V day

Happy V Day!!!

So here it is....Hallmarks favorite time of year..... I have a bit of history for all those Die-Hard romantics out there........

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

This one is my favorite...


According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl -- who may have been his jailor's daughter -- who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.


http://www.historychannel.com/exhibits/valentine/?page=history


I do love legends.........and I, myself.....am......... to some extent a sappy romantic......as of late I haven't been.....but usually I am.......anywayz.......I thought I would send a Happy Valentines Day wish to all of those Bloggers out there.....

Moving On......


Speaking of V day...."sounds like a venereal disease doesn't it?....Hey Sara!! Did you get that V Day taken care of yet????!"

k.

I have been for some bloody reason listening to the most sappiest music ever made....I know its due to me watching that damn VH1 show......100 worst love songs or somethin.......so I have been listening to Color Me Bad.....(I seen them actually) ummmmm Michael Bolton and get this.....AIR SUPPLY.....HAHAHAH.(I'm all out of love....I'm so lost without you)....I laugh my ass off .......but ...hey....I know all the words....Don't we all? I mean......hey kids.......... somewhere along the line these fools sold millions of records.....so we can make fun all we want.....I have a feeling their the ones who are having the last laugh.....


Tis my lil Valentines Rant....

I must be off......Its work out time......and then I am off to buy a new vacuum....I Finally convinced my brother that WE NEEDED a New Hoover........I cannot stand not having a properly working Hoover.......lemme see........then I am off to tan......and buy some nicotine patches.....this smoking HAS got to stop......I feel so fucking guilty every time I do smoke and its really gotten out of control since I moved here.......I mean I have smoked on and off for about 12 yrs......but the last 8 months have been the worst....I am up to about 6-8 smokes a day.....sometime more......and I can just imagine what I am doing to myself.......not nice.....so I am going to bite the bullet (or patch).....and quit............the time has come....


Ok then.....

Have a great day......


Ciao

Let it show

Tonight was an interesting night to say the least........I spoke with just about every friend I have back home . Lets see I spoke with Clogs,Jonny,Patti Anne, and of course Binks.......had a lot of laughs and the occasional serious chit chat.......I must admit it was good to talk with Clogs as I haven't spoken with her since I left in August.....seems she is in the midst of a separation with her hubby......but it seems that this is a good thing......so I wish her well. I didn't get to speak with Suzilla.......although I would have liked to........so I am hoping she will call me ASAP.....as there was an incident this evening that I am curious to see if it was in the end OK...I also spoke with Jonny and I was happy to talk with him.....as yet again I hadn't spoken with him since Aug. He sounds well and life is treating him well.........so all in all I did get to talk with most of my good friends.....even Patti Anne who informed me that she is sending me a package for V Day.....of course she wouldn't tell me what it is......I hate that........but I am grinning.....from ear 2 ear..... as I write this....... as getting gifts from your pals is alwayz a great feeling.......

Moving on....

work went well tonight....poor fairy grrl was a bit hung over but she managed to make it through the shift in one piece.......better her than me......o man do I remember the days of working with the rembrants of the night b4 lingering on.....the haze....the cold sweats......the cotton mouth......the unhappy disposition......o boy do I remember........and memories thankfully are enough to remind me not to consume the night prior to a shift......but when your 19 like fairly grrl.....well u really don't think about the repercussions........Its the fun your having that matters.......not the day after...... but isn't that way it is ..........

yip

SideNote
If this contact doesn't stop drying out and buggin me I WILL scream.

lil bugger

ok
Just had to get that out......


Well V day is fastly approaching ...........so for all the die hard romantics....... I hope Mr. Cupid finds ya........... and pokes ya .............in all the right places.....

;)


I must be off to bed........

But B4 I go........

I just want to send my love to all my buds tonight..... and let them know that I miss them ALL terribly.....it is so true that old saying "You don't know what you have until its gone" .......well that couldn't be more true for me tonight.....as since I have moved I have realized how.....so very much ....I miss my friends in Portland..........and talking to them makes me feel sad and happy all @ once......but thankfully...... I will be able to see them all next month when I return for a visit....... and that my friends is a great feeling....Knowing that no matter where I go...or where they go......we can always find the time to talk and on occasion......spend a few days together.....




Ok then......

that's all folks

nite

Working My life away

So here I am working on a Sat. I know I shouldn't bitch, lots of folks have to work on a Sat. but I feel as if I have paid my dues with working weekends.....I truly do..

So I just finished my workout and I need a shower........feels good to work out.....I find if I don't do it on a semi-daily basis I don't feel right...........

Well I best be off...........

Oh and for all of those folks who think I write in code...well tis not a code...I write in this manner to mostly protect my friends identity and I don't necessarily want to divulge my whole life for the world to read......this site is purely for amusement ONLY....

My amusement for the most part...

;)

Keep it real

ciao

Insulation Wake Up

I am sleeping.....Soundly.......having nice dreams....well I think I was........and all the sudden.......BANG BANG RATTLE RATTLE CRASH !!!!!
I wake up in a start. ..... "WA FU?" so....Sleepy eyed and Pissed off I open the curtain to witness a whole strew of men on my front lawn......seems they are here to re-do the insulation and clean the heating vents or some such shit. Well that's great......will help on the heat bill......but as for the timing. 7am?
Oh Hell no!
Needless to say I sleepy walked and mumbled myself to the couch and promptly fell back asleep until the 'ol alarm clock went off ........nice way to start me Friday.

So I seen that O'l Prince Charley is going to re-marry. Doesn't that mean he will give up the throne? Or being King? hehehe.......... lil royal humor there......Anyways........I love the Brits...I am what you would call an anglophile........One who admires England, its people, and its culture. So I shall be following this story quite closely......yes indeed.

I received a nice voice mail from a certain someone........ummmmm...seems I made a deal of some sort.......so I have to make things right and do my part sometime soon ......so.......I will have to work on that...

I must be off.......work out and post my web page...I really need to start watching the news again.......I have not a clue to what's going in the world...........I used to be on CNN headlines news email thingy.....where I would get all the current updates.......I need to get meslef back on that neat lil dealy..

ok then




Happy Friday to Y'all!!!

Ciao

Lack of communication

Things are about the same with me.......I am in the process of making a multi-media argument for my English course.....I have a thesis so all I have 2 do is sit down and fix my images and argument into a web page that I have been building for the past few weeks........pretty gravy.

I had a not so good conversation last night with someone.....Y is it that when you try to be as honest as possible and explain what you can and cannot offer it isn't good enough? I like this person a lot and would like to keep a relationship going, but I just cannot commit my entire life away @ the moment or be something I'm not at the present time. I am extremely stretched to the limits with school....work ......and taking care of the house and the brother..........so u know......@ the end of the day......... if I am not wanting to scream and kickfight the cat... I really just want to melt into my covers and sleep my life away..........I don't know why this is so hard to understand........Perhaps the age difference is a factor and the fact that this individual doesnt have any real responsibilities @ present......Maybe?

I don't know.......

wish I did.....I also wish this didn't have to be so flipping hard......cos I don't remember relationships being so difficult.....well one was........kinda......o...... fuckity fuck fuck......

ok ....thats me Bloggy 4 2day........thank you for letting me express me thoughts......I'll be here all week...


I must be off to the Job........I am working today, tom, and Sat.

can you feel the love?


ciao

Pet Peeves

Ok so I am driving around today and I was rather irritated so I decided when I returned home I would make a list of things that really BUG me....so here goes.......


(This list isn't in order of irritability......the irritability is all equal)



1. Writing emails to friends and getting no reply. I mean the whole point of writing an email is to basically ask "hey....how the hell are ya?" right? So if one sends someone an email...the polite thing 2 do would be to answer it.......well that's Coley's law of ethical email behavior.

