busy

I am so busy its really just....... well............busy

I just finished my workout and now I have to run out and exchange some smokes at the rez for Aunt Glo, then I have to move beds around as I am getting a new mattress set today, which means I have to trade off my set for the new set and all the other moving involved, I then have to go to a diff store to pick out new carpet, THEN...I have to pick up some BBQ stuff for the BBQ tonight..........

Sometime today I must study...


Plus

N2 is really in dire straits with her BF and mum.............
Tis a mess

Truly


I was up til 3AM talking with her...as well as @ work last night she was upset

Poor thing

So I am trying to help her out..........

Also...
My ex contacted me again...which always trips me out...............

So there you go

mylfe

Fun.

Independence

Happy Birthday America!!!!

I have a bit of history with regards to our Independence Day

Independence Day is the national holiday of the United States of America commemorating the signing of the Declaration of Independence by the Continental Congress on July 4, 1776, in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.


Independence Day is celebrated on July 4 because that is the day when the Continental Congress adopted the final draft of the Declaration of Independence. From July 8, 1776, until the next month, the document was read publicly and people celebrated whenever they heard it. The next year, in Philadelphia, bells rang and ships fired guns, candles and firecrackers were lighted. But the War of Independence dragged on until 1783, and in that year, Independence Day was made an official holiday. 1941 Congress declared 4th of July a federal holiday.

The first Independence Day celebration took place the following year - July 4 1777. By the early 1800s the traditions of parades, picnics, and fireworks were established as the way to celebrate America's birthday. And although fireworks have been banned in most places because of their danger, most towns and cities usually have big firework displays for all to see and enjoy.


So there you have it......a bit of history about our countries B-day.

While doing a bit of quick research I found this quote:

"Whenever any form of government becomes destructive of these ends (life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness), it is the right of the people to alter or abolish it, and to institute new government."

Thomas Jefferson (1743-1826), from the Declaration of Independence

I happen to like this quote very much.......as I feel it exemplifies the document in its entirety.......

well for me it does


I have always been fond of this day as I am very fond of our American history and of our country, regardless of what may be happening at present............

today America will be celebrating her 229th B-Day, so I would like to take this time to wish everyone a very Happy Independence Day!!!

Enjoy the bbq's, fireworks, and parades...........as for me...........I am working today.........this will be the 1st 4th I have worked in 6 yrs......but to tell you true, I celebrated on Friday........

So it’s all-good....

Onward

So I made a decision today

I also completely finished another chapter in mylfe

Seems another Blogger is doing the same thing, although I believe we are on different chapters.........I am sorry to c her go.......I shall stay.....I am not done yet.

Moving on........

Mr. C is taking me out to dinner 2 nite.

I ran a mile today while at the gym, YES a MILE....I am flippin happy about that.....I am really taking this working out very seriously.....and the results are really showing......I have been getting some really nice compliments.......so thank you to those who have noticed.......and fuck you to those who haven’t

heheh

Anyway...........

I must be off.....I just mowed the lawn jammin out to Toni B.....her 1st CD is jammin, I still am in love with her music..........

So that is Coley's musical choice of the week for those who care

Toni Braxton
Toni Braxton

excellent.....and very fitting for my current state of life...

Ok then I am off to shower and then have some dinner

I am very hungry.......

drama

i have to give an answer soon to somone

Dont know what I will say

well I do


Other than that


Nadda

well thats not true


alot actually

But I am done with it

I have more important things too deal with


So how about them Yankees?

Me

I dedicate this song to me

and only me


Train
Hopeless

I hopelessly, helplessly, wonder why
Everything gotta change around me
I’d tell it to your face
But you lost your face along the way
And I’d say it on the phone
If I thought you were alone
Why do things have to change

But you don’t need my pictures on your wall
You say you need no one
And you don’t need my secret midnight call
I guess you need no one
Is anybody waiting at home for you
Cause it’s time that will tell if it’s heaven if it’s hell or if it’s
Anybody waiting at home for you
Cause it’s time that will tell this tale

You’re in and out up and down
Wonder if you’re lost or found
But I got my hands on you
Are you strong enough to tow the line
Are you gonna make me yours
Or do I make you mine
I’m in and out I’m up and down
Wonder if I’m lost or found
But I need your hands on me now

But you don’t need my pictures on your wall
You say you need no one
And you don’t need my secret midnight call
I guess you need no one
Is anybody waiting at home for you
Cause it’s time that will tell if it’s heaven if it’s hell or if it’s
Anybody waiting at home for you
Cause it’s time that will tell this tale

I hopelessly, helplessly, wonder why
Everything gotta change

Hopeless

I am hopeless

I mean....one minute I'm up ...the next I'm down

what the fuck?

I have never been good with the big L

never ever

ever


Moving on........thankfully


I watched THE AVIATOR last night

Leo was great

the film was great

Howie baby

you were a weird one

great visionary

but a bit whacked


sad really


Ok back to me.....

I am hopeless.................


so hopeless

Disoriented

Has anyone 'sides me ever been so confused about their own feelings that they don’t know whether to laugh or cry? Or perhaps both?

Cos that would be me............

I founded out something........about a certain someone I thought I was no longer interested in........and this info has made me feel......well I feel sorta....

Bewildered, bugged, chagrined, confounded, confused, crushed, discombobulated, discomfited, disconcerted, disgraced, embarrassed, fazed, fuddled, humbled, humiliated, mortified, rattled, red-faced, shamed, shy, taken aback, blurred, chaotic, disarranged, disordered, disorderly, disorganized, haywire, higgledy-piggledy, in disarray, jumbled, messy, miscalculated, mistaken, misunderstood, obscured, snafu, topsy-turvy, unsettled...

....and well

all in all

I really just feel



PISSED OFF !!!


As this confusion of me emotions about this person is something I am not used to.


I have not been this out of sorts since I was with Tea Bag..


I not a happy grrl.

No Siree Bob ....

Not at all....

Shop

Its official

I have a problem

In a big way


I am a shopaholic

I went out 2day to exchange the Nautica Tee Mr.C bought me @ Costco, I exchanged it for some black Capri Dockers.........

OK.....that’s fine.

I then venture to JC Penny's to exchange the St. Johns Bay top for a top that I will actually wear and in the process realized that I needed a new pair of Keds to go with my new Liz Claiborne shorts I bought, I then realized that I also needed a new pair of scandals to go with the new Capri's I picked up @ Costco.........so I venture to Shopko as they have great shoe sales and I did pick up the Keds, Scandals and a new pair of Nikes that I didn’t need but they were marked down from $60 to $14....so me being me......thought to myself I would be a complete fool if I didn’t buy them ......


I then came home and looked in me closet and realized I have not a speck of space left for anything new.............

I need help.........

well.........

actually I need to have my hair done and my nails to go with my new............

Supreme Commandments

In a 5-4 ruling, the high court ruled that the display of framed copies of the Ten Commandments in two Kentucky courthouses is a violation of the separation of church and state, but then they also ruled 5-4 that the display of the Decalogue on the grounds of the Texas capital is a legitimate tribute to the legal and religious history of the US.




Well finally this issue of the separation of Church & State has been addressed. To me it has always been a improper government endorsement of religion, as the forefathers of this country were adamant in their vision of separating religion from government, this is the reason that the 1st Americans left merry 'ol England..........the persecution of religions beliefs...meaning if you weren’t with em, you were against em.

Sound familiar today?


