Pain in the butt!

That's right......she is a pain in the butt!!! Domino is......my kitty.....well my brothers kitty.... well.....now she really isn't his kitty anymore as she follows me everywhere and insists on sleeping with me now.......but tonight.....gosh.......she is REALLY a pain in da butt. She wont STOP bugging me.....has to sit on my lap.....and I am trying to type a paper.......do you think she cares.......hell No! I have tried petting her....putting her in Mr. C's room....feeding her.......nuthin works.....she has to be where I am....for the most part..... and tonightis no exception....its just now she has to be ON me.......lil shit.....but I have to admit I love her so much....love my pussy....my pussy....pussy cat...she is my babyz..

Ok.....moving on.....

Today was an uneventful day....Finished my assignment........made tacos.......ummmmmm......thats about it.......fucking cat........she is sleepin on my hand so I have one hand to type with........man......Kats!

Well...tommorrow Bush will be inaugurated for another fabulous 4 yrs......I am so thrilled I could just spit......

Well I best go....I am very uncomfy @ the moment.....

catch ya on the scanner!!!

Ciao

Rice fever

So I am reading the CNN news today and I see that Rice is a lil pissy.....she looks like she wants to kill California Sen. Barbara Boxer to whom she was answering questions during Rice's confirmation hearings this week.She is being confirmed into the Secretary of State position....replacing Colin Powell. They had a pretty heated exchange ......Here's a sample of the lil conversation.

This is a pattern here of what I see from you," Boxer said. "It's very troubling. ... It's hard for me to let go of this war because people are still dying." She said Rice has not acknowledged those deaths, has not laid out an exit strategy for Iraq and has been unwilling to admit mistakes -- including going to war over weapons of mass destruction found later not to exist.
Rice insisted the war in Iraq was not launched solely over WMD. Saddam Hussein, she said, welcomed terrorists, attacked his own neighbors and paid suicide bombers in the conflict between Israel and Palestinians.

http://www.cnn.com/2005/ALLPOLITICS/01/18/rice.confirmation/index.html

I have to agree with Boxer on this one......Rice seesm so cold and without emotion when it comes to Iraq and her support of Bush's war policy. When Boxer attached her on these points ... Rice went on to say.... "I have to say that I have never, ever, lost respect for the truth in the service of anything," She later told Boxer, "I really hope that you will refrain from impugning my integrity."

Integrity?

What?

Sorry?

right...

ok...

moving on......

I had me eyes examined and got me new eye enhancers and picked out some new frames for my spectacles.....very nice.....Guess what kind they are.......I bet you cant GUESS........

:0

anyway......I can see clearly now the blur is gone......also while I was out yesterday I bought a membership to Costco......and proceeded to spend entirely to much $$....but we now have enough laundry soap and fabric softener to last until the New Year.....which is always good.....

I am off to work now

You kids play nice now........ya hear!

Ciao

Ever wonder?

Ever wonder how some people can be so stupid and others can be so smart? I was thinking that today when I posted a question on the Politcal forum site I am a member of......I basically asked what everyone thought of the Bill that is being passed in Virginia regarding the miscarriage deal I blogged about here last night.....and basically everyone took it completely out of context and turned it into a debate about abortion and abandonment.......which in turn resulted in my lil question being posted in the Abortion part of the forum.....so needless to say I never did get the results I wanted on my Poll.....well.....a few people did reply in the manner I was seeking........anywayz........just made me wonder how and why certain people cant just answer a simple question without turning it into something it isn't.......I mean really........I have that problem with Shocker all the time.......ask a question or say something and it turns into something else.......... regrdless......I was hoping to have a fair and honest debate regarding the privacy/rights isuues of women when it comes to Bills such as these......but in the end all I got was how horrible abortion/abandonment is......not very nice topics to use as a distraction(s) in order to NOT answer a question.......you think?

Moving on......


Today was a good day..(notice I saved that lil "good day" remark for the end of the damn day?).....I received my new leather jacket...I am very happy with it....tis a very classy and tasteful coat........lets see......bought 2 new pairs of sneakers......Nike and Reebok.....for work and just for working out........let me see........did the laundry and cleaned the pad......I am now just surfing and reading about current events while I wind down......Tomorrow I need to read a few chapters in my text books and get some homework done.......watch the NFL playoffs......which I did today as well......I was rooting for the Jets, but the Steelers won in OT.....dammit.......so tomorrow I am rooting for .....well not 2 sure....I usually root for the underdogs.....as my team didn't even come close to the playoffs......the 49ers......I love em......although they suck ass these days...... I do know I will be rooting against the Patriots....I am sick to death of the Patriots.....blah




Well I am gonna call it a night......its a short/boring blog tonight...I know.....but better than nothin


ciao 4 now

Life and all its wonderful BS

I am completely and utterly baffled....I really am........check this out


From the Democratic Underground's top Ten Conservative Idiots:

# 3 John Cosgrove

If Virginia Delegate John Cosgrove has his way, failing to report a miscarriage to the police within 12 hours could land you a fine of $2,500 or up to twelve months in jail. Don't believe me? Think it couldn't happen here? Think again. Cosgrove's bill says, "When a fetal death occurs without medical attendance, it shall be the woman's responsibility to report the death to the law-enforcement agency in the jurisdiction of which the delivery occurs within 12 hours after the delivery. A violation of this section shall be punishable as a Class 1 misdemeanors." That's right, folks - after four years of George W. Bush, it's okay for the US attorney general to approve of torture, the government can secretly pay journalists to spread propaganda with your tax dollars, and it's a crime to not report a miscarriage to the local police department. But, uh, at least we're safe from terrorists or something.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/top10/index.html

link to the actual Bill. ( Yes folks, this isn't made up....its the real deal.....here is your tax money at work)

http://leg1.state.va.us/cgi-bin/legp504.exe?051+sum+HB1677)

so basically as a woman....what happens to my body is now the bizzness of everyone! If I or any other woman has to go through what is by far a very tragic and emotional situation such as a miscarriage......it can possibly be a crime if a woman doesn't report it.....as if the act in itself isn't horrible enough ....now a woman can be questioned as to if it was her fault......as trust me this is the reasoning behind such a Bill......or law....to question the woman's responsibility to herself while pregnant.....and if she deliberately caused the unfortunate miscarriage.......I mean for fucks sake people.....really.......I am just livid after reading this......now mind you I am not one to read nor visit this particular web site as I know that most of the population deem it as "liberal" which as I have written b4....is now like some evil plague if one is assocaited with being a liberal or if one has liberal views...ok sorry....I got sidetracked there for a sec......back to the origianl Bitch...I was where? ..oh yes...this story was actually sent to me.......and I checked to make sure it was indeed genuine....which it was...... I just cant believe that this is even being considered....What's next?....I cannot even begin to consider what's next ......and....oh yes.....annnnndd I have to add that if the man were the one having the children this shit WOULD NOT be happening.......its blatantly and obviously a way to take and strip away the rights of women in this country......which let me just say...... has taken the women in this country .......past and present .......years of constant fighting and struggling to be heard and seen.....with even an iota, a spec, a glimpse... of the respect that is automatically bestowed upon the men in this country......who by the way..... are the ones behind such ridiculously construed BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok....moving on.......although I am still ....................F*&*&*!!! Pissed off......

Tonight ......at work...... well .....it...... was truly a great night....had alot of laughs...although at times a few of my clients were a bit nuts...and thats putting it mildly..... very mildly....but.... all in all.... I had a good time......the grrls invited me for a night of bowling next weekend.......so that should be interesting(extremley so) as I have never bowled ( not once) in my whole entire life........although....Mamma B very happily told me that after a few.......its all good......she said "just throw the ball and see what happens"......well hell......I can do that........
well I think I can.....


On we go....


Suzilla called me to confirm that I am coming to visit this month......and yea I am.....soon as I finish this lil bloggy.... I am checking for da cheapo flights.....so I am thinking 2 weeks from today would be good.......should be fun.......she is pretty excited about me coming home.......home......well......my ex-home........so I am pretty jacked about the lil trip to Portland......a good time should be had by all.......

I am right at the moment listening to U2.....I absolutely adore this band.......I do I do........I truly think they are exceptionally talented and ridiculously cool......they to me are this generations Beatles.......I mean when I listen to them sometimes......I think I know what it must have been like to listen to Lennon and the Beatles in the 60's...I mean they just take me there......

I am on a quest to get every album they have ever put out.......legitimately....... I now have 3 .......and...... as I type.... have 3 on the way.......its a start.......

ok then.......I will leave it for now......and add more when I damn well feel like it..