* If I receive an email from someone and I don't reply.......then that basically means I don't want to have any type of communication with that individual...so for those who keep sending me email....and I don't write back...well......now you know why....

hmmmmmm now that I think about it.......perhaps Coleys law applies to those to whom I am not getting responses from......well....

F**K U2!!
;)


2. People who cannot drive......nor adhere to the laws concerning pedestrians.....or for that matter...... pedestrians who don't adhere to the law. Example- Today I was driving downtown and this older guy walks directly out in front of me and another vehicle with out even looking.....the crosswalk was about 30 feet behind him....he could have easily used it.....as that's what its there for......but oh no.......he just trots on out in the middle of the street........irritability level on that lil happening would be in the RED ZONE

3. Backstabbers- Individuals who don't have the balls to say what they want to say to your face and so resort to saying things behind your back........hey.... we are all guilty of this .....but I, myself...am one of the people that will tell you to your face what I feel.........I am finding this behavior is especially high in the nursing profession...as for the most part....... the % of female employees is especially high.......so of course the gossip level goes up with the % of female employees....

Just the facts Ma'am


4. POP UPS!- I have to say the RED ZONE isn't red enough for these annoying fuckers! I have tried just about every little software package known to Geek Dom......with no real relief..........they are extremely annoying........

5. SPAM- see above

6. Liars/Thieves- I don't think I need to elaborate on these types. They speak volumes with their despicable actions......

7. People who smack their food while eating- Ummmmmmmm.......tis gross and rude.....CLOSE YOUR MOUTH......I know someone in specific who I am directing this at.....he will sit and SLOP AND SMACK his food.....all the while........talking to you.......and your just sitting there with this look of disgust and disbelief on ur face......and he is oblivious to why.......
nice.....well...........no its not....

8. Slowness in people- I am naturally a very impatient person.......comes with being a Capricorn I suppose.....but if I am in line and the checker is standing around picking their ass or just slow.........I am about ready to climb the walls...........Pick up the pace people!

9. Clingy people- Ok I am not a very tactile person unless I am involved with you.....I don't hang on people and don't like being hung on......u know that one person in your life who just HAS to hang on you while talking to you or touch you or be in your face while talking to you. Like the Seinfield CloseTalker guy? I always want to say "hey...this is my space......and this is your space......don't invade my space and I wont be inclined to destroy your space". Thank you

10. Last but not least....Reality TV.....I mean come on!! They have a show for...... literally everything in life. I think it is a bit much........people need to spend a little more time working on their own "reality" and not so much time obsessed with people they don't even know ...nor ever will ......

So that's my lil list.......I know I am not perfect nor do I want to be......I enjoy having faults...well.....I mean I am glad to know I have them as it makes me human and therefore......I can work to become a better person......so in knowing this I will try and work on what Peeves me.......if people wont be so damn BUG!


I must work out and get some Homework done.....


catch ya later


Toodles...

So cool

I love my new Blog.....tis so fucking cool........it is it is...........

So I haven't updated anything on here in a few days so where o where do I begin?

Nothing much new has been a goin on in me life as of late to tell u true........last night after work I went out with N2 as her mother owns a pub in the Heights....so we shot a couple games of stick and called it a night.......I talked with lil shockeroo for a sec and we are on the same page as of today.....which is always nice....lemme see.........my freak cousin Toad had my Aunt call me over 8$ I owe him.......yes that's right......8 W H O L E dollars.......so I just dropped off a 10 spot and she glared @ me as if I was the anti-Christ.......Don't u just love it when the family takes shit to the extreme? I mean really.......lets call the Uunt so she can get me to pay a debt that I had spaced out...... so now everyone can think I am the biggest cheapscate and yadda.... yadda... yadda .......whatever.......lovely..........GROW UP TOAD!!!!!

Moving on.........

Work is work.......Fairy grrl came into work to help ME ( me......cos ......well its me....) out tonight which I thought was extremely sweet...as it was her day off.......and wouldnt u know it....she came anyway cos like I said.....it was ME..( Yes.....folks its all about ME)......

I got to see the car I want to buy....tis a sweet ride...but alas....I Don't think it is meant 2 be.......so I am still a shopping for some wheels........I am taking my time........I will continue to drive the Honda ......is my brothers but in my name so I guess its OURS..........for now.....

School is going really well.......I have a ton of work 2 do tomorrow..........but its a cinch.........just reading and a writin..........oh joy....

I finally got me hair done the RIGHT way.....went to the same gal as b4 and told her what I wanted and she complied and did a fabulous job.....so I am wayyyyyyyyy Blonde again......well for a few days until it calms down.......but I am happy.........

Lemme see ........what else???????

ummmmmmmm

well..........

hmmmmmmmm

I guess that's it........4 now

Oh

I love 5 layer dip from IGA.........well the local IGA here.........I LOVE IT!! I am eating it now..........ohhhhhhhhh yummy

ok then........

I best scat

I shall Blog again .........Real soon

Stay Tuned..

;)

Ciao

New look

Well wadda ya think?

I got the idea to change from a good friend of mine......Although I pretty much tweaked me new Bloggy background all by meself........

I like it.........pretty coo

I must take me leave.......hafta work out and go 2 work.......


peace,love,dove


ciao

The big Numb

I venture out to see the new Dentist this morning for Part 1. of my cleaning and boy wasn't it a hoot! Firstly I had new dental hygienist lady to whom I had to explain that I am the biggest wiener in the world when it comes to me toothies. She thought we were going to do the WHOLE cleaning all at once.......ummmmmm that would be a NO.....a big NO....so she begins with giving my the laughing gas.....at an extremely high level so..... I .......of course have this huge perma grin going.....she then proceeds to give me about 5 shots of the numbing concoction on me upper and lower gums and begins the cleaning......I felt NOTHING.....but the sound was Horrible........I guess 4.5 years of plaque does sound horrible when its being SCRAPED off of your teethes and gums.......
So she finishes and by this time I can no longer form a coherent sentence and I sound like that retarded fool off of Crank Yankers.....but worse.......so I say "sthank Thyou.....I sthank" and head off home.......where I am met by My cousin who of course gives me the bushiness telling me I look like I had a stroke and so on............I am extremely numb, but still feeling the pain of being attacked orally by dental tools......so My cuz gives my a pain killer and I head off to work.......great.......I cannot talk.....everything is really funny......and I am stoned.......fun fun.........so work needless to say was rather funny and pretty entertaining.....Part 2. of my cleaning isn't until the 17th and I requested that day off........smart move I believe.....and the smarter move I believe is to have the toothies cleaned every 6 months as recommends by every dentist in the country!

I talked with Suzilla for quite awhile last night and thankfully and FINALLY she is moving home........YES!! So as soon she is all settled I will be
heading home for a visit.........I cant wait....

I must end this now.......I have a hair appointment in the morrow......which I am hoping will be painless and un-numbing........although laughing gas would be a bonus.........well maybe not.......my luck I would be laughing and the girls in the shop would think it was directed at them and bla bla bla bla...........better to leave the laughing gas for the tartar police...