I do have to mention something about Mr. Cruise and his well, erratic behavior.

He is dead set against medication of any kind that helps individuals suffering with depression/anxiety. He has stated in several interviews when he is proved wrong on this issue that the interviewer 'doesn’t understand'......

Ok, I could give a shit less about celebrities and their lives, but when one of em goes around spewing nonsense about meds that have been proven to help individuals I feel its time for that particular 'STAR" to get his facts straight........perhaps his religion of Scientology doesn’t embrace medications, and that’s fine, but for those who do, and for those who actually look up to these Celebes I feel they need to be more informed on the subject matter b4 they start mouthing off.......

Just my opinion.

And here’s another

Cult Buster said:

The reporter then asked Cruise if he felt that it was his “job to recruit new followers for Scientology?”

“I’m a helper,” said the middle-aged actor.

But then Tom made the startling claim that “Scientology [has]…the only successful drug rehabilitation program in the world…called Narconon.”

The German reporter then did something akin to Hara Kiri in Hollywood he disagreed with Tom Cruise.

“That’s not correct,” he told the star.

He then went on to say that Narconon “is never mentioned among the recognized detox programs [and] independent experts warn against it because it is rooted in pseudo science.”

Pseudo science?

Narconon is based upon the teachings of L. Ron Hubbard, the founder of Scientology.

Tom then told the reporter, “You don’t understand what I am saying. It’s a statistically proven fact that there is only one successful drug rehabilitation program in the world. Period.”
opinion


Moving on....

I have decided to let the whole flashing nonsense go......its beneath me, and i feel that I will no longer be associating with the people who started this...............

I left High School a long time ago


ok then............

I am off to the gym

Need to vent

In a healthy way

Predicament

I have a situation, well actually a problem that I thought I would Blog about as it’s a way of venting the said issue.
Last night when Izzy showed up he happened to tell me a couple of things that have left me a bit .....well.....unhappy. My issue has to do with Willard (N2's BF of 7 yrs) well seems 'ol Willy has been spreading gossip about me, very untrue gossip. Seems he told Izzy that I flashed him my breastesses........I don’t know when or where this supposed act occurred all I know is that he told Izzy that I did this. OK......well first of all I am not the type of woman who does this sort of thing........I have a bit more class and self-respect to conduct myself in this manner..........especially when it comes to one of my closest friends BF. Now I don’t know why he told Izzy this and what he thinks going to come of it......I do know that N2 is oblivious of this and I would hate to see how she would react to finding this out. Also Izzy went on to tell me a few other things about good 'ol Willy that N2 doesn’t know about either......and I wish I didn’t myself. See N2 is crazy in love with him and he in all respects seems to be a pretty decent guy, well at least that’s what I thought until last night. Now I have tossed this issue about with my brother and my cousin, and they both have told me that I need to confront Mr. Willy about this flashing nonsense as I do have a reputation to protect. As for the other info I am aware of, I believe I am going to stay out it.

This shit really just pisses me off. Why do guys and grrls have to start shit like this? Is it the age ? Or what? I mean really........I already know once I confront him he's going to deny it.....and say Izzy is a liar........and speaking of Izzy, Y did he tell me this? I know he has complete respect for me as he is always a complete gentleman when he is around me, I just don’t understand.........he was rather adamant after telling me this that I not say anything to Willard...now why is that I wonder?.....well sorry buddy when some guy starts telling people I am flashing him I think I have to confront him, I mean for Pete’s sake..........I am rather protective of myself and of my image.

I will say that 10 yrs ago in my wild and crazy days this may have occurred.........hell yea.........I partied like a possessed crazed fool........all of me grrl friends did, but that was then, and this is now......

So..........now I am going to have to deal with this and in the process most likely lose a friend over something I didn’t do to someone whom I did think of as a very nice and polite man...........

Well this is no longer the case.......


Unfortunately...........

Aint life a daisy?


UPDATE

Izzy left a message on me Celly about an hour ago stating that he hasdspoken with Willard regarding the Flashing episode and Willy told Izzy that I DID NOT flash him. Izzy then went on to say that he must have misunderstood what Willy was saying and that however I want to handle this he will understand. He also apologised for making me upset and he hopes i dont think any less of him.


Good God..........

Men


And i thought women were drama queens.............

live and learn I tell ya..live and learn


Time for some much needed ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz's

2 many

Went out last night I did........it was , Mr. C , N2, and Mr.c's new grrl whom I shall call Miss Mobile, and myself. Mr.C and I had actually started our day off with a tiff but we made up and I offered to buy him a few new shirts if he would accompany me to the mall as I needed new make-up and of course 3 new tops, 2 new pairs of shades, and a few items from Bed-Bath-and Beyond, o how I love that lil store. So after we left we were driving by my Aunts Pub and Mr.C asked if maybe we shouldn’t stop in for a drink and a bite........sure why not..........well we stopped in the Pub, said our hellos to everyone and that’s when N2 called and invited me over to play poker.........sure y not..........ssooooooooooo Mr.C drops me off, and I tell him that N2 and I would meet him after the game...........which we did...........this is when it gets a bit .....well .....uncomfy for me.........see Lucy........this guy I work with has a thing for me..........and I for him........so I call him and invite him down, he shows up not 10 minutes later, which was cool as Mr. C wanted to meet him as to give him his approval.......which he did..........ok..........all is well..........then Israel calls N2 and she mentions where we were........and all the sudden there he is...........now I am in a pickle as I have Lucy across from me, Israel next to me... Do you see my dilemma? I got these 2 great guys, who like me, at the same table, at the same club..........not a good combo if u ask me

Well me being me, not really good at handling these situations...... I just sorta sneaked off and went and found Mr.C and Miss Mobile ( MM was WASTED lemme tell ya, kept going on and on about how much she loves my brother and me and how cool it is that we are so close, my brother and I, and that she wished her and her brother were as close as us , but since he's gay yadda yadda) anyway. I then sneak away from her and run into a few other friends and this grrl with whom I almost beat the snot out of last summer ( seems she thought I pulled her gf's hair when it was actually my friend.......and well......the rest is history), we have since made up and she is now my new hair dresser , strange how things work out huh? ok...on we go........Mr. C understood my predicament(with the boyz) and offered to take me home.........which I happily agreed to..........

Gosh..........what a night

I love having the boys’ chasing after me, but not all of them at the same time in the same place...tends to be a bit much.......

Anyway so I get home and Mr.C is asking me for some condoms as he is heading back to MM's place, which I give him, I only have a shoe box full of them...seriously...now I know what you’re thinking, but its only cos they hand them out like candy on campus and well I just kept them cos You Never know!...
Mr. C had a heyday with that........I would love to share his witty remarks but, well, I think it best not to..........so as he is leaving my phone rings and its the boyz......each asking if they can stop on by....OH BOY............I politely explain to them both ( each on a different line BTW) that I am knackered and need to get some sleep............

sigh

what a night..........I like them both truly I do, but Lucy is in the midst of a divorce and Izzy is very cute and very smart, but I think he is just after a lil or allot of my action, which is all gravy 'cept he is a horrible kisser.....kisses like a lizard.......ewwwwwwwwww..........and that my friends don’t fly with me...........

It’s all in the kiss.......... and if you aint got the kiss you aint got me!

anyway...that pretty much sums up my night

OH!!!
I received my award letter for WSU next yr, and I received all grants sides a loan for $2500............SAAAWEEETT!!!