;)

ciao babes

Over and Over

Yesterday I wrote ....I wrote "its been a good day up to this point" big Fucking mistake...oh yea.......jinxed myself I did....cos trust me after I wrote that everything went to shit.....in a big way.......

I went to work and proceeded to lock my keys in the locker and had 2 have Big Boy cut the lock....he actually went home for me to grab his bolt cutters......which was way sweet of him 2 do.....a big boy "thank you" to you sir.

Anywayz....... after that......... shit just went downhill.....I received a call from Mr. C and he..... well.....lets just say he is in some shit.....and I don't know if I can fix this...... ....he called me at work and then picked me up.....we had a drink after work and talked and I just sat there and looked at this defeated look in his eyes and I "of course".... told him it would be ok.......I would fix it.....but I honestly don't know if I can this time......and maybe I shouldn't...but we all Know that when it comes to Mr. Clinton I do everything and anything it takes to keep him safe and happy........anyway....so in the end that's what I will do....

Moving on.....

I have looked at my classes and figured out where I am as far as assignments.......and its all doable....well it always is....... I dont have all that much to do really.....5 exams....build a website......which I have done somewhere for a class @ PCC....just have to find the code......lets see...... and ALOT OF FLIPPIN writing......man....good thing I like to write.....good thing I am good @ it......cos let me tell you folks..... University is all about da Writing.......

I am listening to Nelly and Tim McGraws new tune Over and Over and I must say its really quite good......when I first heard that a rapper and cuntry singer were collaborating ( co-habitating?) ( J/K!!!!!) I was not to enthused but I must admit its a really good song...and fitting.......as shit just goes on Over and Over and Over and.........................................................

Sidenote

I did learn one small lesson...Never EVER write nor say its a "good day" @ the beginning of the day....best to leave that for the end of the damn day........for obvious reasons......


I will leave it at that.........

catch ya's lata

ciao

All me ducks in a row....

I am now pretty much set for school...just waiting for my books to arrive via the US Postal service....and then I can spend the day tomorrow getting all of my first assignments done.....today has been a pretty good day up to this point.....Received my check(s) so I have paid off of one of my credit cards and I am now purchasing some dental insurance so I'z can get my pearly's cleaned.....I also need to get my eyeballs examined....which I will do sometime this week....my brother is buying me this kick ass leather jacket I want for my b-day prez.......so I am quite pleased with that.........

My Landlord George sent me a letter offering me his home....well not literally....I must say I am extremely pleased and flattered .......he has a VERY nice house and he wants ME to rent it and watch it for him......see he is going over to assist in Tsunami disaster relief.......so 2 BIG BIG thumbs up to George.....I guess he was in the army at one time and he volunteered to go over......so I wish him much luck and a speedy and safe trip home once he has accomplished his goal...... as for the house.....I have to regrettably decline as its not in WA. state...and my brother needs to stay in WA...well for the time being......dammit...

ah well........


I must take a quick shower and head 2 work...........

catch ya all later

ciao

Taken it slow and easy......

Today I pretty much just hung around the house and did laundry and put away my clothes and such. Watched the Packers get their asses kicked @ home in the playoffs, and went to buy some steaks and salad for dinner......my brother is cooking them now as I type. I went out last night and did some much needed shopping as my wardrobe was in dire need of an update.......so I now have about 6 new sweaters/tops and shoes.......and other essentials......all courtesy of the Bon and Penny's......I feel better about leaving the homestead now......more in fashion....

I received a very interesting email from Binks today regarding my said trip to Portland...seems he is a bit concerned about Suzilla knowing I am coming back....well ummmmm....she should know as she is the one who invited me/convinced me to come back. I have not made definite plans......its just a thought as of right now.......it is still up in the air......I left a message for my concerned friend so hopefully he will call me and let me know what exactly the big worry is?

College resumes tomorrow and I have already taken a gander @ the syllabus.........all looks well.....

Update
Mr. Porcelain stopped by today to talk with my brother and I guess he wasn't feeling all that well when he woke up the other day......for reasons other than the mass consumption from the prior night. Seems his GF went out on him and confessed to him after he noticed a bunch of love marks on her neck....seems she had a night of "UH HUH!!!" with a girl she knows...I was a bit shocked as I have met her on several occassions and never had not so much of a bleep on my 'ol gaydar..........although she has told me I smell good on occasion.....so needless to say Mr. P isn't a happy guy..when women cheat with other women it seems to be a major blow for the male ego..unless .....of course ......they...themselves .......are involved in the menage a trois..

Regardless...

I think he will live.......Mr.C knows he will be OK...the incident didnt seem to take the wind out of Mr.P's sails for very long..as... I guess... he (Mr. P) has a thing for me according to my brother.........which is sweet......but......ummmmmmm no......sleeping with my la'toilet will be as close to me as he gets...
;)

Speaking of Mr. C he is a HAPPY HAPPY camper tonight as I just purchased 2 tickets for Motley Crue..(His ALL TIME Fave band from his mis-spent youth/adulthood)....they will be here in March and we now have front row seats.......yup....my lil bro is just a grinning from ear2ear now.....Dimples a glowin :)

Ok then.....I must sign off for now and eat me steak dinner.......

Stay Tuned

ciao

Good times, Good Job, Great Friends...ABFAB Brother!

Ok......Here we go.........

Today started out like something like this......

I was asleep....well in the process of waking up....and in walks my Aunt ..she was a shakin and crying...seems Miss Jack had called and upset her by saying she was coming over (to my house) to see my brother whether anyone liked it or not.....well Glo (Aunt) was Not a Happy Auntie...as Miss Jack is part of the reason for the madness @ X-mas and all the drama thereafter w/my bro and Kuntjoy......so I crawled out of bed and told her I would handle it......which I did. Called Miss Jack and told her to back off and chill out and leave my bro alone along with my family.......and she complied.....she is a smart lady.........

I then went to work.....where I had an excellent time with Mamma B and Fairy Grrl...or should I say Shroom Grrl now? heheh...anywayz........work went really well.....had alot of laughs.......and then when it was time 2 get off.....I was waiting for Mr. C to pick me up and after waiting about 2 minutes he comes a cruisen up with Mr.Porcelain.....(I will tell you why I call him that here in a few).....anyway they come driving up and I KNOW Mr. C is snockered......as well as Mr. P...I then proceed to tell my brother to let me drive and he of course says FUCK NO! I am nthot drunkth! Uh Huh I say........and proceed to start walking home......of course he comes to his senses and lets me drive us all home.........seems him and Mr. P spent the prior 4 hrs having a few woo hoo's @ the corner Pub....due to all the drama that has been goin with Miss Jack and Kuntjoy ( I cannot divulge what the said "drama" is at the present time....or any other time, just know its not "good" drama)......well ..now where was I? Oh yes......well.....we come home and I proceed to feed Mr. C so he will sober up.... Meanwhile... Mr. P kindly asks to use our bathroom...."Sure" I say..."of course".....well that was 3hrs ago.........seems he liked it so much he decided to camp out there for the night.....yea........okkkkk..soooo.....I have a very cute....very nice.. extremely drunk...guy..... passed out in front of my la'toilet......Mr. C and I have tried numerous times to get him 2 move to a more reasonable sleeping place to no avail......so there he lies...Mr.Porcelain.....lying face down on my bathroom floor hugging the cold white porcelain crapper.........

..............................ohhhhhhhh my my my......I am so glad I am sober....as...well I Want to remember this.......I do.. I do.....

hee hee

Moving on......

Suzilla called me tonight and we had a lot of laughs........I sure miss her.......and after ALOT of coaxing she has talked me into going back to Portland @ the end of Jan. for a weekend getaway........so I am looking forward to that.......I will be flying in......so it should be pretty gravy.

good times.

My throat feels mucho better today.....magic pills sure do help.....I am not sure what magic pills I am speaking of....the anti-biotic or the codeine......Either- Or.......tis all good....

I am going shopping in the AM........Mr. C handed me....well...... a C note......(kinda poetic aint it?) for me B-day and I am gonna hit the mall!..........

coo ;)


Well I shall end this........I actually have something else......something a bit more on the whiney side to blog about....but I am in a good mood and would prefer to leave the whine in the bottle tonight.......in all aspects...

so.....there you go.......



Aloha!!

Take bad with the good or is it...??

Well Today had its major highlights and a few downers as well.