Ciao babes

Nomalization

Things have gone back to normal pretty much in mife...(mylife)

1. Mr. C and I finally talked.....well I bit the bullet and did the right thing...Apologized for being an ass and he accepted, BUT he did say I had a right to say what I said, just could have done it at a more appropriate time........so thankfully........all is well again with him and I. He picked me up @ work tonight and bought me Chinese for dinner.....way sweet.......so I feel oh so much better about everything....... 'sigh'

2. Work is still an ify situation........Tissue......she is this girl that is extremely BUG.......well she worked tonight with N2 and myself.....well she (Tissue) doesn't like me talking to N2 and so things always seem to be a bit tense....Y she feels this way I dont know....well I do as N2 mentioned a few things...but thats a different story...anywaaaayyyy......I told another co-worker tonight I felt as if I was back in hig school with all this melodrama goin on......she agreed......anywayz......I will be transferred out of there here in the next week or so......so that should be Coolio

3. School is actually plugging along.......I received an invite to go to Olympia on the Universities account to do a meet-n-greet type of deal........meet other students and prospective employers......Don't know if I will go ........its in Olympia.....but it was nice to have the invite.

4. My cousin and I are getting along mucho better these days.........him and I will be watching the Bowel together this weekend as Mr. C is spending it with Q Dog........I am making my home made Chili for the occasion.......should be a good time.

5. I am working out religiously......and I am finally liking the results....... ;)

6. Suzilla is no longer mad @ me for standing her up last weekend......I will however try and make it up to her by visiting ASAP!

All in all ........I would have to say things are OK DOKEY.....I am glad.......for awhile there it was touch and go.........and I hate that!

Ok then......


Side Note

* I feel as if there is a big emptiness though........

.......I am hoping time will make this easier to endure.

....if memory serves.........it usually does.. its just in the meantime.......thats a bitch...

yip

A really big bitch.....



ok then......


I must take me leave 4 now



tootles

Sidebar

My flippin sidebar is still all buggered up!!!

Thats really all I have today............

cept' people keep calling me and hanging up........and thats not nice!

Ok then

I am off to the jobola

ciao!

End Justifies the means

Today was a so so day........I went to work and after last week with all the drama I asked for a transfer which, I received......... and then wouldn't you know it everyone flipped out when I told them I was leaving..........but alas.......tis to late .....I am still moving to another sector, I need a break..

Today I had to say something to someone that I didn't mean......well to be honest I lied.........but I lied cos in the end it will be for the best.......but I hate having to do things like that........but sometimes you have to do things you don't like in order to make things OK for all involved........

Regardless.........it still wasn't one of my finer moments....

As for the ongoing Saga with Mr. C.....still the same......

I am going to have some sghetti and watch the tube and call it a night.....

Tom. Is Bush's SOTUA.....

'yawn'

ciao babes

End of an era.....

Ok so I just finished watching the final episode of Sex and The City.......it ended exactly how I wanted it too.......I am just unhappy that its over.....as it is my fave show.....it is fabulous....anyway I had a few laughs and that was nice as I haven't been laughing all that much as of late.....

Things are still turbulent with Mr. C and I don't know if they will ever be the same....such is life..

I am right now making Spaghetti....and reading my P.S Textbook.......I do love politics.......I should have went to law school...its what my mother wanted me 2 do..........but......oh no I had to go into a field that is now pretty much obsolete.........well........my new degree should pay off in the end or I will have to be a bit pissy.....

Well then I shall call it a blog and check out

ciao

I really have no thoughts on a title.....

Hey

So I am surfing along and came across a Blog that I have been reading on occasion......and well I came across a rather interesting diet.....I must say I found it rather intriguing and thought I would share it with y'all

Try This Now!
After sitting in my lecture class for Physical Education, I decided that it was time for a new diet to compensate for the lack of sleep I am having over this prank war. It can be summed up in two words: caffeine Fasting. This is how it works-Begin a daily regimen of 4 cokes in the morning with 4 cups of coffee. For lunch you have 5 mountain dews and dinner is comprised of 3 Pepsi in addition to your normal amount of food. If you get hungry in between meals, eat a Nestle's Crunch or a Surge. If need be, for faster weight loss, supplement a drink with a diet pill. After being on this diet for only 2 days, sometimes a mere 4 hours, one will immediately experience the benefits of this program. These benefits include more energy than you've ever experienced and the time to get everything you wanted done. Without the need to sleep, your productivity will sky rocket. You can run faster and jump higher because you won't be able to feel anything. Like any diet though, side effects may occur. These include horrendous nightmares, kidney stones, hallucinations, tremors, bi-polar symptoms, loss of appetite, frequent urination, male erectile dysfunction, bouts of anger, increased perspiration, dementia, loss of identity, shortened attention span, shortened life span, and death. However, let not these symptoms deter you for the benefits far out weigh the side effects in the short run and isn't the now more important anyway.Soon this new diet will make landfall in America from Europe. Laugh all you want but the Hollywood Diet is pretty big (aka bulemia) and this isn't any worse.

Caution: This diet is extremely useful and should be used by everyone.

http://djzeke.blogspot.com/

Prett groovy eh?

Moving on.......

Today was rather uneventful........went to work......worked....came home.....ate some tacos.....watched Fear Factor and now I am just surfing.......speaking of Fear Factor......I was talking to Mr. C about this sick twisted show.....and I asked him....."Hey.....would you eat that weird shit for 50 grand?" He goes......."Well yea.....although I would hurl within .5 seconds, but I would try it".... I go "Well I wouldn't put that shit in my mouth......hell no......cos like you I know damn well I would blow chunks and knowing I would puts things in perspective......cos I I know I would lose the $ so y put the nasty factor snacks in my mouth".

I mean really........if you know you cannot win.....What's the point of putting Pureed bulls testicles with a twist of hog snot in ones mouth? Fuck me running......I don't know.........but it sure is fun to watch those 20something hard bodied morons do it....

well with that I shall call it a Blog and check out........

I shall try and Blog about something worthwhile tomorrow........like an update in IRAQ and such.....but dammit that's depressing.......but it is necessary to know what's going on.......I truly feel the better informed one is the more free one is.........more free to come to ones own opinions/thoughts on any said subject...

ok then

BTW

I am not happy about my Blog...for some God blessed reason my Profile is clear down at the end of my page now when it should be right up on top to the right.....I have looked at the code and compared it to other Blogs similar to mine......to no avail.....I just sent an email to the Blooger Gods to see if they can sort it out......I dont like it....I liked it the way it was and I want it back dammit.....NOW!!

So if anyone out there who might be reading this might know what has happened to my broken Blog....could you let me know....cos i dont like my Blog when its broken......

tanks

hehehe

ciao babes

Pain in the butt!

That's right......she is a pain in the butt!!! Domino is......my kitty.....well my brothers kitty.... well.....now she really isn't his kitty anymore as she follows me everywhere and insists on sleeping with me now.......but tonight.....gosh.......she is REALLY a pain in da butt. She wont STOP bugging me.....has to sit on my lap.....and I am trying to type a paper.......do you think she cares.......hell No! I have tried petting her....putting her in Mr. C's room....feeding her.......nuthin works.....she has to be where I am....for the most part..... and tonightis no exception....its just now she has to be ON me.......lil shit.....but I have to admit I love her so much....love my pussy....my pussy....pussy cat...she is my babyz..

Ok.....moving on.....

Today was an uneventful day....Finished my assignment........made tacos.......ummmmmm......thats about it.......fucking cat........she is sleepin on my hand so I have one hand to type with........man......Kats!

Well...tommorrow Bush will be inaugurated for another fabulous 4 yrs......I am so thrilled I could just spit......

Well I best go....I am very uncomfy @ the moment.....

catch ya on the scanner!!!

Ciao

Rice fever

So I am reading the CNN news today and I see that Rice is a lil pissy.....she looks like she wants to kill California Sen. Barbara Boxer to whom she was answering questions during Rice's confirmation hearings this week.She is being confirmed into the Secretary of State position....replacing Colin Powell. They had a pretty heated exchange ......Here's a sample of the lil conversation.