So I am psyched...... as my total loan amounts are way lower than I had anticipated and that my dear readers makes it a easier life for me as my whole income wont be going directly to the bank......

Well I best end this and find something to eat..........

I a starvin Marvin....

Constitution?

Supreme court yesterday told homeowners that the government could take homes away from owners and have them torn down in order to build commercial businesses. Seems the communism we destroyed at the Berlin wall has roots in New London Connecticut. This according to
Harvey Paul, who I am agreeing with on this issue…


You decide


Story

P.E

Ok I am all for taking course via the internet, hell I am a full-time distance degree student my own self, but I have to draw the line when it comes to taking PE online............ I mean PE …………online?

COME ON!!



Seems in Minneapolis this is the case as the staff at a certain school has decided to offer Phys Ed online for those extra busy students who want to get by state mandatory academic courses. The students are required to meet with their instructor at the beginning and end of the class and submit weekly emails to the instructor on their progress, as they are responsible for monitoring their heart rate and physical endurance tests.

Uh huh

I just cant seem to get rid of this stupid silly smirk on me face, the hypocrisies of this subject is just killing me!!! As here we are, being told by every medical and fitness professional that we, as Americans, have the highest % of obesity in the world due to over-eating (of course) and the lack of .... or better yet ….NON physical activity. And the solution to this problem?...........offer Phys Ed to students on the computer.........that ought to whip those youngsters into shape right quick. With just a click, click, clickity click of the ‘ol mouse they will be in great shape in no time at all.... best they don’t forget to keep their heart rate in check, would be a sad state of affairs if we hade over exerted students collapsing at their monitors…

LAZY

Moving on………

I am a busy lil bee today………I have to go pick out the new carpet today, wash my car, submit my papers for my portfolio, contact my loaner about the interest rates going up next month, pick up some grass seed as my Aunt has killed patches of my yard GRRRRRRRRR……um lemme see what else?

Oh yes

I am right now heading out to the gym to workout……….or you know…… now that I think of it…typing this out could actually be substituted for my workout………

Nah


I might be a lot of things………but counterintuitive isn’t one of them………


Well........not usually.

wall-to-wall

Yesterday my Landlord George dropped by to see what’s what in regards to my brothers room...see he (George) had a guy come over about 10 days ago to fix my brothers light as it stopped working due to the ceiling fan. The fan had a short in it thus resulting in the overhead light malfunctioning. Well the idiot...(and thats a compliment)..that George sent over fixed the light and the fan but in the process somehow disengaged the outlets in Mr. C's room from working...so George stopped by to see if he the idiot had come back to fix his error...and of course he hadn’t, well Georgy said he would send an electrician out (which he did today and the power is again on in Mr.C's room) and also while he was here wanted to look at our carpet as I have been asking if he would be so kind as to put in new carpet. He looked around and laughed and said "well Coley there isn’t anything wrong with this carpet." I replied with " I know, but George this is the carpet they put in when his place was built, 20 yrs ago!"...Well...to make a long story short I won the argument and I now get to go and pick out new carpet this Wednesday.............I am rather psyched..........BUT...George mentioned that he was going to send the idiot out again to lay the carpet .........and I responded with a I DONT THINK SO!..........so he is sending someone new to do the carpet laying...

Just goes to show........I always get what I want..........

;)


Moving on...

I just returned from work and it went rather well...N2, L Lady, and myself managed the shift and all went really well.............so now I am going to find something to munch on and relax b4 I call it a day.........

Thats all 4 now

bf i 4gt

Its Fathers day!!!

So to all them Papa's out there I do wish you a very nice and Happy Daddy Day!!

My brother and I ventured out to Tri-State Outfitters so he could buy a pair of new sneakers ( not that he needs them as he has more shoes than I do......seriously) so we were driving up and I noticed all these older folks cruising around when it hit me that it was Daddy Day............this day has never meant much to my brother and I as.....well...........our father was not a factor in our lives..........so Mr. C proceeds to tell me that his buddy called and wished him a happy fathers day......that is if he is a father and well he isn’t.........so I decided right then and there from now on this day ..for me ....will be declared

BROTHERS DAY

Yea...... my brother is the most important man in mylfe........in the family sense......so I feel since we don’t celebrate the actual holiday, that from now on I will pay respects to Mr. C.

So after we bought his Nikes and my new Teva scandals...........( They ARE SO BITCHIN!..can never go wrong with Teva baby!) we decided to jet on over to Wal-Mart to buy a BBQ as I wished to make him a nice Brothers Day dinner while he watches his SkeetBalll playoffs..........( he is ....as I write this ....putting together the BBQ,and in the process he's a mumbling and a grumbling, just basically bitching at the contraption... typical guy) so anyways..........after the BBQ is assembled we shall have burgers, dogs, and chicken.......

I think its a fitting dinner for the 1st Brothers Day @ our homestead.

Cheers

G.B.U

So I was reading a certain celebrities Blog a few months back and while there I noticed she was offering to send out free merchandise Tee’s, Mouse Pads, Etc... to the readers. So I, like many others, am not against receiving free shit so I signed on up............and wouldn’t you know it...I received a free mouse pad yesterday...How cool is that?................the thing is canary yellow and has the remark " go Blog urself" written on it............the only real problem was the name on the envelope wasn’t mine (I know one shouldn’t open mail not addressed to them, but to be truthful the envelope arrived already opened, so there you go, sides it was meant for ME anyway!)...........But at least she got the address right.Anyhoo.......... I thought I would share that with everyone.................

Moving on.........

Really nothing to new to report, I have been hitting the gym like a maniac and chewing gum like a camel in order to quit smoking and alas it is working. Other than that I have been keepi9ng myself busy with school and I have recently become addicted to the HBO show Deadwood. Tis a really cool cowboy series..................the writing is excellent as well as the acting and I just love all the swearing " YOU COCKSUCKERSSS!!!"

hehehe

I know.... I'm sick..............

But hey..... if you don’t like it..... you can just

GO BLOG URSELF!!!!

reflecting

So I haven’t posted here in ages.......primarily due to the fact that I really haven’t been in the mood to tell you true. I have actually been doing allot of reflecting as of late, about my life and where I am going and where I should be and so forth. I truly wish I had a different job as I am so burned out with my present job I could just about die. I honestly have to psyche myself up to go into work........I have been having to do this for about the past 2 yrs as when I was in Portland I was doing the exact same thing as I am doing now. I cant complain about the $ nor the people I work with.( 'cept for Mamma B as she is a pain in the ass and a lazy ass to boot, but that’s an entirely different story).

I just get extremely frustrated as I am a college graduate and I should be working in the field I earned my degree in, but as it sits I am in a tiny town with limited employment, thus I am having to earn a living doing something I really dislike with a passion. I know I am prolly in the top % of Americans who truly dislike their careers , but that doesn’t mean I cannot be bummed out about it. My brother sees this dilemma with me as he lately has been giving me pep talks while driving me to work, which helps but doesn’t resolve anything. He basically tells me he is really proud of me and to just keep my chin up as when I graduate from WSU it will pay off. I tell him that’s what I was telling myself while going for my degree in Portland, he just nods and tells me it is the town we are in, not me.........which of course it so true. So that basically takes care of that .......as far as bitching about my job and the reflecting part of it.

The other side of the coin has to do with family and relationships and the lack there of. I never really have been the marring/ kids type of gal, but as of late it is something I think I might one day like to have...........being single has its bennies, truly it does, but there are just as many downsides to it as there are upsides.

