon a file that some very giving individual was sharing.....turns out its the COMPLETE Best of JP album in its entirety.....so how flipping bitchin is that? No need to search for all of my fave's ..I lucked out and grabbed them all lickity split.......JP will be.... for me....... one of the best metal bands of the past 20 yrs.....British Steel...in a big way!!!

solid rock babyz!!

Ok.....well I must finish a paper and call it a night.......Tomorrow is Friday and then I have a 3 day holiday......veddy nice.

til then......later!

Too Fast For Me

Today has been rather eventful to say the least...woke up and had me coffee....My brother went in to do the Big "D" and asked me to let him sleep until @ least 2ish .....so that gave me time to run some errands b4 he had to jet on up to Spookaloo for his big appointment tomorrow. I used the time to go 2 Albertson’s and get Domino her treats.. as she has been jonsen in a big way for her feast of fancy....I grabbed some C's ...vitamins that is....and other necessities and while exiting I hit that wonderful Starbucks joint for a cuppa-heaven and headed off to the "J" for the Flu shot....which I just love! Getting a big 'ol needle slammed into my arm is always a joyous occasion......and the throb that settles into my arm for the remainder of the day is just an extra bonus....fabulous feeling I must say......so I returned back home to do some cleaning and packed my baby bro up for his trip....... I am just now sitting & relaxing with a nice cold Sammy Adams..mhmmmmmmm

after a bit I am gonna finish some papers for My History class and maybe throw in a DVD a bit later and call it a day.....


SIGHHHHHHHHHHH...or better yet YAWNNNNNNNNNN



Its been busy… busy…….. but I love days like these.. days when I get so busy I can forget about what I am usually trying to forget about.......


yea.

Moving on....

I received a package from my Patti Anne today.....much thanx to her... she also enclosed some photos of herself and the kids....which made me smile....one of those warm and fuzzy happy smiles only your best buds can give ya.....I must say she is looking ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!......she really is....see Patti Anne had a gastric bypass surgery this past June and has already lost about 120lbs.....I am so proud of her and I am so flippin happy for her!...she looks great. great!...and I am not exaggerating.....she looks so fucking happy too.....wow. really cant express it either....I mean her smile in her pics..I don’t think I have ever seen her smile so BIG... so I send all me love to her.....as always....and a BIG thanks to her for my goodies...

Anyway ..........I have a cute story...,which coincides with today’s title....

So Lets begin.....

My brother gives me a ride to work just about daily....so he can have the car as I work swing shift... I have always let it be known that his driving scares the HELL out of me.....he is one of those drivers that is always doing a trillion things @ once....talking on his Cell....smoking a fag....diddling with the stereo....Etc. Well I have been in a few car accidents in my time so I am a bit gun shy when I am the passenger...Jumpy would be an understatement if one were to describe me.....so there you go

anyho......


Mr.C is always gunning the car right before we hit a stop sign or an intersection....and of course I am about to jump out of the fucking seat and onto the roof of the car like some crazy tormented cat....well yesterday was no exception as he did what he always does and I reacted in my normal over-reacting way......so he just looks at me with his shit-eating grin and goes “What’s the prob? Why do you always do that?" .....I just go ...."Well...you make me nervous"...so he proceeds to pat my leg and go "Its ok lil girl......I wont hurt you.....I will try not to scare you"....he then moves his seat clear up to the steering wheel and proceeds to drive at exactly 10 MPH. ...The whole time he is just staring right ahead … looking back and forth and occasionally looking at me and saying "I don’t wanna scare you hun....U just let me know if I am going to fast....." All the while patting me on the shoulder really soft and gentle...

LMAO!

I mean he looked like some geriatric driver.... just zoned out on paranoia.....

Needless to say I was laughing so hard I couldnt’t breathe much less care about his driving...or being maimed for life.( which... if the truth be told.... is what is usually running through my mind during our daily commute)

anywayz......he Finally got me to work....only a measly 10 minutes late.....little shit........

He is soooooooo laughs at times.

Ok then.... I must finish these assignments and returns some emails........

Shocker is in dire need of a lil attention from me today.......its all good.