This is a pattern here of what I see from you," Boxer said. "It's very troubling. ... It's hard for me to let go of this war because people are still dying." She said Rice has not acknowledged those deaths, has not laid out an exit strategy for Iraq and has been unwilling to admit mistakes -- including going to war over weapons of mass destruction found later not to exist.
Rice insisted the war in Iraq was not launched solely over WMD. Saddam Hussein, she said, welcomed terrorists, attacked his own neighbors and paid suicide bombers in the conflict between Israel and Palestinians.

http://www.cnn.com/2005/ALLPOLITICS/01/18/rice.confirmation/index.html

I have to agree with Boxer on this one......Rice seesm so cold and without emotion when it comes to Iraq and her support of Bush's war policy. When Boxer attached her on these points ... Rice went on to say.... "I have to say that I have never, ever, lost respect for the truth in the service of anything," She later told Boxer, "I really hope that you will refrain from impugning my integrity."

Integrity?

What?

Sorry?

right...

ok...

moving on......

I had me eyes examined and got me new eye enhancers and picked out some new frames for my spectacles.....very nice.....Guess what kind they are.......I bet you cant GUESS........

:0

anyway......I can see clearly now the blur is gone......also while I was out yesterday I bought a membership to Costco......and proceeded to spend entirely to much $$....but we now have enough laundry soap and fabric softener to last until the New Year.....which is always good.....

I am off to work now

You kids play nice now........ya hear!

Ciao

Ever wonder?

Ever wonder how some people can be so stupid and others can be so smart? I was thinking that today when I posted a question on the Politcal forum site I am a member of......I basically asked what everyone thought of the Bill that is being passed in Virginia regarding the miscarriage deal I blogged about here last night.....and basically everyone took it completely out of context and turned it into a debate about abortion and abandonment.......which in turn resulted in my lil question being posted in the Abortion part of the forum.....so needless to say I never did get the results I wanted on my Poll.....well.....a few people did reply in the manner I was seeking........anywayz........just made me wonder how and why certain people cant just answer a simple question without turning it into something it isn't.......I mean really........I have that problem with Shocker all the time.......ask a question or say something and it turns into something else.......... regrdless......I was hoping to have a fair and honest debate regarding the privacy/rights isuues of women when it comes to Bills such as these......but in the end all I got was how horrible abortion/abandonment is......not very nice topics to use as a distraction(s) in order to NOT answer a question.......you think?

Moving on......


Today was a good day..(notice I saved that lil "good day" remark for the end of the damn day?).....I received my new leather jacket...I am very happy with it....tis a very classy and tasteful coat........lets see......bought 2 new pairs of sneakers......Nike and Reebok.....for work and just for working out........let me see........did the laundry and cleaned the pad......I am now just surfing and reading about current events while I wind down......Tomorrow I need to read a few chapters in my text books and get some homework done.......watch the NFL playoffs......which I did today as well......I was rooting for the Jets, but the Steelers won in OT.....dammit.......so tomorrow I am rooting for .....well not 2 sure....I usually root for the underdogs.....as my team didn't even come close to the playoffs......the 49ers......I love em......although they suck ass these days...... I do know I will be rooting against the Patriots....I am sick to death of the Patriots.....blah




Well I am gonna call it a night......its a short/boring blog tonight...I know.....but better than nothin


ciao 4 now

Life and all its wonderful BS

I am completely and utterly baffled....I really am........check this out


From the Democratic Underground's top Ten Conservative Idiots:

# 3 John Cosgrove

If Virginia Delegate John Cosgrove has his way, failing to report a miscarriage to the police within 12 hours could land you a fine of $2,500 or up to twelve months in jail. Don't believe me? Think it couldn't happen here? Think again. Cosgrove's bill says, "When a fetal death occurs without medical attendance, it shall be the woman's responsibility to report the death to the law-enforcement agency in the jurisdiction of which the delivery occurs within 12 hours after the delivery. A violation of this section shall be punishable as a Class 1 misdemeanors." That's right, folks - after four years of George W. Bush, it's okay for the US attorney general to approve of torture, the government can secretly pay journalists to spread propaganda with your tax dollars, and it's a crime to not report a miscarriage to the local police department. But, uh, at least we're safe from terrorists or something.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/top10/index.html

link to the actual Bill. ( Yes folks, this isn't made up....its the real deal.....here is your tax money at work)

http://leg1.state.va.us/cgi-bin/legp504.exe?051+sum+HB1677)

so basically as a woman....what happens to my body is now the bizzness of everyone! If I or any other woman has to go through what is by far a very tragic and emotional situation such as a miscarriage......it can possibly be a crime if a woman doesn't report it.....as if the act in itself isn't horrible enough ....now a woman can be questioned as to if it was her fault......as trust me this is the reasoning behind such a Bill......or law....to question the woman's responsibility to herself while pregnant.....and if she deliberately caused the unfortunate miscarriage.......I mean for fucks sake people.....really.......I am just livid after reading this......now mind you I am not one to read nor visit this particular web site as I know that most of the population deem it as "liberal" which as I have written b4....is now like some evil plague if one is assocaited with being a liberal or if one has liberal views...ok sorry....I got sidetracked there for a sec......back to the origianl Bitch...I was where? ..oh yes...this story was actually sent to me.......and I checked to make sure it was indeed genuine....which it was...... I just cant believe that this is even being considered....What's next?....I cannot even begin to consider what's next ......and....oh yes.....annnnndd I have to add that if the man were the one having the children this shit WOULD NOT be happening.......its blatantly and obviously a way to take and strip away the rights of women in this country......which let me just say...... has taken the women in this country .......past and present .......years of constant fighting and struggling to be heard and seen.....with even an iota, a spec, a glimpse... of the respect that is automatically bestowed upon the men in this country......who by the way..... are the ones behind such ridiculously construed BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok....moving on.......although I am still ....................F*&*&*!!! Pissed off......

Tonight ......at work...... well .....it...... was truly a great night....had alot of laughs...although at times a few of my clients were a bit nuts...and thats putting it mildly..... very mildly....but.... all in all.... I had a good time......the grrls invited me for a night of bowling next weekend.......so that should be interesting(extremley so) as I have never bowled ( not once) in my whole entire life........although....Mamma B very happily told me that after a few.......its all good......she said "just throw the ball and see what happens"......well hell......I can do that........
well I think I can.....


On we go....


Suzilla called me to confirm that I am coming to visit this month......and yea I am.....soon as I finish this lil bloggy.... I am checking for da cheapo flights.....so I am thinking 2 weeks from today would be good.......should be fun.......she is pretty excited about me coming home.......home......well......my ex-home........so I am pretty jacked about the lil trip to Portland......a good time should be had by all.......

I am right at the moment listening to U2.....I absolutely adore this band.......I do I do........I truly think they are exceptionally talented and ridiculously cool......they to me are this generations Beatles.......I mean when I listen to them sometimes......I think I know what it must have been like to listen to Lennon and the Beatles in the 60's...I mean they just take me there......

I am on a quest to get every album they have ever put out.......legitimately....... I now have 3 .......and...... as I type.... have 3 on the way.......its a start.......

ok then.......I will leave it for now......and add more when I damn well feel like it..

;)

ciao babes

Over and Over

Yesterday I wrote ....I wrote "its been a good day up to this point" big Fucking mistake...oh yea.......jinxed myself I did....cos trust me after I wrote that everything went to shit.....in a big way.......

I went to work and proceeded to lock my keys in the locker and had 2 have Big Boy cut the lock....he actually went home for me to grab his bolt cutters......which was way sweet of him 2 do.....a big boy "thank you" to you sir.