1. My brother received some certain paperwork today that will ensure him tb financially OK for....well forever I think.

2. My advisor released me to register for Spring semester @ WSU....which was AOK.....so I did just that......I am taking some type of a Biology class, a Political Science course...which shall be awesome as I love politics and law, lets see....a class designed to enhance ones ability to communicate better via the Internet.....? Ummmmmm ok, but its a required class so I am taking it......and finally a Psychology class that focuses on human sexuality......so.....there you go...just now ordered me books so I am now all set to begin my next set of courses on Monday....I shall spend this weekend finishing up my History course from last semester....and I have a few assignments from my B.Law class as well........to be honest... I am actually getting rather phsyched up about school again......I really am.

3. I have strep throat.....

Yip.

I woke up this mornin to go with Mr. C to his appointment and I KNEW I had it.......looked at me poor lil throat and sure as shit......it was fire engine red and PISSED off!!! Strep has a taste too.....if you have ever had it.....then you know what I mean.......I had it really bad a few years ago.. and I will never forget that taste nor the razor blade feel you get when you swallow.....needless to say I went to the minor care place at the ER....where....beleive it or not.... they were really sweet to me.....cos to tell you true...I wanted to leave as they had me sit in an actuall ER room with all the ER gadgets......while I was sitting there I was thinking "I shouldn't be sitting in here taking up this space, someone else is more likely worse off than me and perhaps ...needs to be back here". So I went to tell the lady that......" hey.......you know I am ok......I don't wanna bother anyone"......she just smiled and laughed and told me to have a seat and the DR would be right in.....and sure enough he was.....nice DR too.....talked to me, not at me......looked @ me throat, confirmed my initial diagnosis......with his own....and sent me on me way with a script for some magic pills and a note 4 work....

sigh.

So there you have it......a few good things..and one not so good thing.......

OH......one more thing that isn't so great.....Kuntjoy.....tis a family member....well he needs to stop being such a bitch and grow some balls and be a man...........this whole mess with my brother and Miss Jack is getting old. How many times can one person apologize to another b4 all is forgiven? Obviously that would be ......NEVER....

ok then....

I am gonna lie down...have a painkiller :)

and watch a lil DVD.

toodles

The 5th

Well here it is....My B-day.....and once again I am wondering where the hell the last year went......????

And like every year.... I do a reflection type of dealy.........but this will be the first time I shall share it with the Blogger world....so........

Here goes.........

Jan. 2004 - Ummmmm I remember my B-day ....we.....Binks and I...... well.....we got off of work and he was giving me a lift home......I had stated all that day and night that I had no desire of celebrating....school had just started........but on the way home we went by the 'ol pub and he just gave me that shit eating grin.....and before you knew it......well...... we were saying good night or should I say.... good morning @ around 6am.......so much for no celebrating eh?

That's how last year started........for the most part nothing to exciting happened after that.......I was just biding my time for the BIG move back home to be with my brother.....see he had really gotten sick Dec. 2003....and I had received a phone call that he might not make it.....he had actually went into cardiac arrest ......and for a 28yr old......even if he is in renal failure.....is pretty damn scary.....I immediatley came home and spent a month with him.......and decided right then and there that I needed and Wanted to be with him......not 4oo miles away always worried.....so .....that was the plan for last year......

So...........I went to school.........hung out with my friends....every day....and focused on graduating .... I also applied for University.......WSU....I was accepted that April......I remember that day....I had come home for Easter and the letter had been sitting here @ my Aunts....my brother was so proud of me......as was my whole family....see I am the first one in my family to ever go to college or graduate with any type of a degree......and I did do just that........ in June.2004......graduated I did........first one in my family.....pretty big deal actually....

Anyway.....so I moved back home in June 2004....moved my brother and I into our own pad.....found a Job....and started on my next quest for a B.A @ WSU in August.....

I kept to myself for the most part after coming back......

'cept when I met Shocker.......which was "great".....

Still is......

The best part of last year?

Well.........

That would have to be....


Getting to see my baby bro everyday... which ..... for me .......is the greatest thing.......he makes me smile and keeps me in line like no other........I know how he is....... and I am here.....when he needs me....and he for me. Our relationship has always been the most important part of my life......even when I was away for 6 yrs......but I am back now.....I might not like this shitty tiny town but I look past it......look at the bigger picture......

So that my friends is last year.......

this year........


Well... only time will tell.......


Coleyz song for the day.....

Watching the Wheels

Lennon

love Lennon


alwayz will.........

here's to another year.......

Bored.....

I am so fucking bored it is unfuckingbeleivable......


I have been channel surfing and wondering around the house in a daze all damn day....

Any guess as to why???


.....my insomnia is back again....and with a vengeance.......

Just loving it.....

I am hoping to sleep tonight....I did sleep somewhat last night........but not really........tossed and turned and had weird dreams and shit.......I really need to go to Vegas and lay in the sun for a weekend......that I KNOW would make me sleep........maybe next month.....we shall see...

Anywayz.......

My brother is making me dinner.......and being extremely sweet......must be becos of my B-Day tomorrow.....or perhaps its just cos he is a good guy.......I believe it's more of the latter than the former......

I really have nothing else to blog about today......just tired......nothing new......

I did find a few quotes I liked........things I will use in the new year as a foundation for the way I shall approach my life and all that comes into it.




Real knowledge is to know the extent of one's own ignorance"-Confucius


"Failure is the foundation of success...success the lurking place of failure."-Lao-Tzu


I am off to eat and write a bit about the Koran.......and a few other exciting subject for my history class......

Oh joy.

Ciao

Back........

Well I am home......Good 2 b home.......

I had a good time......not sure what 2 write about it though.........not sure......

ever been in a place like that?

Where you just aren't to sure what to say nor think?

Well then......one would know exactly my predicament...

My B-day is in 2 days......and the more I think about it.......the less it bothers me....really.......I am quite happy with my life up 2 now....and my experiences and accomplishments.......I do know.... I don't...... and wouldn't....... re-peat the early 20's again........No......late 20's early 30's seem to be okay now.....4 some damn reason.... I seem to be embracing and enjoying this age shit....

My friends would say I am stoned if they read this....

I'm not.

Just reached a place where I would rather enjoy what I have and where I've been than to be so concerned and stressed about "age".........seems 2 B such a waste of time and energy...

Yup.




I am going to call it a Blog and check out........I shall think of more rhetoric ......if I can

Ciao babes

New Year

Well it is now officially 2005......

Thank GOD!!

Happy New Year to everyone........

Persistence pays off......

Well......My life is never dull.......and as of late that definition of my life could never be more true...

My brother is really sick again....and we shall see if he needs to be in the hospital here in the next few days.......I went into work tonight and my staff sent me home....I love those grrrls....they are absolutely the finest individuals I have ever had the honor to work with....so a big THANK YOU to all the grrls @ CC.

My shocking adventure has once again taken on something more electric than I had ever imagined.....talking til 6AM led to us finally making decisions of commitment which made everything more solid and stable....so that has made me very happy....and I am no longer running from it....Shocker just wont let me go.....so now......Shocker is stuck..poor poor Shocker

:)

I am getting my last assignments finished this evening so I can have a weekend without stress......and that way I can get registered for my classes and get my Degree before I reach 40......which would be really really neat , nifty, and nice ......if you know what I mean..

On a lighter note

I am terribly sorry to Binks and Patti Anne for not being a better friend the past week....I have been shall we say ....pretty fucking busy and a little well ALOT frazzled.....but I am back on track and hopefully all will be ok with Mr. C and school.......and all that happy crappy.....so Binks PLS Know I love you and I will call you......I promise........and Patti Anne thank you once again for always coming through for me when I need you.......you are my ROCK...

Ok then....
I shall be back @ a later time.......so stay tuned

ciao

In My Hayes

Hero
Darren Hayes & Robert Conley


Outside confidence is king
I am all that you're projecting
Inside feel the rising tide
And the revolution's deafening
I was trying to hide my opposing side
Trying to reconcile my Jeckyl and Hyde

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please

I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself


Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

Sometimes you put all of your desires in an object of affection
But in time because you idolize there is only disappointment

I was flying so high in your perfect sky
But I needed to fall
Cannot have it all

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please

I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself

Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please
I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken
Do yourself a favor save yourself
Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?
Find yourself another

I don't need to compromis
I don't need to occupy the floor
There's a danger in boxing in my sin
And all that I am
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again(No, I am not open parts of me are broken)
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again(Why'd you want to bother find yourself another)

Ladies and gentlemen listen up please
I don't want to be your hero
No I am not open parts of me are broken

Do yourself a favor save yourself
Don't pick me find someone else
Why do you want to bother?