I guess I am just looking at my life up to this stage and wondering " Is this all there is?" I know I am solely responsible for making mylfe what it is........and that right there is where I stand........I feel it is time to make some major changes in mylfe......starting with this lil list I have started..

1. QUIT SMOKING!!! I am not to enthused about looking 80 @ 40 nor having cancer or emphysema.

2. Finish college ..........to do this I must take more credits, which I am doing now as I am taking course this summer. If I truly want to have the career I dream of I must graduate sooner than later......or b4 I am 80.......

3. Surround myself with positive people. I have been around depressing un-ambitious folk as of late and this only tends to make me more bummed.

4. Save $, I spend $ on things I don’t need....and when I need something I do need I find that I cannot afford it as I have bought another DKNY bag, which of course I don’t NEED.......so I need to be more fiscally responsible. This shouldn’t be too much of a problem as I have always been rather smart with my cashola.

5. Be more optimistic. I have always had the problem of seeing the glass being 1/2 full. If I do intend to be successful and happy I need to look at life with a more optimist view......this not only helps one accomplish their goals, it also attract individuals that have the same outlook, which perhaps might help in meeting the right guy......


Well that pretty much sums that up for now............These are not just words........I am not blowing smoke.....I really am at a stage in mylfe where I am ready to make these types of changes. I do not want to be that person who looks back at their life and wonders " what if?"


I want to look back and think "Wow"

:)

format

Well i just finished re-formatting this damn PC AGAIN!!

Since I have gone Cable I seem to be doing this fun lil chore about every 4 months....
and its oh so much fun....

I am off to the jobola........

Update

My back injury is healing nicely........its gradutated from a sprain to a pinched nerve.


isnt that lovely?

Solo-Mini-Bio

I thought since I haven’t updated in awhile I might as well divulge a bit about me….. for those who might be interested....

So ....

Here we go……..


About Me

Who: Nicole

Born: January 5th,1972

Hometown: Spokane, WA

Occupation: Nursing, Full-time University Student

Three words that describe me best: Witty, charming, serious

Secret vices: coffee, working out (for the rush), making people laugh

Favorite Foods: Pizza, Italian, STEAK

Favorite color: Blue

Dream vacation: A trip around the whole of Europe

Things I can do without: Liars, thieves, too much mayo, raw fish of any kind, hangovers

Favorite movies: Gia,American Beauty, Braveheart, Fargo, Ray, The Big Chill

Star Crush: J Phoenix, Angelina Jolie, Darren Hayes

Favorite cartoons: Bugs Bunny….he be da man!

Favorite Superhero: Superman

Musical preferences: Everything….I am very eclectic with my choice of music…….but I don’t like Rap. Period.

A great reading experience: As a child “Where The Red Fern Grows” as an adult Stephen King or Ann Rule. I also like “All Quiet On The Western Front” by Erich Maria Remarque, I love all his work, I truly cannot put down his books.

Toothpaste: Mentadent whitening.

Soap: Oil Of Olay

Scent: Burberry, by Burberry

Shoes: Reebok, Burks, sandals

My Current Ride: Honda Accord

Three items always found in my refrigerator: Evian, Kool-aide, eggs
Permanent Body Artwork: Only my ear piercings, I am not one for tattoos…I like them on men, but I hate them on women……….ewwwwww

Favorite Places to visit: Frisco, Hong Kong, LAS VEGAS!!!!

Something people may be surprised to know: Every time by brother smiles at me…it literally makes my day………

I shall return tomorrow.

Owwy!!

Last night...I was doing my job. All was well. L Lady asked me for some assistance with a patient who is rather big . So I go and help her with this patient and in the process.........pulled something in my lower back. I actually CRIED out when it happened. LL looked at me with some concern and asked me if I was OK...........'Ummmmm yea...I think so' I say. I tried to walk it off...to no avail. N2 immediately told me to go 2 the Doc's..........I told her they don’t do shit cos they really don’t..........she replied " better than being in pain, which is what you will be here in about an hour." Turns out she was RIGHT!

So I call me lil bro.........he picks me up, (he was really concerned and I thought that was so cute) and then drops me at the ER. The Doc was sweet.........told me I pulled something (YA THINK!?) then proceeded to send me on me way with some painkillers and muscle relaxes. No Lifting, no pulling, no Yadda Yadda........been there....... done that.

I have hurt my back in the past.............several times...........but nothing like this.....I am actually walking like an old lady.

I am not HAPPY!!!

The biggest thing that pisses me off is the fact that I cannot work out.........that’s what really pisses me off............

and I wince every time I move my butt in the chair....

So I am heading off to work............to stand around and well..........hobble and yelp.

I should fit right in.

Ray

I just watched Ray (I know, I am behind the times here) and it was an amazing movie. Jamie Foxx's performance was mesmerizing. I have always been a RC fan, but after seeing this film it has only made me more so. So for all of those who haven’t seen it yet.....I really do recommend it. I also have 2 other flicks to blog about,Ladder 49 & Team America. TA sucked ASS!!! Those dudes need to stick with animation, but the fire fighter flick was really cool....maybe cos I am secretly in love with Joaquin Phoenix and have been since Gladiator & Quills.....yumm!

Moving on..

Really nothing to new to report. I am getting ready to hit the gym and then its back here to dig up 3 papers from my PCC days to submit to WSU for me writing portfolio, which I might say is a complete and utter waste of fucking time. I am a graduate and therefore, I must obviously have the ability to write a damn paper...........I even taught English for crying out loud....so for me to dig out this stuff, will be time consuming and well, irritating.


In other news.

Glad to hear that the deep throat mystery has now been solved, now maybe the government can get back to business.
Then again maybe not.

Don’t wanna fix somethin that aint broken...

Right?

slacker

I am such a slacker for neglecting my lonely 'ol Blog, but hey life happens and that’s the way the ball bounces.

I will update when I am not so flippin exhausted, I worked out like an Olympian, which BTW..... I am not!... and well…… I am paying for it now. Its the swimming, that kills me every time.............every single time. I now remember why my mom loved summers........she could send us off to the pool for 6 hrs of swimming and when we literally crawled in the door she was oh to happy to put us nighty nite, which is what I feel like doing right now.
But there is a West Wing Marathon on, a brother to feed and a cat to ..........well...........clean.......as she is filthy........

Again


See

Life just keeps me to busy to Blog..............

Right.

hangin

Its official,I am hungthefuckover!

I tried those chaser pills... and ummmmmm no, they do not work.... but you can’t blame one for trying. I truly don’t think they make a pill for idiots such as myself that have shots of well...7 different concoctions...........no I don’t think they do...had I stuck with beer....most likely I would
have felt OK today, but seeing how I didn’t.........

In other news...............I talked with someone last night and don’t remember a damn thing, bits and pieces, so I am hoping it isn’t as bad as I am making it out to be.

I do remember my brother walking out at some crazy hour and asking me what the fuck I was doing, I think that’s what ended the conversation.

So again I have broken 2 of my 5 drinking rules.........Never Call someone you are dating or were dating wasted, and never ever mix your alcohol...........

The other 3 were followed so therefore are not necessary to discuss at this time.

I am off to try and eat and curl up and die

Fun stuff

Melody of mind

This is my state of mind and heart today.


Song



Ask for More
McCain


Lying here with you, listening to the rain.
Smiling just to see a smile upon your face.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I found all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes, seeing all I need.
Girl, I think you are it's everything to me.
These are the moments I know heaven must exist.
These are the moments I know all I need is this.
I have all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.