Anywayz....... after that......... shit just went downhill.....I received a call from Mr. C and he..... well.....lets just say he is in some shit.....and I don't know if I can fix this...... ....he called me at work and then picked me up.....we had a drink after work and talked and I just sat there and looked at this defeated look in his eyes and I "of course".... told him it would be ok.......I would fix it.....but I honestly don't know if I can this time......and maybe I shouldn't...but we all Know that when it comes to Mr. Clinton I do everything and anything it takes to keep him safe and happy........anyway....so in the end that's what I will do....

Moving on.....

I have looked at my classes and figured out where I am as far as assignments.......and its all doable....well it always is....... I dont have all that much to do really.....5 exams....build a website......which I have done somewhere for a class @ PCC....just have to find the code......lets see...... and ALOT OF FLIPPIN writing......man....good thing I like to write.....good thing I am good @ it......cos let me tell you folks..... University is all about da Writing.......

I am listening to Nelly and Tim McGraws new tune Over and Over and I must say its really quite good......when I first heard that a rapper and cuntry singer were collaborating ( co-habitating?) ( J/K!!!!!) I was not to enthused but I must admit its a really good song...and fitting.......as shit just goes on Over and Over and Over and.........................................................

Sidenote

I did learn one small lesson...Never EVER write nor say its a "good day" @ the beginning of the day....best to leave that for the end of the damn day........for obvious reasons......


I will leave it at that.........

catch ya's lata

ciao

All me ducks in a row....

I am now pretty much set for school...just waiting for my books to arrive via the US Postal service....and then I can spend the day tomorrow getting all of my first assignments done.....today has been a pretty good day up to this point.....Received my check(s) so I have paid off of one of my credit cards and I am now purchasing some dental insurance so I'z can get my pearly's cleaned.....I also need to get my eyeballs examined....which I will do sometime this week....my brother is buying me this kick ass leather jacket I want for my b-day prez.......so I am quite pleased with that.........

My Landlord George sent me a letter offering me his home....well not literally....I must say I am extremely pleased and flattered .......he has a VERY nice house and he wants ME to rent it and watch it for him......see he is going over to assist in Tsunami disaster relief.......so 2 BIG BIG thumbs up to George.....I guess he was in the army at one time and he volunteered to go over......so I wish him much luck and a speedy and safe trip home once he has accomplished his goal...... as for the house.....I have to regrettably decline as its not in WA. state...and my brother needs to stay in WA...well for the time being......dammit...

ah well........


I must take a quick shower and head 2 work...........

catch ya all later

ciao

Taken it slow and easy......

Today I pretty much just hung around the house and did laundry and put away my clothes and such. Watched the Packers get their asses kicked @ home in the playoffs, and went to buy some steaks and salad for dinner......my brother is cooking them now as I type. I went out last night and did some much needed shopping as my wardrobe was in dire need of an update.......so I now have about 6 new sweaters/tops and shoes.......and other essentials......all courtesy of the Bon and Penny's......I feel better about leaving the homestead now......more in fashion....

I received a very interesting email from Binks today regarding my said trip to Portland...seems he is a bit concerned about Suzilla knowing I am coming back....well ummmmm....she should know as she is the one who invited me/convinced me to come back. I have not made definite plans......its just a thought as of right now.......it is still up in the air......I left a message for my concerned friend so hopefully he will call me and let me know what exactly the big worry is?

College resumes tomorrow and I have already taken a gander @ the syllabus.........all looks well.....

Update
Mr. Porcelain stopped by today to talk with my brother and I guess he wasn't feeling all that well when he woke up the other day......for reasons other than the mass consumption from the prior night. Seems his GF went out on him and confessed to him after he noticed a bunch of love marks on her neck....seems she had a night of "UH HUH!!!" with a girl she knows...I was a bit shocked as I have met her on several occassions and never had not so much of a bleep on my 'ol gaydar..........although she has told me I smell good on occasion.....so needless to say Mr. P isn't a happy guy..when women cheat with other women it seems to be a major blow for the male ego..unless .....of course ......they...themselves .......are involved in the menage a trois..

Regardless...

I think he will live.......Mr.C knows he will be OK...the incident didnt seem to take the wind out of Mr.P's sails for very long..as... I guess... he (Mr. P) has a thing for me according to my brother.........which is sweet......but......ummmmmmm no......sleeping with my la'toilet will be as close to me as he gets...
;)

Speaking of Mr. C he is a HAPPY HAPPY camper tonight as I just purchased 2 tickets for Motley Crue..(His ALL TIME Fave band from his mis-spent youth/adulthood)....they will be here in March and we now have front row seats.......yup....my lil bro is just a grinning from ear2ear now.....Dimples a glowin :)

Ok then.....I must sign off for now and eat me steak dinner.......

Stay Tuned

ciao

Good times, Good Job, Great Friends...ABFAB Brother!

Ok......Here we go.........

Today started out like something like this......

I was asleep....well in the process of waking up....and in walks my Aunt ..she was a shakin and crying...seems Miss Jack had called and upset her by saying she was coming over (to my house) to see my brother whether anyone liked it or not.....well Glo (Aunt) was Not a Happy Auntie...as Miss Jack is part of the reason for the madness @ X-mas and all the drama thereafter w/my bro and Kuntjoy......so I crawled out of bed and told her I would handle it......which I did. Called Miss Jack and told her to back off and chill out and leave my bro alone along with my family.......and she complied.....she is a smart lady.........

I then went to work.....where I had an excellent time with Mamma B and Fairy Grrl...or should I say Shroom Grrl now? heheh...anywayz........work went really well.....had alot of laughs.......and then when it was time 2 get off.....I was waiting for Mr. C to pick me up and after waiting about 2 minutes he comes a cruisen up with Mr.Porcelain.....(I will tell you why I call him that here in a few).....anyway they come driving up and I KNOW Mr. C is snockered......as well as Mr. P...I then proceed to tell my brother to let me drive and he of course says FUCK NO! I am nthot drunkth! Uh Huh I say........and proceed to start walking home......of course he comes to his senses and lets me drive us all home.........seems him and Mr. P spent the prior 4 hrs having a few woo hoo's @ the corner Pub....due to all the drama that has been goin with Miss Jack and Kuntjoy ( I cannot divulge what the said "drama" is at the present time....or any other time, just know its not "good" drama)......well ..now where was I? Oh yes......well.....we come home and I proceed to feed Mr. C so he will sober up.... Meanwhile... Mr. P kindly asks to use our bathroom...."Sure" I say..."of course".....well that was 3hrs ago.........seems he liked it so much he decided to camp out there for the night.....yea........okkkkk..soooo.....I have a very cute....very nice.. extremely drunk...guy..... passed out in front of my la'toilet......Mr. C and I have tried numerous times to get him 2 move to a more reasonable sleeping place to no avail......so there he lies...Mr.Porcelain.....lying face down on my bathroom floor hugging the cold white porcelain crapper.........

..............................ohhhhhhhh my my my......I am so glad I am sober....as...well I Want to remember this.......I do.. I do.....

hee hee

Moving on......

Suzilla called me tonight and we had a lot of laughs........I sure miss her.......and after ALOT of coaxing she has talked me into going back to Portland @ the end of Jan. for a weekend getaway........so I am looking forward to that.......I will be flying in......so it should be pretty gravy.

good times.

My throat feels mucho better today.....magic pills sure do help.....I am not sure what magic pills I am speaking of....the anti-biotic or the codeine......Either- Or.......tis all good....

I am going shopping in the AM........Mr. C handed me....well...... a C note......(kinda poetic aint it?) for me B-day and I am gonna hit the mall!..........

coo ;)


Well I shall end this........I actually have something else......something a bit more on the whiney side to blog about....but I am in a good mood and would prefer to leave the whine in the bottle tonight.......in all aspects...

so.....there you go.......