Ciao 4 Now

UPDATE
Its been entirely to long since I have put my U.S causality report up here....

I have to admit that when I looked at the numbers.....the difference between the last time I did an actual update ...roughly 4 weeks ago and now.....well the numbers are rather significant...

My heart and compassion goes out to ALL of the families who have suffered losses due to this war...on both sides..... I can only imagine that at this time of year...it is especially difficult.

God's speed to the soldiers and civilians ........

IRAQ

American Deaths:

Since war began (3/19/03):
Total-1299
In Combat-1023


American Wounded
Official -9844
Estimated -15000-20000

The wounded numbers above reflect the official count as released by the U.S. military. However, there are other estimates that 12,000 soldiers have been treated for illness, non-combat injury and combat injury since March of 2002.

War may have killed 10,000 civilians, researchers say

Latest Fatality December 15th, 2004

http://www.antiwar.com/casualties/

I almost forgot.....

PINK



"Love Song"


I've never written a love song
That didn't end in tears
Maybe you'll rewrite my love song
If you can replace my fears
I need your patience and guidance
And all your lovin' and more
When thunder rolls through my life
Will you be able to weather the storm?
There's so much I would give ya, baby
If I'd only let myself
There's this well of emotions
I feel I must protect
But what's the point of this armor
If it keeps the love away, too?
I'd rather bleed with cuts of love
Than live without any scars
Baby, can I trust this?
Or do all things end?
I need to hear that you'd die for me
Again and again and again
So tell me when you look in my eyes
Can you share all the pain and happy times
'Cause I will love you for the rest of my life
This is my very first love song
That didn't end in tears
I think you re-wrote my love song
For the rest of my years
I wil love you for the rest of my Life

Hairy humans

I'd Like to Have That One Back......George Strait its a STRAIT day... today........I really love him.....seems I love a lot of artists doesn't it?..... but I do adore him.....I bought my GF the George Strait Box Set 4 her Birthday a few months back and I thought "Hey......I love all of these songs too"...so I went ahead and bought one for meself...so every other day I listen to a different disk.....and I always find a new song I have never heard and fall in love with it....

Ok here we go......

I just read a story about a man in Florida who was arrested for biting his dog as a form of punishment.....

?

Ummmmmmmm...... ok then....

Seems he feels its the best way to train a dog..the police arrived and the dog was cowering in the back of her crate with her paw all bloodied from where the other animal had bitten her.....I think perhaps he( the so-called human) might need his shots and a good dipping followed by a big Alpo supper.....if the man wants to act like some wild animal then I believe he should be treated as such...although his actions were more beastly than any domestic pet I have ever come across.......pets don't usually resort to biting their humans to train them or get attention...peeing in a shoe or eating the curtains will usually get the desired affect..or so I have found...

well my mother did once.....seems one of our dogs liked to eat curtains and shit tablecloths ;)

....but that's a tale for a different day.



Ok then...

Yesterday I spoke with my Advisor @ WSU and it seems I may have messed around a bit to much this FAll..its all fixable..no need to panic!!!!!!..really!!..
No... I actually just need to submit about 4 assignment by Friday if I want to be able to register for Spring Term.....other than that all my ducks are in a row. I have decided to put up the TREE this weekend and Monday get my shopping done.....I usually wait until the 24th, but this year I have to work....so I guess my procrastinational ways just wont do this year....dammit man!

so I must start my hum drum day......well its not so hum drum...it has a hint of a excitement to it as well...a kind of fresh and breathtakingly shocking element to it....yea...I would say that's a fitting description........

ok folks taker 'er sleazy.....

ciao!!

The fabulous life

Woke up today feeling a bit better.....then I turned on the tube and I got caught up in the Fabulous Life of Some Celebrity I Could Care Less About .....I mean do people really watch this shit?.....I sat and watched just to see what the big 2 do is about ....and I really...... honestly....... cannot see the appeal behind watching someone livin it up with Jets, Mercedes and Versace....I mean it would be nice...... but I do believe there are more pressing matters that we could concern ourselves about...such as why some freak jumped up on a stage at a Damageplan concert and shot and killed the guitarist"Dimebag" Darrell Abbott, 38, becos he left his previous band Pantera. Why this horrible act had to happen is baffling and disturbing....my thought and prayers go out to the family and fans of the victims.....and much love to Mr. C.....as he adores the slain guitarist.