I could not ask for more than this time together.
I couldn't ask for more that this time with you.
Every breath has been answered. Every dream that has come through.
Yeah, right here in this moment, it's that we're all meant to be.
(Oh) here with you, here with me.

And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I've got all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.



I could not ask for more than the love you gave me
cos it's all I've waited for.
And I could not ask for more.

lag

I have been lagging with me posts here at the 'ol Blog as of late due to having nothing of importance to Blog about. I will say that I am feeling really great about mlyfe and all that is going on it as of late. My brother and I are getting along famously, as well as the rest of my fandamily. Work is going well and my friends here in Small-town are all groovy, great, and grand. So in that respect I am really happy.

I must admit I am finding myself missing the 'relationship' part of life. It’s been along time since I have been really in love, and I sometimes wonder if that part of mlyfe has played out its part. I hope not as I truly am a great romantic at heart, its just I have not been so lucky in love or with finding the right one. I have the knack of meeting someone and not clicking and then hurting them when the non-click turns into a ticking time bomb...meaning me saying how I feel and the reactions are those of a ...well.........explosion of emotions...that I dare say...do not handle well...AT ALL.

Tis my weakness..........and I wish I were a stronger woman in that sense of handling situations of that sort with more finesse and sensitivity, but as with all things in this short ride ...live and learn.

Moving on...

Star Wars was in a word AWESOME...

It is the best of the 3...I recommend it for all who enjoy Lucas and his StarOpera saga............really was a must see.........

Well I must be off.........I am dead tired. I just wrote and English paper for my brother's GF...she came over for my help and well.... I ended up writing the damn thing...wouldn’t you know it, it was on the topic of friends and once I started writing her a rough draft, well I basically just wrote the whole bloody thing...words just pour out of me at times...especially on topics close to my heart.


Speaking of heart...

Mine is lagging...tis tried...

Time for the must needed
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

sore

I have been hitting the gym everyday and paying for it everyday. I am addicted now I think....addicted to the pain and the endorphin rush i get....but I am working towards a goal......there is this outfit you see............you know the rest of the story.

Today I am off to see Star Wars.........I have heard it kicks ass and is the best out of the last 2.......I sure hope so....I literally fell asleep during the last one......and I aint one for falling asleep @ an 8 dollar event.........

I shall blog my review as soon as I return...........

music.

Carey
We Belong

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

50

I stole this from someone who stole it from someone who also stole it from another who stole and...well you get the fricken idea.

For those who wanna know 50 weird things about me..


1. Your name spelled backwards. elocin (sounds like a prescription)
2. Where were your parents born? Mom was born in Missoula MT. Fuck my father
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Mariah Careys new song We Belong Together cos I like it
4. What's your favorite restaurant? Standfords cos its where Patti Anne and I used to do lunches and we had great lunches ;)
5. Last time you swam in a pool? O boy..ummmm ..I think when I went skinny dippen with the guys, but I'm not sure
6. Have you ever been in a school play? Yes a lot actually...I was in drama all throughout school.
7. How many kids do you want? elzilcho
8. Type of music you dislike most? RAP….although I like slim shady
9. Are you registered to vote? Yep, since I hit 18!
10. Do you have cable? Of course, why do you think I am the procrastination queen?
11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? Yes. I lived on one my entire 11th summer
12. Ever prank call anybody? Hell yea..big time
13. Ever get a parking ticket? Yes, in a rental. they never did find me...heheheh
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Hell YEA!!!
15. Farthest place you ever traveled. Hong Kong China
16. Do you have a garden? No, but I had tomato plants last summer, pain in the ass
17. What's your favorite comic strip? Snoopy
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? I think so
19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Shower. Morning and evening..but I love bubble baths too
20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? SAW. I’m sorry I liked it!
21. Favorite pizza topping? Garlic chicken and mushroom, green peppers, red peppers lots of cheese and onions. Best served with cold beer.
22. Chips or popcorn? Depends on the mood and the occasion. Popcorn for movies. Chips for bedtime snacking..not so comfy on the sheets though.
23. What color lipstick do you usually wear? pink
24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Uh, no...
25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? LMFAO!!!
26. Orange Juice or apple? OJ
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? My brother took me for a great steak @ Roosters.
28. Favorite type chocolate bar? Godiva or Twix
29. When was the last time you voted at the polls? I have been mailing mine in lately, but I think when I was 18.
30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Last summer...my own homegrown tomtaers.
31. Have you ever won a trophy? I think so..yea...Basketball…woopdty doo
32. Are you a good cook? I am an excellent cook
33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? Well yea...jeeze
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial? No
35. Sprite or 7-up? Both
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? Yes. scrubs
37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Vicodin.for me rib
38. Ever throw up in public? HAHAHAHA o god yes. sigh
39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love? I would fall in love with a millionaire..JK..true love..$ isn't everything.
40. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes. I have experienced it.
41. Ever call a 1-900 number? No.
42. Can exes be friends? Yes I am with a few.well.one
43. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? My brother, in April
44. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby? Yep, I was a CUTE baby. I had a bunch of blonde hair. My mom said I had cwazy hair...still do..dammit.
45. What message is on your voicemail? Something along the lines of "I cant get to my phone so pls leave a message and I will get back to you as soon as I can..fuckers!" I joke. all of the above minus the 'fuckers '
46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? Gilda Radner..all her characters
47. What was the name of your first pet? Killer. I am serious. he was a lil white dog who was crazy.my mom called him killer.
48. What is in your purse? Wallet, celly, make-up, brush,pen(s), gum,chapstick, lighter, lint.
49. Favorite thing to do before bedtime? Ummmmm EG>...Eat. And watch TV
50. What is one thing you are grateful for today? My friend Pattie Anne. We talked today after almost 2 months of not talking...and as always my brother...he is a great guy

Pain/Gain

Who was it that said "No pain, no gain"? I wanna have a chitchat with that individual.

I went to the gym today and did a 2 hr workout............and I am feeling it now...I am sure by tomorrow I will be crawling out of bed.........I should have taken it a bit easier, but once I start I cant stop...I am like that with allot of things, most things...OK EVERYTHING!!!


In other events...I really haven’t done much today...I actually chatted with one of my former students from Hong Kong today...Daniel...that was nice...he was my favorite student, perhaps becos he is extremely handsome and charming, but more so cos he enjoyed my lessons and actually learned a great deal from me..............that was to be taken in an academic way...

No let me take that back. I actually did do something today.... shopped again...I went to Costco to buy a MP3 player/cd player so I can have some tunage while I kill myself at the gym and ended up buying more clothes and other items that I could have lived without.........that store needs to have a flashing banner outside its doors warning potential customers of the hazards that WILL be inflicted on their bank accounts if they dare walk inside...........or maybe one just for me.

COLEY YOU DONT NEED A NEW NAUTICA T-SHIRT OR A SPICE RACK OR A 10-GALLON CONATINR OF DIAL SOAP!!!!!

I think that may have deterred me from spending entirely too much $ on things I really didn’t need...

Then again............when someone tells me or warns me not to do something I tend to do it ten fold...so I really cannot win

I am my own worst enemy...


Aint I a daisy?

Quiz

I thought these were rather insightful......

I know they are mostly full of shit, but hey its raining and I am bored and its fun........

So there you go!!!


'sides, its all about ME!!!


;)

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary. If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?