Aloha!!

Take bad with the good or is it...??

Well Today had its major highlights and a few downers as well.

1. My brother received some certain paperwork today that will ensure him tb financially OK for....well forever I think.

2. My advisor released me to register for Spring semester @ WSU....which was AOK.....so I did just that......I am taking some type of a Biology class, a Political Science course...which shall be awesome as I love politics and law, lets see....a class designed to enhance ones ability to communicate better via the Internet.....? Ummmmmm ok, but its a required class so I am taking it......and finally a Psychology class that focuses on human sexuality......so.....there you go...just now ordered me books so I am now all set to begin my next set of courses on Monday....I shall spend this weekend finishing up my History course from last semester....and I have a few assignments from my B.Law class as well........to be honest... I am actually getting rather phsyched up about school again......I really am.

3. I have strep throat.....

Yip.

I woke up this mornin to go with Mr. C to his appointment and I KNEW I had it.......looked at me poor lil throat and sure as shit......it was fire engine red and PISSED off!!! Strep has a taste too.....if you have ever had it.....then you know what I mean.......I had it really bad a few years ago.. and I will never forget that taste nor the razor blade feel you get when you swallow.....needless to say I went to the minor care place at the ER....where....beleive it or not.... they were really sweet to me.....cos to tell you true...I wanted to leave as they had me sit in an actuall ER room with all the ER gadgets......while I was sitting there I was thinking "I shouldn't be sitting in here taking up this space, someone else is more likely worse off than me and perhaps ...needs to be back here". So I went to tell the lady that......" hey.......you know I am ok......I don't wanna bother anyone"......she just smiled and laughed and told me to have a seat and the DR would be right in.....and sure enough he was.....nice DR too.....talked to me, not at me......looked @ me throat, confirmed my initial diagnosis......with his own....and sent me on me way with a script for some magic pills and a note 4 work....

sigh.

So there you have it......a few good things..and one not so good thing.......

OH......one more thing that isn't so great.....Kuntjoy.....tis a family member....well he needs to stop being such a bitch and grow some balls and be a man...........this whole mess with my brother and Miss Jack is getting old. How many times can one person apologize to another b4 all is forgiven? Obviously that would be ......NEVER....

ok then....

I am gonna lie down...have a painkiller :)

and watch a lil DVD.

toodles

The 5th

Well here it is....My B-day.....and once again I am wondering where the hell the last year went......????

And like every year.... I do a reflection type of dealy.........but this will be the first time I shall share it with the Blogger world....so........

Here goes.........

Jan. 2004 - Ummmmm I remember my B-day ....we.....Binks and I...... well.....we got off of work and he was giving me a lift home......I had stated all that day and night that I had no desire of celebrating....school had just started........but on the way home we went by the 'ol pub and he just gave me that shit eating grin.....and before you knew it......well...... we were saying good night or should I say.... good morning @ around 6am.......so much for no celebrating eh?

That's how last year started........for the most part nothing to exciting happened after that.......I was just biding my time for the BIG move back home to be with my brother.....see he had really gotten sick Dec. 2003....and I had received a phone call that he might not make it.....he had actually went into cardiac arrest ......and for a 28yr old......even if he is in renal failure.....is pretty damn scary.....I immediatley came home and spent a month with him.......and decided right then and there that I needed and Wanted to be with him......not 4oo miles away always worried.....so .....that was the plan for last year......

So...........I went to school.........hung out with my friends....every day....and focused on graduating .... I also applied for University.......WSU....I was accepted that April......I remember that day....I had come home for Easter and the letter had been sitting here @ my Aunts....my brother was so proud of me......as was my whole family....see I am the first one in my family to ever go to college or graduate with any type of a degree......and I did do just that........ in June.2004......graduated I did........first one in my family.....pretty big deal actually....

Anyway.....so I moved back home in June 2004....moved my brother and I into our own pad.....found a Job....and started on my next quest for a B.A @ WSU in August.....

I kept to myself for the most part after coming back......

'cept when I met Shocker.......which was "great".....

Still is......

The best part of last year?

Well.........

That would have to be....


Getting to see my baby bro everyday... which ..... for me .......is the greatest thing.......he makes me smile and keeps me in line like no other........I know how he is....... and I am here.....when he needs me....and he for me. Our relationship has always been the most important part of my life......even when I was away for 6 yrs......but I am back now.....I might not like this shitty tiny town but I look past it......look at the bigger picture......

So that my friends is last year.......

this year........


Well... only time will tell.......


Coleyz song for the day.....

Watching the Wheels

Lennon

love Lennon


alwayz will.........

here's to another year.......

Bored.....

I am so fucking bored it is unfuckingbeleivable......


I have been channel surfing and wondering around the house in a daze all damn day....

Any guess as to why???


.....my insomnia is back again....and with a vengeance.......

Just loving it.....

I am hoping to sleep tonight....I did sleep somewhat last night........but not really........tossed and turned and had weird dreams and shit.......I really need to go to Vegas and lay in the sun for a weekend......that I KNOW would make me sleep........maybe next month.....we shall see...

Anywayz.......

My brother is making me dinner.......and being extremely sweet......must be becos of my B-Day tomorrow.....or perhaps its just cos he is a good guy.......I believe it's more of the latter than the former......

I really have nothing else to blog about today......just tired......nothing new......

I did find a few quotes I liked........things I will use in the new year as a foundation for the way I shall approach my life and all that comes into it.




Real knowledge is to know the extent of one's own ignorance"-Confucius


"Failure is the foundation of success...success the lurking place of failure."-Lao-Tzu


I am off to eat and write a bit about the Koran.......and a few other exciting subject for my history class......

Oh joy.

Ciao

Back........

Well I am home......Good 2 b home.......

I had a good time......not sure what 2 write about it though.........not sure......

ever been in a place like that?

Where you just aren't to sure what to say nor think?

Well then......one would know exactly my predicament...

My B-day is in 2 days......and the more I think about it.......the less it bothers me....really.......I am quite happy with my life up 2 now....and my experiences and accomplishments.......I do know.... I don't...... and wouldn't....... re-peat the early 20's again........No......late 20's early 30's seem to be okay now.....4 some damn reason.... I seem to be embracing and enjoying this age shit....

My friends would say I am stoned if they read this....

I'm not.

Just reached a place where I would rather enjoy what I have and where I've been than to be so concerned and stressed about "age".........seems 2 B such a waste of time and energy...

Yup.




I am going to call it a Blog and check out........I shall think of more rhetoric ......if I can

Ciao babes

New Year

Well it is now officially 2005......

Thank GOD!!

Happy New Year to everyone........

Persistence pays off......

Well......My life is never dull.......and as of late that definition of my life could never be more true...

My brother is really sick again....and we shall see if he needs to be in the hospital here in the next few days.......I went into work tonight and my staff sent me home....I love those grrrls....they are absolutely the finest individuals I have ever had the honor to work with....so a big THANK YOU to all the grrls @ CC.

My shocking adventure has once again taken on something more electric than I had ever imagined.....talking til 6AM led to us finally making decisions of commitment which made everything more solid and stable....so that has made me very happy....and I am no longer running from it....Shocker just wont let me go.....so now......Shocker is stuck..poor poor Shocker

:)

I am getting my last assignments finished this evening so I can have a weekend without stress......and that way I can get registered for my classes and get my Degree before I reach 40......which would be really really neat , nifty, and nice ......if you know what I mean..