Find yourself another
It's too much pressure

I'll only let you down again



A dedication.....

Love Always...

Holiday.......

I am leaving on the 1st for a weekend getaway....just booked my travel plans and room......I am in dire need o fa getaway. I am working New Years Eve.....so I wont be going out......nor do I have any desire to go out........just me, myslef, and I for a weekend..........I am looking forward to it....

I am still fighting with my advisor over getting registered for Spring Semester....so I may not be going next semester...which I guess would be ok and then again not............I will know more tom.

I havent anything else to report other than I fianlly found my brother and brought him home Sunday night.......he is ok....well........as okay as he can be.....

I shall update again here soon

ciao 4 now

Madness...

THE DAY AFTER…

Here I am ... just finished cleaning, vacuuming, dishes, dusting, laundry...all of the fun domestic shit....

soooooooo

I am finally sitting down and relaxing a bit...I cant really divulge what happened on my X-Mas...just know it was madness and I didn't celebrate as my Brother left x-Mas morning...so needless to say I still haven't opened any gifts and I wont until I hear from him, if he ever comes home again......when he left he told me he wouldn’t be……I am hoping he was just angry….I know he was hurt…..anyway…….It is not like my brother to do that……this whole things has made me very.......... sad
yea......

so .
it was by far the worst x-Mas of my entire life........and I just wish my family could settle disputes in a better way.....what I would really like is if the people in my family would not act on their thoughts/feelings without thinking of the repercussions....That's what I would really like ....That's my New Years wish......

Ok well I received a nice morning message from Binks and he sounded VERY MERRY.... so I wanted to take a moment and wish him a great X-Mas and a very ABFAB New Year.... also let him know that I am ok...nothing to worry about......I have worked it all out...........

Well I think I am going to finish watching this flick I started last night and finish my laundry...and wait for Mr. C to call me.... if he will....
:(

PeaceI’m outy

Merry Christmas

Christmas Eve...wow where did this year go? Seems like they go by faster and faster.....

I must be off to the 'ol J.....I work tonight and then I will have X-Mas day with my lil Bro and the rest of the fandamily.....

So I hope you all have a fabulous Holiday and Santa brings ya's whatcha wished 4!

Happy Holidays...

always right

I wrote yesterday that I felt something was amiss......that the electricity in my shocking adventure had been reduced to a voltage that that was hard to detect.......and if I must be honest here...I liked the electricity......ALOT.....well seems that I wasn't wrong and that things have changed and pretty much I guess that's where its at.....I left it like that.......I knew eventually this would happen, I would open myself up and WHAMO!! I would end up getting hurt or told......"well....you know its like this"......yea I know what its like.....all to well...I was hoping I wouldn't have to revisit the land of You-Know-What-Its -Like....I really was hoping this might be the one. Guess now I will never know and I will forever wonder......so that being said I am going to get ready for work and get my mind off of things.......best thing to do now is stay busy and keep my mind occupied.....yea should be easy.....sure thing

right.


I shall end this now and call it a Blog

Side Note

My heart and prayers go out to the soldiers who were wounded and killed in Iraq a few days ago......I wish I had the words

I don't.

ciao

All that's left is the rip-n-tear

Ok so I finally did it! I shopped and shopped and all but dropped......all is done including the wrapping...well all 'cept the baby outfit I bought....but other than that I am FINITO!!

YES!!

Another season done....all that's left is the opening and the ooohhhhhiiiiiiing and aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhing.....which of course...is the best part. I did it all in one place too! Well I hit the mall and only needed to go to 3 stores... The Bon, Penny's....and some other place...of course the name eludes me @ the moment...anywayz.....I am quite pleased with my purchases and very pleased that I didn't go over the 400$ mark...veddy nice ...plus...its way nice for me wallet.....another bennie issss I bought my self a gift as well...what the hell.....my B-day is in a few weeks.....so figured I might as well.....

I am in love with Burberry...tis a perfume I wear and ONLY Burberry......I was in Vegas a few years back and happened on a fragrance that Burberry makes and FELL IN LOVE.......only I could never remember the name of it until tonight.....while I was @ The Bon I was checking out the smelly section and 'voila.....there was my Burberry.....and 'voila again.....there was the fragrance that has been evading me for the last few years......I found out that it is called "Brit" which is rather fitting as it is made in London......so I tested some.... but being the ass I am I decided to buy my stand by the original Burberry....but.....always a but..... I had sprayed the Brit on me wrist so while I continued on my shopping spree I kept on smelling meself....until finally...... I couldn't take it no more( that is meant in a good way....) and went back and bugged the sweet and patient Sales lady for an exchange...(and of course... by this time I had already lost the receipt for the purchase that I had made..lets see....not 20 minutes b4....uh huh...so typical...ok back to the tale at hand)...so after I made my FINAL DECISION...me and Brit walked out together ......very happy :)

ok then...


.....I have been feeling strange today.......I don't feel like things are as shocking as they once were for some reason.....cant put my finger on it......just that something feels amiss......maybe last nights chat carried its strange remnants over til today....hard to say........but time will tell.....

Ok....so Now I must clean up the bits and pieces from the wrapping party I just had......and as a side note I wrap presents like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum......I am HORRIBLE!! I have no artistic wrapping qualities whatsoever....I shoulda had the wrappers @ the mall do it but I was in no mood to stand in line .....which now that I think of it......the lines tonight weren't all that bad....and everyone was very nice and polite.......yea......was a good experience, perhaps its the small town mall I went to...made for a rather nice x-mas shopathon, but that doesn't mean I want to go back and do some more.......oh no no no

Alrighty then.....I shall kick it for now and catch ya lata'

Ciao

dunno

I dunno what to write about today.......I really haven't done anything worth writing about....I am now more aware of Sausage arms than I needed to be but its all a good thing....lemme see.....Abstinence can be a good thing...and what else...working out for 30 minutes on a step master will make you swear ALOT.....ummmmmmm and I now know that I will most likely be lat 4 work and that's ok.....oh and my extended family ......I will keep one of them nameless....well HE can kiss my ass and like it.....

yup

Pretty much that's it for today......all my rants and rage for the day.......

Oh on a lighter note....Does anyone remember the Electric Company ? I LOVED THAT SHOW...it was kinna like the sesame Street for the cooler kids........Morgan Freeman was on it....how cool is that?....he was the Easy Reader...and then there were The Adventures Of Letter Man.....that was the shit man!!!....OMG.... fun!!!

Ok....my retardo stage is @ an end .......I shall now take my groovin self to the J........

yea man

ciao

Yet to Start........

To shop or not to shop? Tis the question of my week.......as I have yet to begin shopping.....I told you all I am the biggest procrastinator of all time. I truly hate shopping....I am not big on crowds, screaming kids, grumpy sales clerks and packed parking lots and my favorite is waitin in those forever lines......oh how I dislike it so. I mean I really cannot take it......I have never been big on X-mas shopping......but I have to do it.....as with most things its a "have to". So I do believe I will do it all on Wednesday......just 2 days b4 X-mas eve. .....yup that's the plan now....

Well my good friend Jackies just came by and we had a good chat....she always makes me feel good about everything.....she has her Bachelors in some type of Social Services......she works with drug abusers and emotionally challenged individuals.....and she is excellent at what she does....so I can talk to her just about anything......as she can relate to what I'm going through with regards to school and mife( my Life)....anyway she came by and we made plans for X-mas Eve....so I am looking forward to seeing her and having some spiced nog....yea....shall be a good time..

Ok then....I am having some superficial dilemmas at the moment..seems that I cant get passed a physical attribute regarding someoneI am seeing.....I don't know why, but I really just wish I could get passed this ..its not one of my better attributes..Truly it isn't...I know why I am having this little prob as I was........ at one time ...with someone I wasn't physically attracted to.....I loved this person, but when it came to being physical..... I always had to take myself somewhere else emotionally....like take myself somewhere other than where I was.... and I HATED it....I don't want to do that again........it isn't fair to me nor the person I am with......so here I am again in a similar situation....but this time I can be honest about what I am feeling and thinking, which I wasnt able to be in my past relationship.....so I am hoping.. that since I am being honest and sincere that perhaps I/we can work through it and make it work....cos I really want to make this work....

well I shall move on now......and recommend my song for the day..well 2 songs for the day....Coleys choice(s) R.....Kenny Chesneys - You had me @ hello and Kenny Loggins -Whenever I call you friend.....one old and one sorta new.......