Your Birthdate: January 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are 25 Years Old

25 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 80%

Envy: 40%

Gluttony: 40%

Wrath: 40%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 37%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

How Sinful Are You?

You Are 55% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

Your Political Profile Overall: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal Social Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal Defense and Crime: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal How Liberal / Conservative Are You? While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

Your #1 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

Your #2 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

Your #3 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #4 Match: ESTP

The Doer You are adventurous and risk taking. You act first, think second. You love being the center of attention. Chances are you were the class clown. Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor. You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you. You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur.

Your #5 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 60% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

rain

The rain today was so hard......it...well it was just really hard rain. I watched it for awhile....I had forgotten how hypnotic the rain can be...........but after about 33.3 seconds of it I went and worked out. I guess I am not one to stay hypnotized by nature for any great length of time.

I really have no plans today........going to make BBQ chicken and do laundry.......I live such an exciting and amazing life.......

Oh Boy.......

Seems I'm not the only one who is in a state of normality.......I have read all me fave Blogs and pretty much everyone is infected...


Blogneumonia

Maybe its just a 24 hour bug.......

O my Goat

Apparently a man had been arrested for crimes against nature/cruelty to animals...I feel and truly believe they need to call it like it is...the man was arrested for Goat RAPE!!!

This man Antonio Coria, 48 has been accused of assaulting a poor 2-month-old goat and according to the farmer(s) he has been assaulting the other goats since last July. The farmer never had any proof that her goats were being molested other than the fact that she had seen a naked male in the middle of the night in her yard. Plus the fact that she had found semen soaked t-shirts he had left at the scene...
( UMMMMMM HELLOOO!!!???)

Here's the whole disturbing story....Ungoatmanlike Conduct

I really have no thoughts. well I do........one in particular


SICK MUTHAFUCKA!!!!!

needs a lil help........



In other news.....

I just watched Cat Woman and holy catshit wasn’t that a neto flick.......I was just amazed at the plot/character development/special effects/acting performances and overall superior film making...

I now know why I waited to see this wonderful film, so I wouldn’t laugh in utter disbelief in the theater. Best to wait and watch it in the privacy of my own home where I can mock it without interruption. It really is the Puurrfect film for those who enjoy cinematic torture.



Moving on.......

My brother took me out to dinner at a place called Roosters. I must admit I wasn’t to keen on eating at a place called Roosters, especially after reading about the GoatMan, but I have to admit that the food (steaks) were exceptionally good....better than good.......excellent. The service was fabulous as well as the atmosphere. It’s a lil place overlooking the river, and the local dock for sailboats and such. So one can sit outside and watch the sunset and have great food with great staff.....I was very impressed.......

Other than that I really didn’t do too much..........stocked up on groceries and tooled around me house for most the day............a nice relaxing afternoon.

I am now set to watch RAY ........I am pretty sure this film will be somewhat better than Halley Cats film.......

One can only hope...

Bloggen

So I am going to post the lyrics to a song .....as this is my state of mind today........

No need to write or try and articulate what I am feeling when one song is so definitive of my current mood.


Here ya go


Everyone falls in love sometime
Sometimes it's wrong
And sometimes it's right
For every win
Someone must fail
But there comes a point when
When we exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

[Chorus:]
Shoop, Shoop, Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (yeah)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
(All you got to say is shoo be doop)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo be doop)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doo

Sometimes you'll laugh
Sometimes you'll cry
Life never tells us
The when's or why's
When you've got friends to wish you well
You'll find a point when
You wille exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

[Chorus:]
Shoop, Shoop, Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (shoo shoo shoo huh)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Sho0 be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Say shoop say shoo be say shoo be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (say shoo-hoo say sho)
Shoo Be Doo (be doo oh)

Hearts are often broken
When there are words unspoken
In your soul there's
Answers to your prayers
If you're searching for
A place you know
A familiar face
Somewhere to go
You should look inside yourself
You're halfway there

[Repeat Verse 2]

[Chorus:]
Shoop, Shoop, Shoop (Shoo Be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo Be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo Be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo-hoo-hoo be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo be doop doop doop hoo hoo hoo)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (do do shoo be shoo be feels alright)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (You can say oh)
Shoo Be Doo

Funny

A Joke I Swiped From Another Blog...



Clinton, Dubya and Gore are in a tragic plane crash and the next thing they know, they're standing before God, seated upon a blindingly radiant throne. God says to Gore, "Al...what do you believe?"

Al Gore says, "Well, I believe that I really did win that election. But for whatever reason, you decided that I was not destined to serve you in that capacity, and I have since made peace with it."

God says, "Very well, Al. You may sit to my left. Bill...what do you believe?"

Bill Clinton says, "I believe I did a lot of good, made a lot of enemies, and I was undermined by my own weakness that I should have been able to rise above. I wish to find forgiveness in my heart for those who sinned against me, and would hope that they likewise could find it in them to forgive me my trespasses."

God says, "Very well, Bill. You may sit to my right. George...what do you believe?"

And George W. Bush says, "I believe you're sitting in my chair."

boredom

Now that I actually have nothing to neither do nor stress about I am extremely bored.

Figures.

I am trying to fill up my time with workouts......but you can only kill yourself so many hours a day b4 exhaustion kicks in. I really need to find a car so I can boogie whenever I feel the need, which lately seems to be always.

Work is work. Home is home. Yadda Yadda......

I usually take off about this time of year for holiday, but with bills and such just isn’t doable right at the moment....

So I shall end this now.......I am off to get my weekly dose of TAN and do some much needed shopping for food products.......

On a good note

TGIF

;)

So I was watching the tube today and noticed that the white House was evacuated today.......seems a tiny lil plane was in the air space above the WH, which thus provoked the evacuation of the hose or house as well as the scrambling of fighter pilots to see who exactly had the nuts to fly in W's space...........this is the so called "2nd" presidential scare in the last 24 hours, as apparently Embarrassed Georgian officials were forced to admit today that a hand grenade was found in the Tbilisi square where President Bush gave a speech to a crowd of 120,0000 cheering people. The grenade was not in working order, so there really wasn’t a real danger nor threat to W.
I guess I am writing about this today as I have been noticing a decline in the so-called news in the media as of late. Seems we are more concerned with American Idol and MJ more so than what’s going on in the world today. It doesn’t help that the only thing being reported are theses stories so we as a public don’t have much of a choice, unless of course you use the Internet to search out and find "real" news. I actually prefer to read SCMP "South China Morning Post" or the London Times.....beats FOX or CNN.

Moving on..........

I went out last night and met the craziest character ....I shall call him "Ponytail Bob". ( no, he doesn’t have a ponytail, he is a prominent business guy here in the valley.....just seemed fitting after the stories he was telling me).

Anywayz...

He was a laugh. I was actually just sitting talking to asshole when he came and sat next to me... He seemed to think I was some grrl he had seen the previous Friday, after the initial mistaken identity was resolved we ended up in a rather funny and strange conversation..........I haven’t laughed like that in ages...........needless to say I didn’t give him my #, although I have his.........knowing me I will never call it.........I never do......I just collect #'s......safer that way...

I must be off to buy my membership and so some workout shopping......


Maybe the shopping will be my workout.

I am sure it will be

For my wallet.

acheivment

So I did it...passed all me classes...I am now officially finished with my 1st year @ WSU...

YES!!!