On a lighter note

I am terribly sorry to Binks and Patti Anne for not being a better friend the past week....I have been shall we say ....pretty fucking busy and a little well ALOT frazzled.....but I am back on track and hopefully all will be ok with Mr. C and school.......and all that happy crappy.....so Binks PLS Know I love you and I will call you......I promise........and Patti Anne thank you once again for always coming through for me when I need you.......you are my ROCK...

Ok then....
I shall be back @ a later time.......so stay tuned

ciao

In My Hayes

Hero
Darren Hayes & Robert Conley


Outside confidence is king
I am all that you're projecting
Inside feel the rising tide
And the revolution's deafening
I was trying to hide my opposing side
Trying to reconcile my Jeckyl and Hyde

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please

I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself


Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

Sometimes you put all of your desires in an object of affection
But in time because you idolize there is only disappointment

I was flying so high in your perfect sky
But I needed to fall
Cannot have it all

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please

I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself

Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please
I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself
Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

I don't need to compromis
I don't need to occupy the floor
There's a danger in boxing in my sin
And all that I am
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again(No, I am not open parts of me are broken)
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again(Why'd you want to bother find yourself another)

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please
I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken

Do yourself a favor save yourself
Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?

Find yourself another
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again



A dedication.....

Love Always...

Holiday.......

I am leaving on the 1st for a weekend getaway....just booked my travel plans and room......I am in dire need o fa getaway. I am working New Years Eve.....so I wont be going out......nor do I have any desire to go out........just me, myslef, and I for a weekend..........I am looking forward to it....

I am still fighting with my advisor over getting registered for Spring Semester....so I may not be going next semester...which I guess would be ok and then again not............I will know more tom.

I havent anything else to report other than I fianlly found my brother and brought him home Sunday night.......he is ok....well........as okay as he can be.....

I shall update again here soon

ciao 4 now

Madness...

THE DAY AFTER…

Here I am ... just finished cleaning, vacuuming, dishes, dusting, laundry...all of the fun domestic shit....

soooooooo

I am finally sitting down and relaxing a bit...I cant really divulge what happened on my X-Mas...just know it was madness and I didn't celebrate as my Brother left x-Mas morning...so needless to say I still haven't opened any gifts and I wont until I hear from him, if he ever comes home again......when he left he told me he wouldn’t be……I am hoping he was just angry….I know he was hurt…..anyway…….It is not like my brother to do that……this whole things has made me very.......... sad
yea......

so .
it was by far the worst x-Mas of my entire life........and I just wish my family could settle disputes in a better way.....what I would really like is if the people in my family would not act on their thoughts/feelings without thinking of the repercussions....That's what I would really like ....That's my New Years wish......

Ok well I received a nice morning message from Binks and he sounded VERY MERRY.... so I wanted to take a moment and wish him a great X-Mas and a very ABFAB New Year.... also let him know that I am ok...nothing to worry about......I have worked it all out...........

Well I think I am going to finish watching this flick I started last night and finish my laundry...and wait for Mr. C to call me.... if he will....
:(

PeaceI’m outy

Merry Christmas

Christmas Eve...wow where did this year go? Seems like they go by faster and faster.....

I must be off to the 'ol J.....I work tonight and then I will have X-Mas day with my lil Bro and the rest of the fandamily.....

So I hope you all have a fabulous Holiday and Santa brings ya's whatcha wished 4!

Happy Holidays...

always right

I wrote yesterday that I felt something was amiss......that the electricity in my shocking adventure had been reduced to a voltage that that was hard to detect.......and if I must be honest here...I liked the electricity......ALOT.....well seems that I wasn't wrong and that things have changed and pretty much I guess that's where its at.....I left it like that.......I knew eventually this would happen, I would open myself up and WHAMO!! I would end up getting hurt or told......"well....you know its like this"......yea I know what its like.....all to well...I was hoping I wouldn't have to revisit the land of You-Know-What-Its -Like....I really was hoping this might be the one. Guess now I will never know and I will forever wonder......so that being said I am going to get ready for work and get my mind off of things.......best thing to do now is stay busy and keep my mind occupied.....yea should be easy.....sure thing

right.


I shall end this now and call it a Blog

Side Note

My heart and prayers go out to the soldiers who were wounded and killed in Iraq a few days ago......I wish I had the words

I don't.

ciao

All that's left is the rip-n-tear

Ok so I finally did it! I shopped and shopped and all but dropped......all is done including the wrapping...well all 'cept the baby outfit I bought....but other than that I am FINITO!!

YES!!

Another season done....all that's left is the opening and the ooohhhhhiiiiiiing and aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhing.....which of course...is the best part. I did it all in one place too! Well I hit the mall and only needed to go to 3 stores... The Bon, Penny's....and some other place...of course the name eludes me @ the moment...anywayz.....I am quite pleased with my purchases and very pleased that I didn't go over the 400$ mark...veddy nice ...plus...its way nice for me wallet.....another bennie issss I bought my self a gift as well...what the hell.....my B-day is in a few weeks.....so figured I might as well.....

I am in love with Burberry...tis a perfume I wear and ONLY Burberry......I was in Vegas a few years back and happened on a fragrance that Burberry makes and FELL IN LOVE.......only I could never remember the name of it until tonight.....while I was @ The Bon I was checking out the smelly section and 'voila.....there was my Burberry.....and 'voila again.....there was the fragrance that has been evading me for the last few years......I found out that it is called "Brit" which is rather fitting as it is made in London......so I tested some.... but being the ass I am I decided to buy my stand by the original Burberry....but.....always a but..... I had sprayed the Brit on me wrist so while I continued on my shopping spree I kept on smelling meself....until finally...... I couldn't take it no more( that is meant in a good way....) and went back and bugged the sweet and patient Sales lady for an exchange...(and of course... by this time I had already lost the receipt for the purchase that I had made..lets see....not 20 minutes b4....uh huh...so typical...ok back to the tale at hand)...so after I made my FINAL DECISION...me and Brit walked out together ......very happy :)

ok then...


.....I have been feeling strange today.......I don't feel like things are as shocking as they once were for some reason.....cant put my finger on it......just that something feels amiss......maybe last nights chat carried its strange remnants over til today....hard to say........but time will tell.....

Ok....so Now I must clean up the bits and pieces from the wrapping party I just had......and as a side note I wrap presents like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum......I am HORRIBLE!! I have no artistic wrapping qualities whatsoever....I shoulda had the wrappers @ the mall do it but I was in no mood to stand in line .....which now that I think of it......the lines tonight weren't all that bad....and everyone was very nice and polite.......yea......was a good experience, perhaps its the small town mall I went to...made for a rather nice x-mas shopathon, but that doesn't mean I want to go back and do some more.......oh no no no

Alrighty then.....I shall kick it for now and catch ya lata'

Ciao

dunno

I dunno what to write about today.......I really haven't done anything worth writing about....I am now more aware of Sausage arms than I needed to be but its all a good thing....lemme see.....Abstinence can be a good thing...and what else...working out for 30 minutes on a step master will make you swear ALOT.....ummmmmmm and I now know that I will most likely be lat 4 work and that's ok.....oh and my extended family ......I will keep one of them nameless....well HE can kiss my ass and like it.....

yup

Pretty much that's it for today......all my rants and rage for the day.......

Oh on a lighter note....Does anyone remember the Electric Company ? I LOVED THAT SHOW...it was kinna like the sesame Street for the cooler kids........Morgan Freeman was on it....how cool is that?....he was the Easy Reader...and then there were The Adventures Of Letter Man.....that was the shit man!!!....OMG.... fun!!!

Ok....my retardo stage is @ an end .......I shall now take my groovin self to the J........

yea man

ciao

Yet to Start........