I must be off......time to hit the shower and have a cuppa..might even head to Starbucks for a cuppa heaven...... Eggnog Late'......just love those...


Have a Merry Monday....

blah...

:)


lata'

I wont tell em your name

Here I be on a Sunday...in a strange mood too....still feeling a bit sickish.....got the Blahs......I guess that would be perfect way to describe how I feel.....listening to the Goo Goo Dolls today......pretty fitting tunage to fit my melancholy mood....also listening to Keane...I really like this band....I heard that they named themselves after their hometown in England....anyway I think they are way cool....that song Somewhere only we know is pretty coo too.

So I am not feeling like myself today and really haven't been as of late....Don't feel like I am going to meet up 2 the expectations that have been set for me....feel like maybe its the idea of ME that has someone all trippin....That's how I feel....and I don't know what to do about it.....Need to just have a meet n greet and see what's what.....

Moving on......

I tried to sign up for my Spring Courses and as usual I have to meet with my Advisor b4 I can get into my classes....I keep 4getting that @ WSU your advisor is pretty much like a doting parent......Have to be up in your action at all times....which is nice......keeps one from taking the wrong classes and getting on an academic detour so to speak.....so I shall hear back from her in the Morrow hopefully....

I need to get the X-mas Tree up and try and spread some holiday cheer....which may be a bit hard this year.....Ol' St. Nick and I are in completely different universes this year.......hopefully I will snap out of my Scroogy mood and find my Merry Merry side......there is always spiked eggnog to help me out.......

Ok then.........I shall call it a Blog and check out....

Ciao 4 Now

Letting myself go....

Well I have decided to do as my title states and let my shocking adventure take me where it may.....life is to short to stop your self from feeling whatever it is you are feeling.....and if you never take a chance or take that plunge..then u will forever wonder...."What If"?

Moving on....

Its official I am sick....I have finally caught the bug that's been going around @ work....so needless to say I feel like death today.....I have the humidifier going...the cough syrup at arms reach sipping on a bowl of chicken soup ..and my baby bro is on his way to get me some tissues....

Speaking of my Bro...he just walked in and asked me what kind of a chair I wanted for X-mas...All I asked for was a new Black Leather office chair for my PC as I take all my classes via the PC.....so he wanted to know if I wanted one with a heater and a massager....mmmmmm. YEA SURE!! :) I so love my baby bro...

okay folks I am gonna call it a day.......Crawl into bed....Watch the West Wing and try and catch some Zzzzzzzzzzzzz'z

Ciao 4 Now

Kiss My Invisible Ass.....and like it!

And here we go with the ongoing saga I like to call my life...

So I am @ work tonight and all is going well....I am working with Mamma B, N2, and who I used to call Puppy Girl but shall now forever call Fairy Girl....for reasons I shall share at a later time. So as I was saying....all was going well ....typical shit...as I work with all WOMEN... the drama can become quite intense and ridiculous, but its usually tolerable. Well I was standing in a room with Mamma B and we were discussing a work out routine that she and I will start when we hit the gym together in January......I was saying I would really like to work on my Abs and that's when Miss. Secretary walked in and says "You don't even have an ass! What are you talking about!?".. Mamma B gave me that look like "oh. Shit!' As I turned around and went "WHAT!"?


Ummmmm firstly I wasn't even talking about my ass. (MY ABS)....but since your rude ass brought it up.......here we go.


Now mind you I am not Jenifer Lopez......I am a 5'11, Blue Eyed, Long legged Blonde, All-American female.....and yes I may not be fucking Pamela Anderson but I am Not a piece of fucking cardboard....and better yet.....I would prefer it if only my long -time friends would point out my obviously rather flawed
derriere.......

ok then....... back to to the tale at hand......

So she continues to go on about how I don't not have an ass and etc and then Proceeds to turn around and ask this MAN "don't you think she has no ass?" Well....the man says" I think she has a great ass...although she is in scrubs...I really like it".