Now I can take the time to get back into things that interest me, like sleeping and sleeping. I joke. Tomorrow I am buying a membership @ the local fitness club as I get a great discount due to my being a student, so I am going to start focusing on the 'ol bod again as well as shopping for a car. Time to buy my own...as I will be taking courses on Campus in the fall.


That’s all I have 4 now...

Nothing to exciting..

cept for the feeling of overall satisfaction I have...and you cant beat that.........

No Sir, you sure cant.

Real

I just returned home from a night getaway...I am refreshed and feel anew...I feel as if I have taken a breath of fresh air for the 1st time in months...I am re-energized, like the energizer bunny.

My brother is in a good mood as well.... he just had a new CD player put into the car...perfect timing I would think as I just returned in the car from my getaway and would have liked having the tunes whilst I was driving, but it was nice anyway. So the car sounds great and all is well in Mr. C land.

I am waiting to receive my last grade for my English course...so far I have B+'s in all me courses...I am really pleased. Just think if I had actually tried and put forth all me efforts I would have had all A's baby, but I will settle for an above average grade, as I am... after all, above average..period.

So with this I shall end my entry. I am going to watch Saw...and call it a night. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new week...and I have my renewed outlook and I am ready to take on the week and whatever it may bring.


I sure hope its all good...as I really would like to keep this new real feeling alive and kicking.

Rejuvenate

Today is the 1st day in many days that I have felt neither the desire nor the need to Blog about anything. That last week of cramming and slamming a terms worth of material was a bit trying on me..........but I am recovering....slowly.

I am actually going to work out...a 1st in about a …..month……and trust me its showing..

Speaking of exercise........N2 and I are going to hit the gym together this summer.......seems Tantrum made some snide and crude remark to her ......which has set her off on the "I am SO HUGE" trip....which of course is not true........but when an ass of a man tells a grrl she looks obese...well it tends to have this effect...........so all in all...it will be good for both of us......I LOVE the gym.........but hate going alone.......and she HATES the gym....but likes hanging out with me.....so its a win win.

In other news.......well.........in my personal life.....things are fine. I have decided to leave out my personal life from now on........as I like to keep certain things between me and me. If ya know what I mean......

Ok then.........that’s all I got........hafta get a groove on.........

Coleyz song 4 the day

American Baby

Dave Matthews Band

Blahhhsss

I am finished with school........

So far I have a B+ in Biology and a B+ in my Psychology course........

Which is all good..........


What is bad is.........I am sick...feeling a bit under the weather......
I got the Blaahhsssss

So


I shall return when I am feeling more like meself....

Sorry

Journey
Send Her My Love

It’s been so long
Since I’ve seen her face
You say she’s doin’ fine
I still recall
A sad cafe

How it hurt so bad to see her cry
I didn’t want to say good-bye

Send her my love, memories remain
Send her my love, roses never fade
Send her my love

The same hotel, the same old room
I’m on the road again
She needed so much more
Than I could give

We knew our love could not pretend
Broken hearts can always mend.

(chorus)

Callin’ out her name I’m dreamin’
Reflections of a face I’m seein’
It’s her voice
That keeps on haunting me

Send her, send her my love
Roses never fade
Memories remain
Send her, send her, my love

song 2

Pretty much all I got..........

this is me

today.....



Candlebox

Far Behind

Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And not maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway
And now maybe
Your friends they stand beside they watch you crumble
As you falter to the ground
And now maybe
Your friends they stand beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high
But then some day people look at you for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home
But then some day we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us
But you left me far behind
Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
No, no, no
Couldn't share the pain they watch you suffer
Now maybe I could have made my own mistakes
But I live with what I've known
Yes maybe we might share in something great
But won't you look at where we've grown
Won't you look at where we've gone
But then someday comes tomorrow holds a sense of what I fear for you in my mind
As you trip the final line
And that cold day when you lost control
Shame you left my life
So soon you should have told me
But you left me far behind
Now maybe I didn't meant to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
No, no, no
Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
No maybe some would say you're left with what you had
But you couldn't share the pain
I said times have changed your friends
They come and watch you crumble to the ground
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hold you down
Hold you down
Maybe brother maybe love I didn't mean to treat you bad
But you left me far behind
Left me far behind
Left me far behind

Update

Ok here is the scoop.

Yesterday I finished the hardest fucking Biology final I have ever taken in mylfe (MY life)...I had to sit through 7 hrs of lecture on DVD as I wasn’t prepared...as usual...afterwhich....... I took the exam. I believe I may swing a B...that would make me happy...Today b4 work and after I am wrapping up my essays on the environment...and tomorrow typing them up and sending them in as well as a final evaluation for English 355...after that I am FINITO!!!!

sighhh

I only have myself to blame...........for my procrastinational ways.........next yr I will be better......

Well that’s what I tell myself...

Yuck

Apparently an 84 yr old Thai man in Bangkok had an ear itch…..the itch had become so intense he had used cotton buds to try and relieve it, but he scratched so hard his eardrums ruptured and started bleeding. When the doctors went to examine him they found the reason for the insane itching. Seems around 50 maggots were making a nice cozy home in the mans ears……I shit you not….The Dr’s used tweezers and a suction device to suck the things out……and are holding him in observation to make sure he doesn’t become the 1st human fly….


Moving on……..

I am now going to start Biology……

After reading this………I am not so sure I wanna.
Maggot Story

S&C

Sex& the City on TBS is a grrls best friend.......

It is FABULOUS!!!

I so love that show........I am going to buy every season on DVD as soon as I can afford it........nothing makes me smile and giggle like that show.......it truly is a Godsend on a bad day........

Something else that makes giggle and smile like a school grrl is my new found friend Miss Ageless........she is FABULOUS too!

I am off to buy some coffee Ice Cream from Haggen Daaz
The 3rd thing that makes me smile......a pint of lovely H&G...

Tis Great!

Feeling Korny

Music fits my mood.......
I have mentioned this.....just a few times...

Seeing how I had a blow out with my brother.......

A lil dose of Korn seemed to be the best way to vent my frustration......

I recommend them to anyone who needs a good dose of an exceptionally talented aggressive ROCK band........

This song here.....I can totally identify with today........there are several more, but I am feeling selfish....

BTW
Korn Greatest Hits is an excellent CD.........a great compilation of good tunage.


KORN

"Did My Time"

Realized I can never win
Sometimes I feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin
My mind is laughing at me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we suppose to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Sometimes I can never tell
If I've got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead
For this curse to leave me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we suppose to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Betrayed
I feel so enslaved
I really Tried
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Oh God, the anger's changing me

Grrrrrrr

So can things get any better in my life?

That would have to be a no.....Hell no!


I wake up this morning.....make my coffee and the 1st thing that happens is I have this HUGE argument with Mr.C.......over what else?

$$

He seems to think I owe him such and such...when I don’t.......

He then goes on to be a complete ass......tell me to change the situation seeing how I am so unhappy........yadda yadda.......I responded by telling him to change it.......

so needless to say we are not speaking........over $.

Such a joke........

Moving on......

I must now run and do the bank thang......pay some bills......and return here to finish me Biology assignments.......I will be so happy when I am finished with all of this.......as the weather here is beautiful.....and I sure wouldn’t mind being out in it today......would alleviate much of this stress......yes indeedy


In other news....

I got zilch!~

I get back to ya..