To shop or not to shop? Tis the question of my week.......as I have yet to begin shopping.....I told you all I am the biggest procrastinator of all time. I truly hate shopping....I am not big on crowds, screaming kids, grumpy sales clerks and packed parking lots and my favorite is waitin in those forever lines......oh how I dislike it so. I mean I really cannot take it......I have never been big on X-mas shopping......but I have to do it.....as with most things its a "have to". So I do believe I will do it all on Wednesday......just 2 days b4 X-mas eve. .....yup that's the plan now....

Well my good friend Jackies just came by and we had a good chat....she always makes me feel good about everything.....she has her Bachelors in some type of Social Services......she works with drug abusers and emotionally challenged individuals.....and she is excellent at what she does....so I can talk to her just about anything......as she can relate to what I'm going through with regards to school and mife( my Life)....anyway she came by and we made plans for X-mas Eve....so I am looking forward to seeing her and having some spiced nog....yea....shall be a good time..

Ok then....I am having some superficial dilemmas at the moment..seems that I cant get passed a physical attribute regarding someoneI am seeing.....I don't know why, but I really just wish I could get passed this ..its not one of my better attributes..Truly it isn't...I know why I am having this little prob as I was........ at one time ...with someone I wasn't physically attracted to.....I loved this person, but when it came to being physical..... I always had to take myself somewhere else emotionally....like take myself somewhere other than where I was.... and I HATED it....I don't want to do that again........it isn't fair to me nor the person I am with......so here I am again in a similar situation....but this time I can be honest about what I am feeling and thinking, which I wasnt able to be in my past relationship.....so I am hoping.. that since I am being honest and sincere that perhaps I/we can work through it and make it work....cos I really want to make this work....

well I shall move on now......and recommend my song for the day..well 2 songs for the day....Coleys choice(s) R.....Kenny Chesneys - You had me @ hello and Kenny Loggins -Whenever I call you friend.....one old and one sorta new.......

I am off now to shower and run to the store and come back here and put the finishing touches on the 3 papers I have written about history........

oh and the Tree turned out very bright and shiny with a STAR that reminds of something from Rainbow Brights Pony show......yea.....really COULRFULLLLLL

Ok well I shall end this and update soon.......sooner than later.....

Stay tuned........

Ciao 4 now

Truths

I just now rolled out of bed…I was up until around 4:30Am last night…had myself a small dose of that serious talk…I usually am not one to partake in the “serious talk” but I have to admit it went rather well……….came to the conclusion that I am capable of being committed but…………I need to take things SLOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYY…

So yea…I am glad to know that a certain individual will be ok with that…….. I would also like to wish Shocker a very Happy Birthday today…don’t do anything I wouldn’t do…..and if you do......just don’t get caught.


Today is the day of the Tree…I have to go out and dig the bugger out of the storage shed…. I would have preferred to have gotten a real tree but ………..seeing how I am getting to it so late and all…….might as well use the artificial tree…plus I have a habit of picking out the lone “Charlie Brown Tree”…..and then of course my family gets all nuts (or is that peanuts?) on me and makes fun of my lil Charlie tree…..so better to use my moms ol’ fake tree then submit some poor innocent lil tree to the glares and mocks of my scroogy fandamily.

Moving on….

I really have nothing to report …I haven’t been watching the news at all…I am completely oblivious to what is going on in the world…which I guess……. in some aspects... is a good thing…keeps me from shouting @ the TV and throwing the paper in the trash …..or perhaps I just have an anger management problem? Better take something for that…..speaking of….. Taking that “magic pill” for everything …I DID notice on the news An independent research team found that the Pfizer drug Celebrex ….more than tripled the risk of heart attacks and strokes in some regular users..... this is what I overheard on some news broadcast last night while I was working….this is .......I think the 3rd or 4th drug that has been found to have serious side affects. Is it not?
Why is it that these complications weren’t found prior to the drugs release? I have heard that the FDA keeps drugs in clinical trials and research labs for up to 10 years? Wouldn’t one think that in that time the scientists could have established that these medications were indeed unsafe or perhaps could have offered the information to the patients so that they could have made a better well informed decision regarding the drugs they are taking?

Or.

Could it be that the pharmaceutical companies are Greedy,Power- mad, evil motherfuckers who could care less about the American people and their health? So they forgo any and all safety measures to reach their goal of that all mighty Dollar?



I think I will go with the latter


Stay tuned for the next exciting episode….

Ciao 4 now

My List

Dear Santa.

Its been a long long time since I have written to you......but to be honest.... I haven't always been a very good girl ....well I was NEVER a good girl during a few of those years......but you know the old saying "Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere."....well that's about as fitting a description of me than anything....although, I must admit this year I have been extra special and extra good and was hopping that you might consider at least ACCEPTING my letter this year...a couple of those years they were returned and I personally thought ..that was rather rude.......

ok then......I shall begin..... but..... Just as a tiny bribe...... if you would be so kind and deliver on a few of these requests I will forgo the milk and cookies....and leave you a nice bottle of Macallan Scotch whiskey and a nice Cuban..
;)

1(A) Kidney for Mr. C
1. M3 BMW Coupe'
2. Personal Trainer
3. Beach house in Malibu
4. Summer House in France
5. New DELL system...top of the line....
6. Darren Hayes in a Bow under my tree
7.New Black Oakleys to replace the ones that were knicked
8. Well really....... I would enjoy a stress free lifestyle, a good healthy relationship and happiness and peace on earth.......ummmmm.....I feel like some dumb ass model on a ridiculous pageant.


Thank you

Merry Newness and Happy XXX-MAS


Ciao

Obsessive Intoxication

Here I be once again getting ready to divulge a little bit more of myself for the whole world to read...but its all good.....Work went well tonight..we all had some laughs ....until poor Fairy Girl had her thumb broken by one of our not- so- well -mannered clients....I felt really bad for her...she was in ALOT of pain.....so we sent her to the ER and she returned about 4 hours later with a nice pretty blue cast on her thumb/wrist and a script for some mild pain killers ....so with time and a bit of pain.... she should be okey dokey.....
after she was put on the sidelines the remainder of our crew..L Lady N2 and myself made the best of the night and got 'er done.....afterwards....Mr.C came and picked me up and was sweet enough to buy me a cold Sammy Sprew to top the evening off........it just makes everything neato grand to be home... relaxing....especially after a good night like tonight...really feels like I accomplished something and made a difference....

Speaking of having a good night......seems Shocker is feeling NO PAIN this evening......I just now got off of the phone with the buzzen Shocker who was in the process of heading home and begging me to answer my phone.... as apparently I HAVE to talk and listen to more of the enthusiastic love chat induced by alcohol......oh scratch that.. I just received another call .....seems Shocker and the Double J's are in the midst of a game of pool.....That's great... cos hopefully I can finish my paper and fall asleep before the next call....I don't know about anyone else but listening to someone who is snockered and pining for you is not in my book a barrel of laughs nor easy to tolerate...unless ....of course..... you are snockered as well.. or being the sole drunk love whore your own damn self.........anyway I do hope Shocker and Company have a good night and stay safe....

I have to do an 80's flash back tonight.....I have been on a Judas Priest trip as of late and I downloaded a few of their tunes and happened upon a file that some very giving individual was sharing.....turns out its the COMPLETE Best of JP album in its entirety.....so how flipping bitchin is that? No need to search for all of my fave's ..I lucked out and grabbed them all lickity split.......JP will be.... for me....... one of the best metal bands of the past 20 yrs.....British Steel...in a big way!!!

solid rock babyz!!

Ok.....well I must finish a paper and call it a night.......Tomorrow is Friday and then I have a 3 day holiday......veddy nice.

til then......later!