Thank You Mr. MAN!

I don't know why that got to me......but it did....I mean really..... how would someone like it if was to act in that same manner.....? Rather un-nice.... if I must say.....as it would be like if I walked up to someone and went....."You know.....you have really bad hair, a saggy ass....so you need to get your sorry ass on out a here!"....well....tis not something I would say....as it is RUDE!!.....

so there you go....

The story does have a happy ending......I woke up this AM and Miss Secretary had written me an email apologizing for the rude comment and I accepted saying.."yes, it was rather petty".

but....... it was still juicy enough to blog about here.

Moving on......

I must go to work tonight......but its all good ......I have this song in my head about someone......you know the one from.... Carlos Santana......"Why don't you and I get together" I do believe this song is a fitting description about my state of mind and heart today.....

NICE!!

Hope you all have a bitchin fabulous day!!

Catch Y'all lata!!

Ciao

Electric, Sensational......Throw rugs.....

Well I just now rolled out of bed....at 2PM........I SLEPT SO GOOD!!! I feel like a million bucks today.....I think I may have kicked the insomnia bug.......I may have found the cure....finally...only took me 3 years to find it.....and it isn't any drug that one can buy ....or some crazy narcotic.....I found it by accident....I tripped and found it under the throw rug :)


Moving on....

Today I am listening to James Taylor and Van Morrison.....in that kind a mood....I know a certain someone would say "Ummmmm" but hey..I love all kinds of tunes...and sometimes Van takes me there....I will however... throw on something a bit more upbeat here in a minute ...right when I get ready to leave....just to livin shit up a bit....

I talked with Binks last night and wow buddie....you are in a lil drama there...just a bit....yea...so I do hope you get it all worked out and all is groovy,great,and grand in your life.....I sure wouldn't want to see you get fucked over.....and if you do....gimme a call.....I fix it 4 ya!!

Ok .....here is something interesting....I was reading the paper yesterday...if you can call the grouped up articles they put together and send out in this town a paper...tis rather cheesy...
anyho....
I was reading about how John McCain says the Oil-For-Food program might justify the invasion of Iraq...

???????????? WHAT!!!

Ok this just boggles my fucking mind it truly does..I love how after the fact the powers-that-be can find new ways of justifying the ever increasingly bloody war in Iraq. Seeing how we couldn't find any WMD's it is now due to theOil-For-Food scandal which may be one of the justifications for the invasion of Iraq...

I love how things keep changing and stories are put out to fit whatever agenda Washington deems suitable.

I highly recommend an article I just read..by Jude Wanniski.

Here is a few paragraphs...

What about the damning report of Charles Duelfer and his Iraqi Survey Group, which announced last month that Saddam Hussein destroyed all of his weapons of mass destruction and their programmes in 1991?
In his report, he also brought up the oil-for-food programme, which was never part of his mission when he was appointed by Bush to check further into Iraq's WMD intentions.Duelfer, who could not pretend to have found WMD when none existed, clearly used the oil-for-food programme to distract attention from his central finding.
The report gratuitously contained the thesis that if Saddam someday wanted to rebuild his WMD capabilities, he could be using the programme to that end, with the complicity of the French, Russians, Chinese, United Nations and major oil companies.
Logic should tell you, though, that the neo-cons have been behind this hoax from the start, that they never intended to lift the sanctions on Iraq even while knowing back in 1991 that Saddam almost certainly had complied with that first UN resolution. The Iraqis who are in a position to clear all this up and demonstrate that while certain transactions might appear suspicious on the surface, but can be fully explained, are not available for testimony.
The regime is under lock and key and not available to Rosett or Coleman. Volcker presumably has access to them, but is not sharing his findings with the US Congress, which he is not required to do.
His report to the UN will be made public and judgments can then be made. It may be there is no scandal at all. Just another trick of the neo-conservatives to blow away anyone who gets in the way of their plans for a global empire.


You can read the artilce in its entirety here...
http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/561BE24F-B06B-4CC1-B28A-F6845EA8E469.htm

I really have no comment...as the article speaks for itslef.

I am off to begin my day...late it may be.....but its still a good day..a shockingly good day.

Ciao babes!!