Knackered

I am finished with Political Science. I now know more about the Government than I did....well A lil bit more. I am glad I learned these new things.......but as with most of my classes, I will forget the bulk of the knowledge I have attained in the next 36 hours. Tomorrow is Biology day....as well as Wed-Friday......I am just glad I am finished........I have been going non-stop 'cept for dinner since 10AM..........I feel like a zombie and look like one as well........time to pass out so I can get up and start all over again in the morrow....................

So goodnight academic world…I shall return to defeat and conquer the Biology beast….

O boy.

Now I know I’ve lost it…



Oh and thank you for your comment Aussie……….

I am holding my own……….
Barely.

release

When I am stressed......as I am now with the tons of assignments I am struggling with ( I am 60.3% finished BTW) well........I throw on Motown......always have......it gives me release for some flippin reason, so for Coleyz song of the day I have chosen the following......


Enjoy.
and
Relax.



4 Tops
I need your lovin'

Baby I need your lovin'
Baby I need your lovin'
Although you're never near
Your voice I often hear
Another day, another night
I long to hold you tight
'Cause I'm so lonely
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Some say it's a sign of weakness
For a man to beg
Then weak I'd rather be
If it means havin' you to keep
'Cause lately I've been losin' sleep
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Empty nights
Echo your name
Sometimes I wonder
Will I ever be the same
Oh yeah, when you see me smile
You know
Things have gotten worse
Any smile you might see
Has all been rehearsed
Darlin', I can't go on without you
This emptiness won't let me live without you
This loneliness inside me darlin'
Makes me feel not alive, honey
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
I got to have all your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'

Busy

So busy.
I have done an entire Web Project, or should I say a multi-media project for English 355 and I am still in the process of typing out 5 assignments for P.S.

I then have a Biology final to take tomorrow...as well write 9 summaries on the environment.

O joy......
I wanna die...

So 4-give me I most likely wont be updating anything of interest 4 a few days...

Such is the life of a college grrl on the verge of an emotional breakdown.

Kidnapped

Last night I was trying to concentrate on my studies. For the most part I was pissed. Pissed @ my Printer. It wouldn’t print. I tried everything......I did. looked in the manual. did the software checks......all of it...........the paper was going through, but once it came through the other end......there was absolutely nothing printed on the paper.......I was not happy. Then the paper jammed.........ok........now what!? I look into the printer.......and there.......where you feed the paper.....was my black hair scrunchie.......O gosh!. How did you get in there?...I had found the printing jamming culprit! I nabbed the scrunchie....tucked it in my pocket.......(for later use, of course) and printed a test page. 'volia!!!

Printing malfunction fixed..

After I had brilliantly fixed my printing malfunction.... N2 called me......she bought a new car.....wanted to swing by and show me......sure......y not? So here she comes....shows me her new 2004 Mazda......very nice ride BTW.....then proceeds to tell me I should accompany her to her house for Poker night........they do poker night every Friday night........I start to say n...b4 I can finish she says...."oh just for a minute.......it will be fun" I say "I don’t know how to play poker!" ( I know how to play strip poker, and I have never lost!).......anywayz.........she wont take no for an answer and nabs me. We then arrive at her house......and Willard and Israel try to explain to me the rules of Texas Hold em'......I ask for a book.........like the scholastic genius I am...so as to get familiar with the rules and such......Israel makes me a cheat sheet....which only gets ink all over me......he used a permanent marker which was permanently all over my arm.....ok… there were a total of 6 of us.......Aim her BF Tantrum, Nice Guy.,N2, Willard and myself.......we all sit and play poker......I did rather well.........made it to the last round.............when N2 decides to leave and visit her mother who had just returned from Las Vegas........”this family is full of gamblers I'm thinking”........so she leaves me......*sniff*...But....I do OK........then the boys want beer. I call N2.........she comes home with beer and mother in tow......mommy is wasted from her trip back from sin city........we then decide to go to mums pub..(she owns a pub).......so N2, myself, and mum all arrive at the pub......I order a beverage ...N2 does as well.....now it doesn’t take N2 much to become intoxicated........2 drinks and she is rubbing her face and making faces in turn making me laugh so hard I am falling all over myself.........well in the process of laughing…. this man.....BI GUY ....comes over and starts chatting us up. Seems N2 knows him from playing poker at another establishment...well he is a balding, no wait, he is bald.......average looking effeminate man........my gadar is just off the charts with this guy.......he is staring at me and then asks if he can join us........N2 who is pleasantly buzzed at this point says "sure".....I give her that "I am going to kill u look"...she ignores me......Grrrrr.......ok here he comes......sits next to me and begins asking me if I am in love.....as he would like to take me out sometime...........I ignore him...I was then rubbing my neck as I had a kink and he begins to rub it for me..........Willard and the gang had arrived by this time and he is just a laughing at me as I have this look of fear and confusion on my face......who said he could touch me? OMG!!! So I then politely tell him I am fine......he says OK HONEY...o boy........I then excuse myself.........he asks N2 if I am involved... she lied for me......thank God.......as when I returned I told him that no I am not in love, but involved...with Israel!!! Israiel was all to happy to be nominated….big grin on his mug now……...... hey I lied....but can u blame me? BI GUY was a nice guy, but......not my cuppa tea...
So the night ended very soon afterward............all had fun.......and next weekend the gang and I are celebrating completing my first year at WSU.

Moving on........

I get up this AM....making coffee.......minding my own p's&q's....when I hear screaming from next door.........my aunts place..........I run to the back to hear Lyndy threatening KuntJoy with physical violence.......I am turning and heading next door to find out what’s what when in walks Mr.C.........he then tells me that Lyndy has hit Aunt L , knocking her down and giving her a shiner. I don’t care to hear anymore and immediately call the police. I am on the phone with them when I see KuntJoy out front on the phone with the police as well............after I make the report I walk out in time to see the sheriffs walking up with a machine gun "I am not kidding….a machine gun"....asking "Where's the Gun!!??"........what gun?............KuntJoy tells them he has it and not to worry but to arrest Lyndy.....WHAT GUN!!!??????.....Apparently after Lyndy hit aunt L she went and got her gun and was going after him........she wouldn’t give it to KuntJoy........it was Mr. C who convinced her to give him the gun....thank God.........as God knows what she would have done......turns out it wasn’t loaded, but still.......Ok......so let me sum this up........Lyndy is this 40ish yr old drunken loser guy that Aunt Glo has adopted as one of her projects. She seems to think she can fix him. Well he has been nothing but trouble since he came on the scene a yr ago......but Glo being Glo......she wont listen as we have all warned her he would one day physically hurt someone.........either KuntJoy or her............well..........I guess...unfortunately we were right.............as apparently he showed up at Glo's home this AM........intoxicated........and proceeded to start arguing with Aunt L.......she then proceeded to pack up her belongings as she was going to a motel.........when the altercation took place.........she said something to him........he hit her.......she is a 67 yr old women prone to heart attacks. (he’s a daisy huh?)...well this is when she grabs the gun and well.....i have divulged the rest...

The police hauled off Lyndy and all was well once again at my Dysfunctional families residence. I haven’t been back to see how everyone is doing. seeing how KuntJoy is back from treatment ( he made it a whole 36 hours this time........tis a record) I figure he can handle the situation.....

Wow.......

My life is never dull.........or should I say my extended family is never dull……this is why I am so as my fandamily says “anti-social”……..this sort of rubbish tends to make me want to stay on my side of the fence…indefinitely..


I do have something that is making me Grin like a shot fox.......its a under-down... type of a Prezzy.........meaning a nice happening as of late....

coleyzzz