I am off now to shower and run to the store and come back here and put the finishing touches on the 3 papers I have written about history........

oh and the Tree turned out very bright and shiny with a STAR that reminds of something from Rainbow Brights Pony show......yea.....really COULRFULLLLLL

Ok well I shall end this and update soon.......sooner than later.....

Stay tuned........

Ciao 4 now

Truths

I just now rolled out of bed…I was up until around 4:30Am last night…had myself a small dose of that serious talk…I usually am not one to partake in the “serious talk” but I have to admit it went rather well……….came to the conclusion that I am capable of being committed but…………I need to take things SLOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYY…

So yea…I am glad to know that a certain individual will be ok with that…….. I would also like to wish Shocker a very Happy Birthday today…don’t do anything I wouldn’t do…..and if you do......just don’t get caught.


Today is the day of the Tree…I have to go out and dig the bugger out of the storage shed…. I would have preferred to have gotten a real tree but ………..seeing how I am getting to it so late and all…….might as well use the artificial tree…plus I have a habit of picking out the lone “Charlie Brown Tree”…..and then of course my family gets all nuts (or is that peanuts?) on me and makes fun of my lil Charlie tree…..so better to use my moms ol’ fake tree then submit some poor innocent lil tree to the glares and mocks of my scroogy fandamily.

Moving on….

I really have nothing to report …I haven’t been watching the news at all…I am completely oblivious to what is going on in the world…which I guess……. in some aspects... is a good thing…keeps me from shouting @ the TV and throwing the paper in the trash …..or perhaps I just have an anger management problem? Better take something for that…..speaking of….. Taking that “magic pill” for everything …I DID notice on the news An independent research team found that the Pfizer drug Celebrex ….more than tripled the risk of heart attacks and strokes in some regular users..... this is what I overheard on some news broadcast last night while I was working….this is .......I think the 3rd or 4th drug that has been found to have serious side affects. Is it not?
Why is it that these complications weren’t found prior to the drugs release? I have heard that the FDA keeps drugs in clinical trials and research labs for up to 10 years? Wouldn’t one think that in that time the scientists could have established that these medications were indeed unsafe or perhaps could have offered the information to the patients so that they could have made a better well informed decision regarding the drugs they are taking?

Or.

Could it be that the pharmaceutical companies are Greedy,Power- mad, evil motherfuckers who could care less about the American people and their health? So they forgo any and all safety measures to reach their goal of that all mighty Dollar?



I think I will go with the latter


Stay tuned for the next exciting episode….

Ciao 4 now

My List

Dear Santa.

Its been a long long time since I have written to you......but to be honest.... I haven't always been a very good girl ....well I was NEVER a good girl during a few of those years......but you know the old saying "Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere."....well that's about as fitting a description of me than anything....although, I must admit this year I have been extra special and extra good and was hopping that you might consider at least ACCEPTING my letter this year...a couple of those years they were returned and I personally thought ..that was rather rude.......

ok then......I shall begin..... but..... Just as a tiny bribe...... if you would be so kind and deliver on a few of these requests I will forgo the milk and cookies....and leave you a nice bottle of Macallan Scotch whiskey and a nice Cuban..
;)

1(A) Kidney for Mr. C
1. M3 BMW Coupe'
2. Personal Trainer
3. Beach house in Malibu
4. Summer House in France
5. New DELL system...top of the line....
6. Darren Hayes in a Bow under my tree
7.New Black Oakleys to replace the ones that were knicked
8. Well really....... I would enjoy a stress free lifestyle, a good healthy relationship and happiness and peace on earth.......ummmmm.....I feel like some dumb ass model on a ridiculous pageant.


Thank you

Merry Newness and Happy XXX-MAS


Ciao

Obsessive Intoxication

Here I be once again getting ready to divulge a little bit more of myself for the whole world to read...but its all good.....Work went well tonight..we all had some laughs ....until poor Fairy Girl had her thumb broken by one of our not- so- well -mannered clients....I felt really bad for her...she was in ALOT of pain.....so we sent her to the ER and she returned about 4 hours later with a nice pretty blue cast on her thumb/wrist and a script for some mild pain killers ....so with time and a bit of pain.... she should be okey dokey.....
after she was put on the sidelines the remainder of our crew..L Lady N2 and myself made the best of the night and got 'er done.....afterwards....Mr.C came and picked me up and was sweet enough to buy me a cold Sammy Sprew to top the evening off........it just makes everything neato grand to be home... relaxing....especially after a good night like tonight...really feels like I accomplished something and made a difference....

Speaking of having a good night......seems Shocker is feeling NO PAIN this evening......I just now got off of the phone with the buzzen Shocker who was in the process of heading home and begging me to answer my phone.... as apparently I HAVE to talk and listen to more of the enthusiastic love chat induced by alcohol......oh scratch that.. I just received another call .....seems Shocker and the Double J's are in the midst of a game of pool.....That's great... cos hopefully I can finish my paper and fall asleep before the next call....I don't know about anyone else but listening to someone who is snockered and pining for you is not in my book a barrel of laughs nor easy to tolerate...unless ....of course..... you are snockered as well.. or being the sole drunk love whore your own damn self.........anyway I do hope Shocker and Company have a good night and stay safe....

I have to do an 80's flash back tonight.....I have been on a Judas Priest trip as of late and I downloaded a few of their tunes and happened upon a file that some very giving individual was sharing.....turns out its the COMPLETE Best of JP album in its entirety.....so how flipping bitchin is that? No need to search for all of my fave's ..I lucked out and grabbed them all lickity split.......JP will be.... for me....... one of the best metal bands of the past 20 yrs.....British Steel...in a big way!!!

solid rock babyz!!

Ok.....well I must finish a paper and call it a night.......Tomorrow is Friday and then I have a 3 day holiday......veddy nice.

til then......later!

Too Fast For Me

Today has been rather eventful to say the least...woke up and had me coffee....My brother went in to do the Big "D" and asked me to let him sleep until @ least 2ish .....so that gave me time to run some errands b4 he had to jet on up to Spookaloo for his big appointment tomorrow. I used the time to go 2 Albertson’s and get Domino her treats.. as she has been jonsen in a big way for her feast of fancy....I grabbed some C's ...vitamins that is....and other necessities and while exiting I hit that wonderful Starbucks joint for a cuppa-heaven and headed off to the "J" for the Flu shot....which I just love! Getting a big 'ol needle slammed into my arm is always a joyous occasion......and the throb that settles into my arm for the remainder of the day is just an extra bonus....fabulous feeling I must say......so I returned back home to do some cleaning and packed my baby bro up for his trip....... I am just now sitting & relaxing with a nice cold Sammy Adams..mhmmmmmmm

after a bit I am gonna finish some papers for My History class and maybe throw in a DVD a bit later and call it a day.....


SIGHHHHHHHHHHH...or better yet YAWNNNNNNNNNN



Its been busy… busy…….. but I love days like these.. days when I get so busy I can forget about what I am usually trying to forget about.......


yea.

Moving on....

I received a package from my Patti Anne today.....much thanx to her... she also enclosed some photos of herself and the kids....which made me smile....one of those warm and fuzzy happy smiles only your best buds can give ya.....I must say she is looking ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!......she really is....see Patti Anne had a gastric bypass surgery this past June and has already lost about 120lbs.....I am so proud of her and I am so flippin happy for her!...she looks great. great!...and I am not exaggerating.....she looks so fucking happy too.....wow. really cant express it either....I mean her smile in her pics..I don’t think I have ever seen her smile so BIG... so I send all me love to her.....as always....and a BIG thanks to her for my goodies...

Anyway ..........I have a cute story...,which coincides with today’s title....

So Lets begin.....

My brother gives me a ride to work just about daily....so he can have the car as I work swing shift... I have always let it be known that his driving scares the HELL out of me.....he is one of those drivers that is always doing a trillion things @ once....talking on his Cell....smoking a fag....diddling with the stereo....Etc. Well I have been in a few car accidents in my time so I am a bit gun shy when I am the passenger...Jumpy would be an understatement if one were to describe me.....so there you go

anyho......


Mr.C is always gunning the car right before we hit a stop sign or an intersection....and of course I am about to jump out of the fucking seat and onto the roof of the car like some crazy tormented cat....well yesterday was no exception as he did what he always does and I reacted in my normal over-reacting way......so he just looks at me with his shit-eating grin and goes “What’s the prob? Why do you always do that?" .....I just go ...."Well...you make me nervous"...so he proceeds to pat my leg and go "Its ok lil girl......I wont hurt you.....I will try not to scare you"....he then moves his seat clear up to the steering wheel and proceeds to drive at exactly 10 MPH. ...The whole time he is just staring right ahead … looking back and forth and occasionally looking at me and saying "I don’t wanna scare you hun....U just let me know if I am going to fast....." All the while patting me on the shoulder really soft and gentle...

LMAO!

I mean he looked like some geriatric driver.... just zoned out on paranoia.....

Needless to say I was laughing so hard I couldnt’t breathe much less care about his driving...or being maimed for life.( which... if the truth be told.... is what is usually running through my mind during our daily commute)

anywayz......he Finally got me to work....only a measly 10 minutes late.....little shit........

He is soooooooo laughs at times.

Ok then.... I must finish these assignments and returns some emails........

Shocker is in dire need of a lil attention from me today.......its all good.

Ciao 4 Now

UPDATE
Its been entirely to long since I have put my U.S causality report up here....

I have to admit that when I looked at the numbers.....the difference between the last time I did an actual update ...roughly 4 weeks ago and now.....well the numbers are rather significant...

My heart and compassion goes out to ALL of the families who have suffered losses due to this war...on both sides..... I can only imagine that at this time of year...it is especially difficult.

God's speed to the soldiers and civilians ........

IRAQ

American Deaths:

Since war began (3/19/03):
Total-1299
In Combat-1023


American Wounded
Official -9844
Estimated -15000-20000

The wounded numbers above reflect the official count as released by the U.S. military. However, there are other estimates that 12,000 soldiers have been treated for illness, non-combat injury and combat injury since March of 2002.

War may have killed 10,000 civilians, researchers say

Latest Fatality December 15th, 2004

http://www.antiwar.com/casualties/

I almost forgot.....

PINK



"Love Song"


I've never written a love song
That didn't end in tears
Maybe you'll rewrite my love song
If you can replace my fears
I need your patience and guidance
And all your lovin' and more
When thunder rolls through my life
Will you be able to weather the storm?
There's so much I would give ya, baby
If I'd only let myself
There's this well of emotions
I feel I must protect
But what's the point of this armor
If it keeps the love away, too?
I'd rather bleed with cuts of love
Than live without any scars
Baby, can I trust this?
Or do all things end?
I need to hear that you'd die for me
Again and again and again
So tell me when you look in my eyes
Can you share all the pain and happy times
'Cause I will love you for the rest of my life
This is my very first love song
That didn't end in tears
I think you re-wrote my love song
For the rest of my years
I wil love you for the rest of my Life

Hairy humans

I'd Like to Have That One Back......George Strait its a STRAIT day... today........I really love him.....seems I love a lot of artists doesn't it?..... but I do adore him.....I bought my GF the George Strait Box Set 4 her Birthday a few months back and I thought "Hey......I love all of these songs too"...so I went ahead and bought one for meself...so every other day I listen to a different disk.....and I always find a new song I have never heard and fall in love with it....

Ok here we go......

I just read a story about a man in Florida who was arrested for biting his dog as a form of punishment.....

?

Ummmmmmmm...... ok then....

Seems he feels its the best way to train a dog..the police arrived and the dog was cowering in the back of her crate with her paw all bloodied from where the other animal had bitten her.....I think perhaps he( the so-called human) might need his shots and a good dipping followed by a big Alpo supper.....if the man wants to act like some wild animal then I believe he should be treated as such...although his actions were more beastly than any domestic pet I have ever come across.......pets don't usually resort to biting their humans to train them or get attention...peeing in a shoe or eating the curtains will usually get the desired affect..or so I have found...

well my mother did once.....seems one of our dogs liked to eat curtains and shit tablecloths ;)

....but that's a tale for a different day.



Ok then...

Yesterday I spoke with my Advisor @ WSU and it seems I may have messed around a bit to much this FAll..its all fixable..no need to panic!!!!!!..really!!..
No... I actually just need to submit about 4 assignment by Friday if I want to be able to register for Spring Term.....other than that all my ducks are in a row. I have decided to put up the TREE this weekend and Monday get my shopping done.....I usually wait until the 24th, but this year I have to work....so I guess my procrastinational ways just wont do this year....dammit man!

so I must start my hum drum day......well its not so hum drum...it has a hint of a excitement to it as well...a kind of fresh and breathtakingly shocking element to it....yea...I would say that's a fitting description........

ok folks taker 'er sleazy.....

ciao!!

The fabulous life

Woke up today feeling a bit better.....then I turned on the tube and I got caught up in the Fabulous Life of Some Celebrity I Could Care Less About .....I mean do people really watch this shit?.....I sat and watched just to see what the big 2 do is about ....and I really...... honestly....... cannot see the appeal behind watching someone livin it up with Jets, Mercedes and Versace....I mean it would be nice...... but I do believe there are more pressing matters that we could concern ourselves about...such as why some freak jumped up on a stage at a Damageplan concert and shot and killed the guitarist"Dimebag" Darrell Abbott, 38, becos he left his previous band Pantera. Why this horrible act had to happen is baffling and disturbing....my thought and prayers go out to the family and fans of the victims.....and much love to Mr. C.....as he adores the slain guitarist.

I must be off......time to hit the shower and have a cuppa..might even head to Starbucks for a cuppa heaven...... Eggnog Late'......just love those...


Have a Merry Monday....

blah...

:)


lata'

I wont tell em your name

Here I be on a Sunday...in a strange mood too....still feeling a bit sickish.....got the Blahs......I guess that would be perfect way to describe how I feel.....listening to the Goo Goo Dolls today......pretty fitting tunage to fit my melancholy mood....also listening to Keane...I really like this band....I heard that they named themselves after their hometown in England....anyway I think they are way cool....that song Somewhere only we know is pretty coo too.

So I am not feeling like myself today and really haven't been as of late....Don't feel like I am going to meet up 2 the expectations that have been set for me....feel like maybe its the idea of ME that has someone all trippin....That's how I feel....and I don't know what to do about it.....Need to just have a meet n greet and see what's what.....

Moving on......

I tried to sign up for my Spring Courses and as usual I have to meet with my Advisor b4 I can get into my classes....I keep 4getting that @ WSU your advisor is pretty much like a doting parent......Have to be up in your action at all times....which is nice......keeps one from taking the wrong classes and getting on an academic detour so to speak.....so I shall hear back from her in the Morrow hopefully....

I need to get the X-mas Tree up and try and spread some holiday cheer....which may be a bit hard this year.....Ol' St. Nick and I are in completely different universes this year.......hopefully I will snap out of my Scroogy mood and find my Merry Merry side......there is always spiked eggnog to help me out.......

Ok then.........I shall call it a Blog and check out....

Ciao 4 Now

Letting myself go....

Well I have decided to do as my title states and let my shocking adventure take me where it may.....life is to short to stop your self from feeling whatever it is you are feeling.....and if you never take a chance or take that plunge..then u will forever wonder...."What If"?

Moving on....

Its official I am sick....I have finally caught the bug that's been going around @ work....so needless to say I feel like death today.....I have the humidifier going...the cough syrup at arms reach sipping on a bowl of chicken soup ..and my baby bro is on his way to get me some tissues....

Speaking of my Bro...he just walked in and asked me what kind of a chair I wanted for X-mas...All I asked for was a new Black Leather office chair for my PC as I take all my classes via the PC.....so he wanted to know if I wanted one with a heater and a massager....mmmmmm. YEA SURE!! :) I so love my baby bro...

okay folks I am gonna call it a day.......Crawl into bed....Watch the West Wing and try and catch some Zzzzzzzzzzzzz'z

Ciao 4 Now

Kiss My Invisible Ass.....and like it!

And here we go with the ongoing saga I like to call my life...

So I am @ work tonight and all is going well....I am working with Mamma B, N2, and who I used to call Puppy Girl but shall now forever call Fairy Girl....for reasons I shall share at a later time. So as I was saying....all was going well ....typical shit...as I work with all WOMEN... the drama can become quite intense and ridiculous, but its usually tolerable. Well I was standing in a room with Mamma B and we were discussing a work out routine that she and I will start when we hit the gym together in January......I was saying I would really like to work on my Abs and that's when Miss. Secretary walked in and says "You don't even have an ass! What are you talking about!?".. Mamma B gave me that look like "oh. Shit!' As I turned around and went "WHAT!"?


Ummmmm firstly I wasn't even talking about my ass. (MY ABS)....but since your rude ass brought it up.......here we go.


Now mind you I am not Jenifer Lopez......I am a 5'11, Blue Eyed, Long legged Blonde, All-American female.....and yes I may not be fucking Pamela Anderson but I am Not a piece of fucking cardboard....and better yet.....I would prefer it if only my long -time friends would point out my obviously rather flawed
derriere.......

ok then....... back to to the tale at hand......

So she continues to go on about how I don't not have an ass and etc and then Proceeds to turn around and ask this MAN "don't you think she has no ass?" Well....the man says" I think she has a great ass...although she is in scrubs...I really like it".

Thank You Mr. MAN!

I don't know why that got to me......but it did....I mean really..... how would someone like it if was to act in that same manner.....? Rather un-nice.... if I must say.....as it would be like if I walked up to someone and went....."You know.....you have really bad hair, a saggy ass....so you need to get your sorry ass on out a here!"....well....tis not something I would say....as it is RUDE!!.....

so there you go....

The story does have a happy ending......I woke up this AM and Miss Secretary had written me an email apologizing for the rude comment and I accepted saying.."yes, it was rather petty".

but....... it was still juicy enough to blog about here.

Moving on......

I must go to work tonight......but its all good ......I have this song in my head about someone......you know the one from.... Carlos Santana......"Why don't you and I get together" I do believe this song is a fitting description about my state of mind and heart today.....

NICE!!

Hope you all have a bitchin fabulous day!!

Catch Y'all lata!!

Ciao

Electric, Sensational......Throw rugs.....

Well I just now rolled out of bed....at 2PM........I SLEPT SO GOOD!!! I feel like a million bucks today.....I think I may have kicked the insomnia bug.......I may have found the cure....finally...only took me 3 years to find it.....and it isn't any drug that one can buy ....or some crazy narcotic.....I found it by accident....I tripped and found it under the throw rug :)


Moving on....

Today I am listening to James Taylor and Van Morrison.....in that kind a mood....I know a certain someone would say "Ummmmm" but hey..I love all kinds of tunes...and sometimes Van takes me there....I will however... throw on something a bit more upbeat here in a minute ...right when I get ready to leave....just to livin shit up a bit....

I talked with Binks last night and wow buddie....you are in a lil drama there...just a bit....yea...so I do hope you get it all worked out and all is groovy,great,and grand in your life.....I sure wouldn't want to see you get fucked over.....and if you do....gimme a call.....I fix it 4 ya!!

Ok .....here is something interesting....I was reading the paper yesterday...if you can call the grouped up articles they put together and send out in this town a paper...tis rather cheesy...
anyho....
I was reading about how John McCain says the Oil-For-Food program might justify the invasion of Iraq...

???????????? WHAT!!!

Ok this just boggles my fucking mind it truly does..I love how after the fact the powers-that-be can find new ways of justifying the ever increasingly bloody war in Iraq. Seeing how we couldn't find any WMD's it is now due to theOil-For-Food scandal which may be one of the justifications for the invasion of Iraq...

I love how things keep changing and stories are put out to fit whatever agenda Washington deems suitable.

I highly recommend an article I just read..by Jude Wanniski.

Here is a few paragraphs...

What about the damning report of Charles Duelfer and his Iraqi Survey Group, which announced last month that Saddam Hussein destroyed all of his weapons of mass destruction and their programmes in 1991?
In his report, he also brought up the oil-for-food programme, which was never part of his mission when he was appointed by Bush to check further into Iraq's WMD intentions.Duelfer, who could not pretend to have found WMD when none existed, clearly used the oil-for-food programme to distract attention from his central finding.
The report gratuitously contained the thesis that if Saddam someday wanted to rebuild his WMD capabilities, he could be using the programme to that end, with the complicity of the French, Russians, Chinese, United Nations and major oil companies.
Logic should tell you, though, that the neo-cons have been behind this hoax from the start, that they never intended to lift the sanctions on Iraq even while knowing back in 1991 that Saddam almost certainly had complied with that first UN resolution. The Iraqis who are in a position to clear all this up and demonstrate that while certain transactions might appear suspicious on the surface, but can be fully explained, are not available for testimony.
The regime is under lock and key and not available to Rosett or Coleman. Volcker presumably has access to them, but is not sharing his findings with the US Congress, which he is not required to do.
His report to the UN will be made public and judgments can then be made. It may be there is no scandal at all. Just another trick of the neo-conservatives to blow away anyone who gets in the way of their plans for a global empire.


You can read the artilce in its entirety here...
http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/561BE24F-B06B-4CC1-B28A-F6845EA8E469.htm

I really have no comment...as the article speaks for itslef.

I am off to begin my day...late it may be.....but its still a good day..a shockingly good day.

Ciao babes!!

after work memo........

Here I be after work having a cold one.....no in all actuality its a warm one....all of the glasses were in the dishwasher as Mr. C had just run it.....and so they were a tad warm..wait...they were really warm..and me being such a dumb ass poured my Sammy Adams in and 'volia...instant warm beer.....I am really feeling the German in me today....almost literally...

ok..next item....

Had a good night @ the 'ol J tonight.....had some laughs with Puppy Girl and L Lady.....I think my 5 days off gave me the much needed attitude adjustment I was in dire need of...so all went well there....and...Surprisingly... I was really missed by a few .....so that's always nice....although...there wasn't anyone to flirt with tonight .....which is booooring....but I made it through....

So ........

I need to write an email to Shocker...seems we are having a bit of a communication problem.....seems I was misread.....seems everything has a "seems"..

So I bid all a goodnight......

Keep it on the Ice Y'all!!!......

Ciao

hmmmmmmmmm........

So today is a day that is....... well .........confusing to say the least....found out some info last night that I am not to sure what to do with......I just love this part......and the thing is I am glad I know it but then again I'm not. I wish I could go into further details but as luck would have it I am not at liberty to do so.....so yea......

There goes my Alarm.....I set it for almost noon today.....cos I have been staying up until around 4am......talking and listening and feeling.....and then there are those alarms..... its almost metaphorical......

Today's post is rather a riddle I know, but for those who know me....and maybe those who don't.....they can read between the lines.

Moving on and on .......

I have to work today..........5 days went by rather quickly and of course I got NOTHING accomplished......which is needless to say rather sad. I am actually looking forward to work today....be nice to get out this house and around some actual people other than the grumpy Mr.C. I still have not finished my exam and its not a good thing.....Flex classes are for the birds lemme tell ya.....when I sign up for classes tomorrow I will not be taking anymore...I am an individual who desperately needs DEADLINES!!!

Okay....I still need to figure out where I am going for a weekend this month.....Portland,North,Vegas? Now Vegas is really where I would prefer to be....SUN and FUN...I would love to go to Oregon.....I miss me pals and dancing my ass off with Binks.....we had some fun....cut that rug we did...... ;) Ahhhhhhhhh decisisons... decisions....

Ok then I must sign off......

Keep it Real folks

Ciao

All I need to know about some broken road

so I am in a mood today....and whatever mood I am in can be defined by the music I am listening to....today its Cuntry. :) ... ...."left me in the rain for my brothers sisters cousins uncle and on the way out the door took my 'ol dog blue...ohhhhh boo hoo.." yea...ok then.....

NO Really.....

In all seriousness I am listening to rascall flats and Kenny chesney.....love Kenny...mmm yea...and RF have a really really nice song I was introduced to....about a broken road...sounds a bit odd..but its a nice song..so I say thank you to a certain someone for leading me to this song...

SO .....I must shower and hit the 'ol fake -n-bake today...fading fast here...not a good thing...and its the only source of some kind of sunlight @ the moment...I think that may be one of the factors ...lack of sun...for my insomnia... I have been told its called seasonal disorder or some such shit....

Have you ever noticed that there is always some diagnosis for whatever it is that may be ailing you? Whether it be headache's or a swollen finger or bad breath.....always some big medical terminology to describe and define your current condition....cant be that perhaps you have bad breath..slammed your finger in the drawer and drank entirely to much Vodka the night before?....
I mean seriously...when you watch those commercials about headaches and if you are having recurring ones then take "this" and all will be cured...I don't think so...if I was having recurring headaches for any length of time I do believe I would be finding out why....and stop trying to mask the symptoms....truly....

Ok I am done with today's rants....although I could return with some other rhetoric that I find amusing and worth spewing out....

Ciao babes

Oh My God.....

Tis the name of a song I am listening to @ the moment....By Pink ........love her...and this song is well ...HOT!!

Ok lets begin....

in the last hour I have talked to 2 of me bestest friends...Patti Anne and Binks...we had some laughs. Seems that Binks and I are in a similar situation...both kind of gotten ourselves involved with people we shall call mysterious.....and sometimes mysterious is to much of a mystery and that is scary/cool/hot/weird/and on and on.... but the advice we decided upon was that I need to bite the bullet and do as Patti says "FUCK IT " dive in and if its worth it.. its worth it..if not... its not my loss........wow........I so love my friends and I am so glad to have them both.....so I shall heed to the advice of my pals and see what's what...and solve my Shocking mystery. As Patti said ......I will live regardless....and always have my friends to stand by me...

Moving On....

I finally SLEPT!!! WOW!!....great to catch some Zzzzzzzzzzzzz's finally...although my brother's friends woke me up....seems one of his pals was a bit perturbed to find out that Berry so and so for some baseball team is on steroids and he wont watch Baseball anymore.....I know all of this cos he was YELLING it in the hallway outside of my room! nice. I am sorry to hear he is so disillusioned with this player guy...but can we not scream it outside of my bedroom door?

Thank you very little...

So X-mas is coming and I am not really in the holiday spirit...for some reason I don't know why....just seems so comercialized to me anymore....buy..buy...buy...spend..spend..spend... $$$$..yea....although I must admit seeing my gifts being opened by my family does make me smile in the nicest way...tis the best part.

Ok then... I have a feeling I will be sharing more on this public diary later on this evening...

Catch ya on the flip side...

Ciao

Random thoughts

well obviously I am still up...still no sleep. I had actually fallen asleep on my couch when my brother banged on the door and woke me up. Seems he didn't want to stay over after the big wedding today...opted to come home and bug me....which is ok....its a good kind of bug.

So Suzilla called me tonight...always good to hear from her...she wants me to come back to Portland and hang out...not to sure if I will or not...I will definitely have to think about it. The thing is though...I went back to see everyone in Aug. and it was ..well....not to good of an experience and I am reluctant to have a repeat of the same ol' shit...but it is nice to be missed and needed......


I just finished and sent off my last essay......YES! Hope I did ok on it....so far I have received 2 B's and 1 A in that class......this will be the final grade. I never did get to the test..I am doing that in the morning as well as writing essays for B. Law. I don't know why I make this shit so hard...the writing part I mean...once I start I do enjoy the process...its just the getting started part that's the drag.

I must also tom. Sign up for my Spring classes........no more FLEX classes.....I need DEADLINES!!!....

Ok then mates.......hope you are all having fun and being funky....Certainly wish I was...


being funky that is...

Ciao 4 Now

Sandman send me a dream.......

INSOMNIA-Chronic inability to fall asleep or remain asleep for an adequate length of time.

Yup. That would be me........I am a walking zombie......fucking feel like death. Why o why wont the sandman come take me by the hand and lead me to that all wonderful place I like to call sleep? I feel like I am being punished for something I have done...........either in this life or in a past one...I don't know if you all can relate to what it feels like to not be able to sleep...for... lemme me see now....approximately 10 days...but ITS NOT RIGHT!!! Fucked up in a big,big,way man...What's worse is nothing helps me sleep...Ambien,TY-PM's,trazadone...nothing...I know its due to stress...and I really don't know what else to do about that...the stress that is...I mean I workout, eat me vitamins....try and eat well and drink my 8 glasses of H2O a day...I do just about everything one would tell you to do........hell beer doesn't even work...I tried that last night...just to sleep...not having a few cold suds for the fun, but to sleep.......now that's whacked baby..truly...so after 3 beers I finally laid down at 4Am and I was up at 7Am...

cry...yup maybe I can cry myself to sleep....

somethings gotta give..

My bro is getting ready to jet on out of town 4 the night..my cousin is taking the VOWS today so Mr.C is going to go and attend the festivities. I wish my cuz all the best and all the happiness in the world.Congrats!

I must go and try and get some school work done...if I can concentrate long enough to get it done...

Oh boy aint life grand at times?

Ciao babes

Dreamweaver........

I am in an 80's tunes slump today......just did my workout to all the groovin classics.......way fun....so here is a list of things I, Myself, must accomplish today.

1. Shower
2. Drive to Albertson’s and grab some java and kitty food.
3. Hit Starbucks while exiting.
4. Arrive back here at ground zero and write a paper....which is actually done to be truthful ;)
5. Take that ^&%$^%$^$!! Exam in my B.LAW course.
6. Pray for some real sleep.....

(Of course.....somewhere in there I needed to be dressed.....)

Sleep. Its been evading me for about 3 weeks now......like some reluctant lover...wants to be here and then reality hits.... and its the big....SEE YA!!

Really not much fun..

I do plan on updating my thoughts on current events here some time soon.....like tonight most likely.....as I have heard that Bush is sending more troops to Iraq.........not good.....I will elaborate more on that later....

But I do have something pretty funny to add here today.....I read this the other day...

Some crazy Right Wingers tried to get Bert and Ernie (of Sesame Street) pulled from public broadcasting because they were cohabitating. Can u believe this shit.....?

Ummmm..............puppets are made of.... well. Felt, for Christ’s sake. . Puppets whom are not living breathing organisms. and amongst other things don’t have genitals. But.... since they both wore pants and they both lived in the same place its blatantly obvious they are gay-puppets pulling each others strings...right....

What kind of sicko sat there and watched these two citrus-colored puppets singing about the alphabet and thought, " Hey those lil dudes are doing the nasty!"

Isn’t that kind of thinking just a bit deranged?

So I guess by censoring the broadcast as someone is misconstruing what the true message is....will in some way prevent children from becoming homosexuals.....that’s the whole point of the agenda now isn’t it?

I was always under the impression that at birth you were designed as to whom you would and wouldn’t be......I guess I got that wrong......seems that public broadcasting is the real culprit..

Those conniving bastards!!!

So.....all of you scared red state individuals grab your kids away from that Television...wouldn’t want to unduly influence the poor child...better let them go play some blood splattering/murdering SPS game or watch Britney Spears gyrate all over herself...

I don’t have children...if I did......

well at least they would get to watch sesamee street.....

Ciao babes!!!

what was that again?

So here is me sitting around doing nothing. I just actually had this quick cat nap...literally. I laid down to pet my Kitty and fell asleep next to her...but her animal dreams (twitching,jerking) woke me up. I have always wondered what cats dream about....chasing dem mices and rolling in cat nip I spose...friendly happy dreams...... unlike the ones I have had in the past....

Moving On...

So this is laughs....Seriously. For the first time I AM NOT the one who woke up goin What the the fuck did I say to my(almost) gf/bf last night? Yes! I just got off the phone with Shocker who is completely ....well...shocked about what came out of Shockers drunken mouth last night. I had some really interesting voicmails this morning.....I should have saved them......dammit....why didnt I? Anyway.......tis ok there Shocker......no biggie.....heheheh......better you than me though babe !

mmmmmmm


Ok.... I must run to the U.S Postal Office to send off a parcel for school and come back and try to take an exam.....I am so tired today though.......the insomnia is finally getting the best of me now.....I should really just sleep....my body and mind are telling me to SLEEP....but when I have all this shit to do......no time for the much needed Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz's

ok folks have a bitchin Thursday.....


On side note

I am a lil pissed off here....I just noticed that the post I put up last night has somehow, mysteriousley disapeared..now WTF? Where in the HELL did it go?
Dammit man!
I will have to re-do it now........

I liked that post.....

Ah hell



ciao 4 Now

Snow baby

Woke up and what do you know? Snow outside....Its a first for me in awhile. Now mind you I grew up in the Northwest and had become accustomed to the snowy, cold winters....but in the past few years in all my travels I haven't been living in areas where it snowed......so I must admit its quite nice. Its refreshing in some strange,cool way.

Today is me Friday and then I will have the next 5 days off from the J, veddy nice.....like a mini holiday.....I am in dire need of one.

I need to pay respects here to my bestest friend.......Patty Anne......we have been friends for the pat 5 years...best friends.....we worked together and had a blast @ the old J....I miss her dearly and am so grateful to have her as my friend. She just called me and made me feel so much better about everything....she is a great shoulder to have in times when I need that...which, my friends..... as of late.. is a lot......anyway I just wanted the world to know that this person is absolutely Fabulous! Everyone should be lucky enough to have a Patty Anne in their life.

Well with that I will sign off but before I go I would like to recommend a song ...we shall call it Coleyzzz song for the day. Train's "Get To Me" off their CD "My Private Nation".. tis a bitchin tune and makes me smile......as I can apply it to so many people in my life.....but today its especially for a certain someone...

Be good y'all!

Ciao 4 Now